I have survived another extended weekend with minimal remnants of the parties. Unfortunately all weekends lead to just one thing, the next work week. That is what I have made it to now and of course that sucks. That is life so oh well.

I am adding another small feature to the commentaries, actually I am just going to be continuing what I seem to have been doing in the last few commentaries. I am going to be replacing the "Movie of the Moment" with a "Various Artist Song of the Moment". Movies really are an intellect draining medium (not that I don't watch them) that I feel would be better replaced by a various song. Once again these songs, like the Smashing Pumpkins' songs, will be songs that I relate to. Of course this is not the most exciting news ever but I thought I would explain before I just changed it. It will start with this very commentary.

Now it is time to get on with business. Today's commentary is simply another relating commentary that is not meant to do anything except be something for people to relate to. Now on with the commentary.

Life is as unpredictable and dificult as can be imagined. None of us can contrl everything in our lives, or really have all that much effect on what ends up of our life. In the grand scheme of everything, we are a such an insignificant piece of the proverbial pie that we are nearly nothing. Of course, we each like to believe our significance is much more than it is in actuallity.

No matter how much control we believe we have, we actually have very little over anything but ourselves. You can make someone love you, you can't make a car never break down, you can't make everyone laugh at your joke, and you sure as hell can't make anyone else do anything that they don't want to do. That is why much of the time, we must go with the flow of things and tried to hold on to ourselves. Not that I am one to take advice from on the subject of going with the flow.

No matter how good of a grip any of us have on this concept, it is very hard to deal with when it is forced upon you. We all want to change things around us or make someone feel differently but we can not. It sucks if you think about it but that is the way it is. Even though we know that we can change how others think or act or feel we still try to do so. This then lead to a lot of heart ache and stress on our parts. I am terrible about this part and am not saying I am not. I am saying that it caused me a lot stress that I didn't need.

I tore myself up trying to make people feel differently about me and trying to make them like or love me. I still worry about it at times and that also leads to unwanted/unneeded frustrations. I am starting to accept the flow of things though and I am actually liking it. Since I have started just laying back and letting the flow carry me I have been able to establish quite a nice amount of phone numbers. I have even been able to schedule a whole weekend of activities without seeing the same girl twice in a three weekend span. I am not letting the flow completely carry me though because sometimes the flow can get you into more trouble than necessary. I am letting the flow allow me to meet new interesting ladies and enjoy spending time with all of them without worrying about a serious relationship. No I am not living out all the male whore comments my friends use about me but I am having fun. Let's face it we can control that in our lives, we can always make ourselves have fun in one way or another.

Well that was a boring commentary, wasn't it? I am sorry maybe I can make it better with the songs I pick for the day. I hope you enojy them.

Until Next Time,
Coopedaddy