Reading over those last few commentaries I realized that a couple could have been misinterpreted as to what I really meant. I am sorry for any confusion you may have had with them. I was just trying to show some of my own confusion and that lead to others being confused by what I was saying. I am sorry to those of you who were bothered by it. Please accept this and try to enjoy some of the forthcoming commentaries.

During some of those past ones I had not open my eyes and looked at what I had around me. This Easter weekend made me realize what I do have. I wish I had listened to the person that had told me to open my eyes and looked around me a little bit sooner. I thought love was no longer around me. I thought that without that life was not worth crap. Well without that it probably isn't worth crap. I realized, though, that I have more love around me than I could ever know what to do with. I have an awesome family. I have the greatest friends anyone has ever known. On top of that I have so many of them it is amazing. If only I would have seen all I had earlier, if I only I had listened to that person tell me that and not worried so much about a relationship all the time.

Let me tell you a little about some of this weekend that helped with this realization. I started out my extended Easter Vacation the wrong way and felt horrible because of it. On Friday I hooked with Pat and we played video games and took Tristy to the Vet. We had a good talk and he gave me great advice. He understood how I felt and did everything he could to keep my mind off of my mistakes. Then on Saturday Mike and Toni invited me to Mike's parents house for an Easter Dinner. The whole family treated me great making me feel right at home. They even got me embarassed a couple times and that is not an easy feat. That night some of us went out to see a band in Greenfield. On Sunday my friends once again invited me to their family's dinner and then we were all invited to another set of friends' house. What I am getting at is that these friends would not let be alone to think about my screw ups and failures. Every moment they made sure I was with someone. Every moment they made sure my mind was off everything except being with them.

They all know when I am not feeling the greatest no matter how hard I try to hide it. They all take care of me and they all have shown me how much love I really do have in my life. You don't necessarily need to have a woman in your life to feel immense love for you. All you need is a few good friends, and I am blessed with more than I can count. I just hope I am as good to them as they all are to me. The world does not seem nearly as cruel when you know you have your gang of friends to stand beside you and help you beat it into submission. I always plan on being there to help them beat it down and I know they will always be there with me. No matter how many miles are between us or days between when we talk, We are always standing side by side by side by side by side. I treasure that fact.

With how great this was going, unfortunately, I have to put in a fact I am sorry for. With the stupid actions, that were my worries of the weekend, I chased one of my friends off, that I regret more than they know. I hope someday I will be able to show them I am sorry but who knows. I just know that no matter how many friends I have, I never want to lose any of them.

I will leave you with a good note though. No matter what life throws at me in this life I will always know how lucky I am to have these friends. Thanks to all of them I can still say, "Lovin', it's what I got. So remember that. Lovin', it's what I got."

Cherish all you do have,
Coopedaddy

A brand new original twist on the good ole horror movie. On this guys way to go pick up the girl he is falling for he bails his brother out of jail and sets out on his journey. At the first stop His jailbird brother pays to have a CB installed in the car. That night they are playing jokes on the CB heads. As the jailbird eggs his brother on to sounding like a woman and telling a trucker to meet him at a hotel room as a prank. The next morning they wake up to find out the guy in the room that they told the trucker to meet him at was murdered. It is all a nonstop roller coaster from then on. With the eary voice of Rusty Nail following them all over. Truly a unique way to present the horror movie.