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Coopedaddy's Commentaries: Featured Smashing Pumpkins' Songs |
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Awhile back I began to add the Smashing Pumpkins' song of the moment in each one of my commentaries. I did this as a way to honor the band and music that saw me through so many things. I have a relationship with each one of the songs that I presented. Whether I relate to it in a happy, mad, or sad way each of these songs are special to me. I hope you have enjoyed them as much as i enjoyed sharing them. With this page I plan on having all the songs in an archive of sorts. With each song I will have a brief description of why I included it and then the lyrics. I hope you enjoy and return soon. Thanks. |
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1. The Imploding Voice The first song to be featured was this one. This one always struck me as telling the story of someone who everyone thinks knows exactly what they want and need, while in their head they are as lost as you can be. Yet they continue to have a confident facade on for all to see. I see myself in this role many times. Lyrics:
Is everywhere you've been Just lost to the beat Punching thru your skin You don't know what to do But still you wanna crawl All thru the broken glass That's eveywhere you are Your love must always be true Your love must always be you Everywhere you are Anywhere you go Even if you're starved It matters what you do But even if you've gone too far You can follow you Everywhere you are And in your mind You were alone All this time With everything you were And every smile you wore Still locked in your heart Everywhere you are Everywhere you are Every single chard Everywhere you are You're never too far Cause anywhere you'd go Even to the stars All you have to do Is play the part of who you are The rest is up to you Phase unwound By yourself Atom bomb On the shelf unsung Pause of light Pulse of life New face dawns Everywhere you are And everywhere you go Even if you're down Even if you're low It's in the thought of you It's in the eyes of all Astride a storied past That's everywhere you are Your love must always be true Your love must always be you Everywhere you are Anywhere you go Even if you're scarred It's all a part of you But ever should you put it down You can never lose me Everywhere you are |
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2. Crestfallen This really meant a lot to me during a time in my life when I felt left behind. I felt like I did not deserve anything and I felt alone. Just a very intense emotional song to me. Lyrics:
Where are you when I need you around Your life is not your own And all I ask you Is for another chance Another way around you To live by circumstance, once again Who am I to need you now To ask you why to tell you no To deserve your love and sympathy You were never meant to belong to me And you may go, but I know you won't leave Too many years built into memories Your life is not your own Who am I to need you now To ask you why to tell you no To deserve your love and sympathy You were never meant to belong to me Who am I to you? Along the way I lost my faith And as you were, you'll be again To mold like clay, to break like dirt To tear me up in your sympathy You were never meant to belong to me You were never meant to belong to me You were never meant to belong to me Who am I? |
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3. Perfect To me this is a story of former lovers that are attempting to be friends. Unfortunately, it is not working out because the feelings from the past are still too strong thus not allowing the "just friends" deal to work. I have been there and done that. Lyrics:
We just can't pretend That lovers make amends We are reasons so unreal We can't help but feel that something has been lost But please you know you're just like me Next time I promise we'll be Perfect Perfect Perfect strangers down the line Lovers out of time Memories unwind So far I still know who you are But now I wonder who I was... Angel, you know it's not the end We'll always be good friends The letters have been sent on So please, you always were so free You'll see, I promise we'll be Perfect Perfect strangers when we meet Strangers on the street Lovers while we meet Perfect You know this has to be We always we're so free We promised that we'd be Perfect |
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4. A Night Like This Another song that I related to when there was a break up in my life. The wishing for things to be back the way they were. The hoping that she was just confused. I could hear my own voice within this song. Lyrics:
