I am back once again to bestow my ramblings upon each and every one of you. As I am typing up this Commentary I still have not really thought of a good topic for it, but I really wanted to release and get one out. In other words, this might end up being the worst commentary I have put up yet. So I will apologize in advance, Sorry to put you all through this.

First I thought I would do this on how everyone should make sure they mean what they say before they say it. Then I thought it could be another one on how stupid I feel sometimes. Then I thought about it being another "This World Sucks" piece. In the end I realized everyone is tired of seeing those types of commentaries which may be why my last 3 commentaries have not even been read by anyone but myself. I don't feel they are a waste of time, because I enjoyed writing them but I do not want to put these things up here for people to be annoyed by. I can be a very whiny soul at times and I feel that turns many people off to me, as it should. There we go that's a topic, Things I need to change and why.

I look at myself sometimes and think about all the things I need to change about myself. When I say this I mean personality wise which is an area that anyone can change if they truly want to. Everyone has traits that they want to change and if you don't either you just can't see them or you are someone I truly envy.

Anger used to be my big problem but I believe I have calmed down the rage part of it and became better in that aspect. My worst problem now is my inability to accept things at times. If someone is gone and I don't want them to be I can't accept that my time in their life has passed. This then does lead to anger, not the rage I used to experience but an anger that leaves me drained and confused and emptier each time it happens. I want to allow myself to accept things even the things that are not what I feel best. Once I can accept them as they are then I will no longer feel the stress of trying to change them.

Another part of me that I simply cannot stand is how I am so damn emotional. I don't necessarily believe that guys shouldn't cry but I wish I didn't do it so much. Sometimes it just happens over a memory or a thought and there I am a big soggy puddle. I just once want to be able to talk about something that bothers or hurts me without bawling. Maybe I will figure out a way to do that sometime. I sure hope so.

There are many things I want to change about myself at least in the emotional category. I have came to grips with many that I have tried to change. I just need the time and motivation to do so. I have that motivation now. Despite the comfort that comes with being sad I would still rather be happy in my personal life. In order to do this I will have to at least become in control of some of these thing I want to change and once I do maybe the rest will fall into place.

I am sure glad I pointed out at the beginning of this commentary that there was never a real direction to it. I am upset that after saying I wanted to make these so more people would want to read them, I produced probably the most boring commentary thus far (and hopefully ever). I would say I hope you all come back next time for my next commentary but after this one I don't expect any of you to.

Later,
Coopedaddy

A Monty Python classic, which, like all other Monty Pythons, seems to be more greatly appreciated by the male half of the population. The British humor shines bright within this piece of work. The horseless clan of King Arthur and his friends are on the quest for the Holy Grail. Along their journey they meet the Knights who say NEET, the oppressed villagers, the almighty Tim, and of course the killer rabbit. It is a nonstop laugh fest from start to finish. Plus the educational value of this movie is priceless where else do you hear them speak about the air speed velocity of a swallow carrying a coconut?