I have made it through another weekend. This was a much more sedate weekend than I have been used to as of late. Not a whole lot of partying or drinking, which is certainly not a bad thing.

Friday, I went for a motorcycle ride and went out with a friend that night. She and I went to the VFW where we were met by Justin and Sally. It was nice that they could join us and get out of the house. We played Pool and threw some darts before heading to the gas station to pick up some beer and head back to Justin and Sally's. We played a few drinking games before we all crashed out at their place. It was a fun night and nice to be able to have a small party with Justin and Sally again.

Saturday, Justin, Ricky, and I played basketball during the morning before we got a hair up our butts to pop the top on the Bronco. So after I went and bought a socket to fit the torx bolt we spent about 30 minutes taking the top off. Then it was time to get it on the road and enjoy the wind and the sun. So the guys (Justin, Dalton, Ricky, and myself) went for a ride. Later that day it was time for a small cookout. I invited Justin, Sally, Dalton, Pat, Nicole, and my friend from Friday over for it and we had a good time. Then a few of us headed to Spirits to hang out. I wasn't in much of a party mood so I had two and headed back home to hit the sack for the night.

On Sunday we put the top back on the Bronco and then Justin, Sally, Dalton, and I went to Jacksonville to shop and eat. After that Justin and I cleaned the Bronco inside and out. Then I went on a motorcycle ride and went to bed.

In other words I did a lot this last weekend but nothing real exciting. That is fine with me. Sometimes I need a nice relaxed weekend. I will be on call next weekend so I am sure I will have another uneventful weekend this week too. Unless I get paged a bunch of times.

Enough with the personal updates. Why don't I get on to some other things. I guess this one will just be another ramble but let's do it anyway.

Regrets are everywhere in our lives. If you don't have regrets you also don't have any experiences. I have plenty of regrets in my life but I can't let them bother me. I still think about my regrets sometimes but I don't let myself dwell on them, because no matter how much I want to go back and change them I can't.

Yesterday is gone, Tomorrow doesn't exist, Today is here and real.

That is how I try to think anymore. It is hard to at times but we all have to do it. If we concentrate all our thoughts on what used to then we are setting ourselves up to miss the boat that may be presenting itself to us today. Then what do we have after that? Another regret because we were concentrating on our past regrets. I am not the best person to be giving advice on letting things go because I have always had a hard time doing it myself. I have finally began to be able to do it though and I must tell you it has helped me immensely.

In the last few months I have had more fun than I can ever remember having. I have been....well I really don't know what to call it, I have called it dating in the past but I am not sure that is right. I really don't believe it is dating exactly because they know I am not sure what I want in my social life right now, but anyway, let's call it running around with. So I have been running around with quite a few single ladies lately and not worrying about anything except having a good time. I have also been doing whatever I want whenever I want, which when you think about it, that is probably the way it should be.

I have given up my worries and thus lost a lot of the stress in my life. I don't worry about social standing, being loved, my past misfortunes, or anything that doesn't have to do with today because none of them are worth worrying about. If someone doesn't like me or doesn't want to associate with me, oh well it is their loss. If a person doesn't love me, who cares there are plenty of people who do. My past misfortunes are just that, part of a past time and can't be changed. Most importantly if it doesn't effect today then it simply doesn't exist. I am done living for a past emotion or to right past wrongs. I now live for the current day, not yesterday, not tomorrow, not next week, not a year from now. When I meet a girl and date her I no longer ask myself if I can see myself with her in ten years, now I ask myself if I am having fun at this moment;

"because after all, that is all life is, just a series of moments"
Loki (Matt Damon) - Dogma

If the answer I give myself is yes then I just enjoy the moment. If the answer is no then I change something around to make sure I enjoy myself.

I am not saying I never worry about anything, I still get nervous and shy around people but I try not to worry about the past or the fictitious future. The future is all fiction until it is present, because until it is here it is not real.

So make your plans for tomorrow but don't let today depend on those plans. Let today be today. Let today be all you need. Let today bring your friends to you. Let today make you happy.

Later,
Coopedaddy