If it's the last thing we ever do You never looked as lost as this Sometimes it doesn't even look like you It goes dark It goes darker still Please stay But I watch you like I'm made of stone As you walk away I'm coming to find you if it takes me all night A witch hunt for another girl For always and ever is always for you Your trust The most gorgeously stupid thing I ever cut in the world Say hello on a day like today Say it everytime you move The way that you look at me now Makes me wish I was you It goes deep It goes deeper still This touch And the smile and the shake of your head I'm coming to find you if it takes me all night Can't stand here like this anymore For always and ever is always for you I want it to be perfect Like before I want to change it all I want to change |
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5. Ugly This song was the story of my high school years. I could look in the mirror and be absolutely disgusted with what I saw. Whether or not I was right ot think these things I have no idea but I know that is how I felt. I felt I had many good qualities to offer but I couldn't keep from having self-esteem problems throughout my whole life because of these feelings of ugliness. Lyrics:
I don't like what I see staring back at me Everything is clearer I'll never see what you see It's not me So beautiful and free I'll never be what you need Can't help at all I was born so beautiful But now I'm ugly And I rot in my skin As a piece of me dies everyday I know I'm nothing I know there's nothing I can say To change The judegment in their ways I'll never be what you need Can't help at all My love was so beautiful But now I'm ugly Yeah... I'm good enough, but I don't care I'm good enough, but I'm not there I'm good enough, but I don't care The sun is out, but I'm not there I'm good enough, but I don't care The sun is out, but I'm not there I'm good enough I'm good enough I don't look in the mirror I don't like what I see staring back at me Everything is clearer I'll never see what you see And I rot in my skin As a piece of me dies everyday I know I'm nothing Because I'm ugly |
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6. Fuck You (an Ode to No One) Have you ever felt that everyone was against you. How about have you ever been so stubborn that no matter what it would take you would not allow yourself to give in, just so you could say "Fuck You!!" to everyone that said you couldn't do it? Well that is why this song was my theme song for quite awhile. Lyrics:
I'm never giving in I'll never be the shine in your spit I disconnect the act I disconnect the dots I disconnect the me in me And you're mistaken, It's you that's faking Living and breathing and dying too This message is for anyoine who dares to hear a fool You can't bring me back, you can't bring me back Cause I give it all back to you Thru sacred alleys, the living wrecks Wreak their havoc upon this world The disenchanted, the romantics, The body and face and soul of you is gone down that deep black hole Destroy the mind-destroy the body-but you cannot destroy the heart And you, you make me so I need to disconnect And you make it so real I don't need your love to disconnect To runaround kids in get-go cars With vaseline afterbirths and neon coughs Galaxies full of nobodies Giving us the farewell runarounds I took a virgin mary axe to his sweet baby jane, lost my innocence to a no good girl, scratch my face with anvil hands, and coil my tongue around a bumblebee mouth And I give it all back to you No way, I don't need it, I don't need your love to disconnect And you make it, so real, I don't need your love to disconnect No way to disconnect And you make it so real I don't need your love to disconnect No way to disconnect |
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7. Tristessa Okay, okay, the main reason I put this song on here is because I named my ferret Tristessa, so put this here as well. I dop love this song though, but I do not have a real reason. Lyrics:
My heart embraced Struggle to renew Blurry mind so hypnotized Fast enough who Wonder where you are Tristessa Soul takes soul As I take eye I will wait for you Hang on to your life Tristessa I love you true Surely I do I love you true Surely I do Surely I do Surely I do (no) Do you ever wake up and find yourself alone? Do you ever wake far from home? What you believe You'll wish to recieve I won't believe in you Tristessa Tristessa Tristessa |
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8. With Every Light This song was one of those songs I listened to when I was taking things way too seriously and stressing out. To me it is a very lighthearted, happy, carefree song. The sun is always shining down on you as long as you let it. A mental state. Lyrics:
We're taking over Throw the weight up off you shoulders now That we can show our love It's almost over it's almost over No more war and no more soldiers To stand against his love Away with all the troubles that you've made Away with waiting for another day Away Look ma the sun is shining on me Impatient, in love and aching to be Could you believe in heaven If heaven was all you had We're taking over we're taking over Throw away your four leafed clovers And stand beside this love Away with everything you've grown to hate Away with anything that holds you safe Away And every light I've found Is every light that's shining down on me I'm never alone Look ma the sun is shining on me Taking my time to do as I please Could you believe in heaven If heaven was all you had The sun is beaming, radiating All the love we are creating We are creating And every light I've found Is every light that's shining down on me I'm never alone |
