I tried,
I watched,
My words
Useless
I tried,
I saw,
I spoke,
But it was
All futile
I poured it all
You saw it
It was all the same
My head hangs low
I mourn for you
You may not see it
I’ve learned
That my friends
Are the only ones I trust
My family
My god
My brother…
I’ve abandonded
All of them
But my friends
Few they are
I cherish them
I do not tell the truth
All the time
But I never lie
Prying into my life
Painful as it may be
Is the only way
To find the true me
The surface is smiles,
Laughs and shininess
I find value in every
Shining person I find
To those new ones I find
Cherish your life,
I find some value in it
No matter how pitiful
You think it is…
There will be a reason
You may not have it now
But you’ll find it in the end
It won’t be appearent now
But you’ll find it
Looking back on my own
The times I wanted to die
The times I saw the blood
In my wrists,
I look back
The words I said,
The words that only my brother
Heard,
I shook my head
Those words were
Out of desperation
Then I look to the present
To the friends I have
Some shiny bright
Some have a dull glow
I still cherish them all
Some of them play with my mind
Some of them have words that are true
I try not to see the surface
As most of the see me
The surface,
Well now you’ve seen a face
A small part of me
My feelings
My emotions
My pain
Sometimes I have serious talks
Most of the time it’s just joking
Some of you see the happy me
Some of you see me angry
None of you save a few
See the real me,
Those who read my writings
See a glimpse of the real me
Well now I’ll shut up
Like I always do
I’ll stop because
It’s all trash
Your not really reading this
I only made you read it,
So post your comments
Tell me how it’s not true
Tell me that you care
Tell me I’m an ass
Tell me to fuck off
Tell me you don’t care
See if I give a fuck
If you want an apology
Here shove it up your fucking ass
And thanks for reading my trash