I am back with another commentary. Once again there have been a lot of changes since last time and I am not sure they are all good. Screw the babble and Let's get on with it.

Crystal came by a couple weeks ago and we had a good time hanging out and although we acted just as friends for some reason feelings resurfaced. I felt extremely bad being with Amy and still have feelings for Crystal, so I told Amy about it and said I didn't think it was fair to her. So we broke up. I hate seeing like that and I felt like shit for doing that to her. I still feel like shit for it and I am not sure it was the best thing to do. I think I may have screwed up terribly.

So Crystal and I decided to try it again. She said she would prove to me that I didn't need to be scared, that I could trust her, and that she would be there for the long haul. Well I haven't seen any of this yet and all we have done is argue because I feel like I am just going to be hurt again. This will be the last time if it does happen. I hope I didn't make a huge mistake, because this one will hurt 100 times worse than any time before. I am so scared of everything. I don't know what to do. I feel like I will be the only making sacrifices for this. I have already sacrificed more than she or anyone else knows. If it ends up as it has before I am going to feel dead inside. I don't know what to do.

Unfortunately my mind isn't working well enough right now to put out any more for you all. I am sorry but there is too much on my mind right now to do this. I don't know when I will be able to write again, I hope it is sooner than later, but I don't know. Please check in every so often for new commentaries and crap.

Coopedaddy

I really could care less about movies right now.