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9. Thirty-Three This song is how I have trying to live my life. The story it tells to me is of friendship and its incredible strength. I hear a man talking who is completely hurting, lost love, a feeling of being surrounded by strangers. Then when he returns back to where he started his friends are still there and still care. Lyrics:
Humour me before I have to go Deep in thought I forgive everyone As the cluttered streets greet me once again I know I can't be late, supper's waiting on the table Tomorrow's just an excuse away So I pull my collar up and face the cold, on my own The earth laughs beneath my heavy feet At the blasphemy in my old jangly walk Steeple guide me to my heart and home The sun is out and up and down again I know I'll make it, love can last forever Graceful swans of never topple to the earth And you can make it last, forever you You can make it last, forever you And for a moment I lose myself Wrapped up in the pleasures of the world I've journeyed here and there and back again But in the same old haunts I still find my friends Mysteries not ready to reveal Sympathies I'm ready to return I'll make the effort, love can last forever Graceful swans of never topple to the earth Tomorrow's just an excuse And you can make it last, forever you You can make it last, forever you |
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10. Age of Innocense To me this is the anthem of youth. We don't care what our actions bring, and we won't hesitate. A mixture of stupidity, courage, and hope. You have to give your all to recieve it back, "If you want love, you must be love". Yet, that can still be dangerous, "If you bleed love, you will die loved". Meaning, to me at least, that you must give love to receive it but if you give all you have away and save none for yourself then you will die to yourself. I give all my love and I will never quit but I understand the consequences. Lyrics:
To ride these streets unafraid Resigned to scraping paint From our bones unashamed No more the eye upon you No more the simple man Desolation yes hesitation no Desolation yes hesitation no As you might have guessed all is never shown Desolation yes hesitation no And in my prayers I dream alone A silent speech to deaf ear If you want love you must be love But if you bleed love you will die loved No more the lie upon you Cast into stone and autumn shade Desolation yes hesitation no Desolation yes hesitation no As you might have sensed we won't make it home Desolation yes hesitation no Before the rites of spring - Come to mean all things A little taste of what may come - A mere glimpse of what has gone Cause for the moment we are free - We seek to bind our release Too young to die too rich to care too fucked to swear that I was there Desolation yes hesitation no Desolation yes hesitation no As you might have guessed we won't make it home Desolation yes hesitation no |
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11. Geek U.S.A. This song is a high speed train wreck, with a certain hidden story. The innocent boy and girl fall in love and pretend to themsleves that it will last forever. Finally, it falls apart, the girl leaves him, her parents are assuming they know what is going on. Then realizing she lost the best thing for her, she loses hope and gives everything away to the wrong people. At least that is what I got. Lyrics:
We're born as innocents Cast into the world With apple eyes To wish wish dangerous My dear delirious To try and leave The rest of us behind Shot full of diamonds And a million years The disappointed disappear Like they were never here Kiss kiss all of this The hiss that we had miss And understand what can't be understood Sear those thoughts of me Alone and unhappy I never liked me anyway If by chance Or circumstance We should fail Don't be so sad Shot full of diamonds and a million years The disappointed disappear Like they were never here In a dream We are connected Siamese twins At the wrist And then I knew we'd been forsaken Expelled from paradise I can't believe them When they say that it's alright Words can't define what I feel inside Who needs them? Caught with this virus of my mind I give in to my disease, of my needs To my disease, of my needs She really loves to break Her dad says its OK She really loves to break And give it all away Her ma says she's afraid What more can she fake She really needs to break And give herself away She gave it all away She gave it all away She gave it all away We really love the USA |
