ficeverythingwillbeokay

                Title: Everything will be okay
                 Author: Kate
                 Email: [email protected]
                 Distribution: Anywhere, just give me a heads up if you want to use
                 it.
                 Rating: PG
                 Summary: Cordy's pretty depressed after being fired until she gets
                 an unexpected visit.
                 Author's Note: Sorry if this totally sucks but it's my first fic,
                 please don't flame me too badly.

                   He left?It's been over an hour and I still can't believe that he
                 left; and he fired us!?! How could he have done that? How could
                 Angel turn his back on us? More importantly, how could he turn his
                 back on me? I once told him that I would stick by him through
                 anything and this is the thanks that I get? Being cast aside like I
                 was a burden to him.

                   Even if he turned away from me as a friend, how does he think he's
                 going to help people without his seer? I'm his goddamn link to the
                 Powers That Be and he acts as though I'm not important, that he
                 doesn't need me, doesn't want me to help. What am I supposed to do
                 with my visions now? Am I supposed to help these people myself? I
                 mean I carry a pretty nasty remark but I'm not heavy in the brawn
                 area.

                   Now all I can do is sit here, contemplating my situation, and
                 trying to understand what he's going through, but I can't. I'll never
                 be able to grasp how he could turn away from three of the people who
                 care about him the most when he needed us the most. Wes, Gunn, and I
                 would have helped him no matter what, because we're friends, we're
                 family.

                   Wes and Gunn left a while ago but I'm still sitting in his office,
                 waiting, brooding.   I think deep down I'm hoping that he'll come
                 walking back through the door, laughing at how easily he fooled us.
                 I know that it's false hope, but that's all that I have. Otherwise,
                 I'm stuck here trying to understand what I did wrong, what I could
                 have done differently, and why I'm destined to always be left
                 behind. First Xander and now Angel, once again I'm left in the dust
                 by someone that I care about.

                   I'm so lost in though that I don't even notice when someone enters
                 the office.

                   "Cordelia?" I turn around at the sound of my voice and suddenly
                 I'm staring into a pair of friendly and warm brown eyes.

                   "Oh, hey Gunn."

                   He crouches down next to me and looks me straight in the
                 eyes. "It's late, what are you still doing here?"

                   I've been trying so hard not to cry but he's looking at me like
                 he's really listening, it's been such a long time since someone has
                 looked at me like that. I find myself voicing my fear. "I don't
                 want to be alone." I hate how weak I sound but I can't hold the pain
                 inside any longer and it feels good to finally be letting it out.

                   He looks surprised at my confession and even more stunned when I
                 grab him but soon his arms go around me and he's whispering
                 comforting things into my ear. "You're not alone, and together we're
                 going to get Angel back. But until we do you've got Wesley, who's
                 worried sick about you by the way, and you've got me. We'll get
                 through this, I promise."

                   As he strokes my hair and I start to calm down I can't help but
                 start to believe that everything will be okay.