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12. Muzzle A song of realization. The fear of being just your everyday joe-blow,havingto deal with all of the days problems, broken hearts, lost dreams. Despit all of this realizing that no matter what this world is where you belong and no matter what problems you have had you still have had a good life, just to live. Lyrics:
To lie here and die among the sorrows Adrift among the days For everything I ever said And everything I've ever done is gone and dead As all things must surely have to end And great lovers will one day have to part I know that I am meant for this world My life has been extraordinary Blessed and cursed and won Time heals but I'm forever broken By and by the way... Have you ever heard the words I'm singing in these songs? It's for the girl I've loved all along Can a taste of love be so wrong As all things must surely have to end And great lovers will one day have to part I know that I am meant for this world And in my mind as I was floating Far above the clouds Some children laughed I'd fall for certain For thinking that I'd last forever But I knew exactly where I was And I knew the meaning of it all And I knew the distance to the sun And I knew the echo that is love And I knew the secrets in your spires And I knew the emptiness of youth And I knew the solitude of heart And I knew the murmurs of the soul And the world is drawn into your hands And the world is etched upon your heart And the world so hard to understand Is the world you can't live without And I knew the silence of the world |
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13. Galapagos I have always tried to hang on to being a kid as long as I could. Yet, I still slowly let it slip away each time I am hurt or I let myself down. It is too late to turn back now and the change is already done, so i have to try to hold to what is left. After all of it is gone and I have fallen from my grace I wonder who will be left with me. Lyrics:
Softly stolen under our blanket skies And rescue me from me, and all that I believe I won't deny the pain I won't deny the change And should I fall from grace here with you Will you leave me too? Carve out your heart for keeps in an old oak tree And hold me for goodbyes-and whispered lullabyes And tell me I am still The man I'm supposed to be I won't deny the pain I won't deny the change And should I fall from grace here with you Will you leave me too? Too late to turn to turn back now, I'm running out of sound And I'm changing, changing And if we died right now, this fool you loved somehow Is here with you I won't deny the pain I won't deny the change And should I fall from grace here with you Would you leave me too? |
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14. Tales of a Scorched Earth The hurt, the pain, the repititive nature of it all. This all leading up to you just wanting to be on your own to live in your misery without adding more on to it. This all leading up to the final explosion, the moment when you give up hope and scream, "Fuck it all, cause I don't care". That is how I related to this song. Lyrics:
And let me be, let me die inside Let me know the way from of this world of hate in you Cause the dye is cast, and the bitch is back And we're all dead yeah we're all dead Inside the future of a shattered past I lie just to be real, and I'd die just to feel Why do the same old things keep on happening? Because beyond my hopes there are no feelings Bless the martyrs and kiss the kids For knowing better, for knowing this Cause you're all whores and I'm a fag And I've got no mother and I've got no dad To save me the wasted, save me from myself I lie just to be real, and I'd die just to feel Why do the same old things keep on happening? Because beyond my hopes there are no feelings Everbody's lost just waiting to be found Everyone's a thought just waiting to fade So fuck it all cause I don't care So what somehow somewhere we dared To try to dare to dare for a little more I lie just to be real, and I'd die just to feel Why do the same old things keep on happening? Because beyond my hopes there are no reasons |
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15. Starla Just read the last five lines of this song and that is all you need to know. Lyrics:
Please take me home Starla dear I'm all alone When you can't decide what's on your mind It's clear I'm here, starla dear To disappear takes so much time Starla dear, you're on my mind Soon, soon I'll be leaving Soon, soon I'll be leaving I hear all you're saying I hear all you're failing I'm in here Please take me home Starla dear I'm all alone Serve yourself No one else can do for you like you And no one else fails like me In my eyes I burn alive Fly like a bird No more words just you and I High in the sky |
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16. Hello Kitty Kat
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Say hello before you say goodbye |
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17. Shame The many faces of love and the uncertainty of self. I have related with these things all my life and continued to with this song. Lyrics:
You're gonna walk alone You're gonna see this through Don't let them get to you Shame Love is good and love is kind Love is drunk and love is blind Love is good and love is mine Love is drunk all the time Shame You're gonna walk on home You're gonna walk alone You're gonna walk so far You're gonna wonder who you are Shame Love is good and love is kind Love is good and love is blind Love is good and love is mine Love is good all the time Hello goodbye, you know you made us cry... |
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18. Mayonaise To me, this song symbolizes all the trials and tribulation in everyone's life. The way it seems all your feelings are spent, the difficulty of understanding and all the attempts we make to fit in or be accepted. In the end though, all we want is to be ourselves and that is how we are happy. Lyrics:
Cool enough to not quite see it Doomed Pick your pockets full of sorrow And run away with me tomorrow June We'll try and ease the pain But somehow we'll feel the same Well, no one knows Where our secrets go I send a heart to all my dearies When your life is so, so dreary Dream I'm rumored to the straight and narrow While the harlots of my perils Scream And I fail But when I can, I will Try to understand That when I can, I will Mother weep the years I'm missing All our time can't be given Back Shut my mouth and strike the demons That cursed you and your reasons Out of hand and out of season Out of love and out of feeling So bad When I can, I will Words defy the plan When I can, I will Fool enough to almost be it And cool enough to not quite see it And old enough to always feel this Always old, I'll always feel this No more promise no more sorrow No longer will I follow Can anybody hear me I just want to be me When I can, I will Try to understand That when I can, I will |
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19. Stand Inside Your Lvoe A rocking love song. I put this on my site because one of my good friends basically told me this once. They said that only a fool would not want to be with me and my love. Of course I am not so sure about that but it was nice to hear. Lyrics:
Meant to be Immutable Impossible It's destiny Pure lunacy Incalculable Insufferable But for the last time You're everything that I want and ask for You're all that I'd dreamed Who wouldn't be the one you love Who wouldn't stand inside your love Protected and the lover of A pure soul and beautiful you Don't understand Don't feel me now I will breathe For the both of us Travel the world Traverse the skies Your home is here Within my heart And for the first time I feel as though I am reborn In my mind Recast as child and mystic sage Who wouldn't be the one you love Who wouldn't stand inside your love And for the first time I'm telling you how much I need and bleed for Your every move and waking sound In my time I'll wrap my wire around your heart and your mind You're mine forever now Who wouldn't be the one you love and live for Who wouldn't stand inside your love and die for Who wouldn't be the one you love |
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20. Whir This is a beautiful little tune. The feeling of loss and confusion echoes throughout this song. It is a song that helps all of us out here that have felt this realize we are not alone in our thoughts. Lyrics:
Been chasin' all my fears For another brighter than you I gave in long ago to make it to the show, But it's not easy when you're alone All your prayers In my ears Don't you care? Whir yourself around Just to fall back down Whir yourself around My honey, little girl C'mon, lets go for a whirl It's still early, the sun is sleeping She says she wants to marry me She says she wants a baby It's not easy when you're scared Whir yourself around Just to fall back down Whir yourself around All your prayers In my ears Don't you care? |
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21. The Crying Tree of Mercury A song for the lost love that you can not let go of. It speaks of the selfishness that wanting the person maybe but yet it cannot be helped. I put this on the site during a time when I felt the same way. Lyrics:
I've been waiting like a knife To cut open your heart And bleed my soul to you I did it all for you You and you and you and you This is the sound I've been making my whole life I've been waiting for this night To clear up all the talk Althought I'm selfish to a fault Is it selfish it's you I want You I did it all for you This love will stand as long as you There's really no excuse I did it all for you These are the tears I've been crying my whole life Like an ocean of desire I'm reaching thru the noise Across the dusk of time Within the lilting lies I am singing out to you |
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22. Cherry This song is one of the hopelessly lost songs. It has the false thought of without a love you are nothing, you cannot find your way, etc. It also reveals the thoughts of the person who thinks this. He wants love so bad that everytime he sees a couple he hates them for being happy. I have been there and done that and realized it is not the way to live. Lyrics:
'Cause I can tell you once were pretty Rose so sad you've lost your petals Lost the luster off your tattle tales I need a love to help me find my way I need a strength that I cannot betray I need a word to say what I can't say I need a lover, lover I need a lover, lover What are we waiting for? What are we waiting for? Time has lost its hold on me Hatred sleeps inside my bones In the stillness of cool air All the boys have been left for dead 'Cause we go where they fear to tread The beautiful one's the one's we'll remember The precious one's our greatest pretenders I need a love to help me find my way I need a strength that I cannot betray I need a word to say what I can't say I need a lover, lover I need a lover, lover And if you lose yourself Could you take me, too? Could you rest inside the sleep? Stay with me, I'll set you free from you... Stay with me, I'll set you free from you... Stay with me, I'll set you free from you... Stay with me, I'll set you free from you... I need a love... |
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23. Czarina This is another song that helped me past a former love. I now do not want for anything I don't have, I am completely happy with my life and how it is, there is the occasional depressing thought but other than that I know when my time comes I will know it. So now I just move on, on my own. Lyrics:
Let the rivers pass me by These dusty tears Need no place to cry I need no reason for the first time in my life I just need to be on my way I don't want for anything that I don't have All I want is waiting for me there For me there With my czarina queen of all that I believe Still born seasons cradle our affairs I light a candle My lover to protect In sack cloth and ashes My lover will descend I need no reason for the first time in my life I just need to be on my way I don't want for anything that I don't have All I want is waiting for me there I don't want for anything that I don't have All I want is waiting for me there For me there Hide behind your walls I waste a day If I want All this and more are under me I need no reason for the first time in my life I just need to be on my way I don't want for anything that I don't have All I want is waiting for me there I don't want for anything that I don't have All I want is waiting for me there For me there For me there |
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24. Bodies There comes a time when you are tired of people's advice and a time when you know that no matter what another person thinks, they do not know how you feel. Only you know how you feel and only you can help yourself. That is what this song meant to me. Lyrics:
Come into my life forever The crumbled cities stand as known Of the sights you have been shown Of the hurt you call your own Love is suicide The empty bodies stand at rest Casualties of their own flesh Afflicted by their dispossession But no bodies ever knew Nobodys No bodies felt like you Nobodys Love is suicide Now we drive the night, to the ironies of peace You can't help deny forever The tragedies reside in you The secret sights hide in you The lonely nights divide you in two All my blisters now revealed In the darkness of my dreams In the spaces in between us But no bodies ever knew Nobodys No bodies felt like you Nobodys Love is suicide |
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25. Vanity The whole song is great but there is one line that gets me completely. "As I try to recapture, my past and former glories." To hell with that, as Billy is saying in this song, at sometime you have to realize the past is gone and all there is is today. Lyrics:
Cracked beneath her wheels Tears of Avalon Streak silent down her shield High crimes and misdemeanors Unfortunate attacks Will leave you standing nameless While she's turning black Vanity stands naked at my door Vanity cries, why? Eleanor, you've lost me in a haze Of wine and cocaine Gone out and cost me Everything I blame Broadcasting in TV detail To call their own stories As I try to recapture The best and former glories Vanity stands naked at my door Vanity cries, why? Vanity wants everything and more Vanity must die She swears she'll turn around Turn around for good She swears she'll turn around Turn around for sure You know you'll run around Run around for her You know you want to know Pure Ease on that dirt road You've still a ways to go Soak in sights and city lights While you still can borrow Cursed fall we'll find you And bring a memory The ghost of her surrender And a kiss of anarchy She's naked at my door Vanity cries, why? Vanity wants everything and more Vanity must die |
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26. Window Paine "Say what you got to say, Do what you got to do, Yes, start today, Start Today" The words I am now trying to live by. Lyrics:
Around my heart Shadows streak Around my heart Do what you got to do And say what you got a say Do what you got to do Yes, start today Start today Wind blow shame Around my heart Shadows scream Around my heart What are you coming to Stripped down to the bone? Laughing, living on your own All alone Do what you got to do And say what you got a say Do what you got to do Yes, start today Start today |
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27. This Time There comes a time when all strings must be cut and you must move on and that is what this song helped me to realize. Once I did just that, my life turned for the much better. Lyrics:
I really must be told If it's over It's up to you you know The things you want to hold Are in pieces Crashing down Crashing down again Crashing down Crashing down my freinds I've got to move it on I've got to sing my song While I still can Dispatch the last alarms Hand out the last few charms There's no surprises Only love Only love can win Crashing down Crashing down again Only love Yeah only love will win Crashing down Crashing down again This time I need to know I really must be told That it's over I've lived my life alone My every step foretold To never linger And yet it haunts me so What are we letting go Our spell is broken Crashing down Crashing down my friends Crashing down Crashing down again Only love Yeah only love will Be enough Yeah only love will win For every chemical You trade a piece of your soul With no return And who you think you know Doesn't know you at all Their drain is needless Someday we'll wave hello And wish we'd never waved goodbye To this romance We'll drink up every line And shoot up every word Till there's no more Crashing down Crashing down my friends Only love Only love can win So cry these tears we'll cry as all We've held so long to fall apart As the curtain falls we bid you all goodnight |
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28. Blank Page This one I would like to break down how I relate to it. First of all, being blank is what I strived for so long, no emotions=no hurt. Then there were so many nights I dreamed of rest and finally gave it up and went for a moonlight ride, I couldn't get over her and ended up hurting many people because of it, until finally she was forgotten but her memories still banged ont he door of my thoughts so I had to "Take a day to plant some trees" to shade me from her. I did this by becoming closer ot many of my friends than I have ever known. Finally, over time, I was able to pick up the pieces of life and move on. Now read the lyrics and see how I related. Lyrics:
Never meant to say anything In bed I was half dead Tired of dreaming of rest Got dressed drove the state line Looking for you at the five and dime Stop sign told me stay at home Told me you were not alone Blank page was all the rage Never meant to hurt anyone In bed I was half dead Tired of dreaming of rest You haven't changed You're still the same May you rise as you fall You were easy you are forgotten You are the ways of my mistakes I catch the rainfall Through the leaking roof That you had left behind You remind me Of that leak in my soul The rain falls My friends call Leaking rain on the phone Take a day plant some trees May they shade you from me May your children play beneath Blank page was all the rage Never meant to say anything In bed I was half dead Tired of dreaming of rest Got dressed drove the state line Looking for you at the five and dime But there I was picking pieces up You are a ghost Of my indecision No more little girl |
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29. By Starlight A great song that I will always love. Lyrics:
and promise to be your one and only i'll make you feel happy and leave you to be lost in mine and where will we go, what will we do? soon said i, will know dead eyes, are you just like me? cause her eyes were as vacant as the seas dead eyes, are you just like me? and all along, we knew we'd carry on just to belong by starlight i know you as lovely as a wish granted true my life has been empty, my life has been untrue and does she really know, who i really am? does she really know me at last dead eyes, are you just like me? |
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30. Try, Try, Try (Alternate Version) Really it is just hearing the song that hooked me to it. Although, I do really believe no matter what we should all just hang on and see where this world takes us, because what happens today may not even matter tomorrow. Lyrics:
Did you lose..what you're after? For your tears I'm still singing For your fears, I am ringing From Houston on a downer buzz Like you said, It's just because You'll detonate your long lost kisses Wished on the eve of forgotten blessings So start your way for a new impression That try to hold on To this heart a little bit stronger Try to hold on Try with this love aloud Try to hold on For this heart has never been broken Try to hold on Try to hold on Pop tart, did you flatter When they spoke..of my disasters At 13, I lost my compass But I'm sure, it's all accomplished As my desires on my ghost trains Like you said when it rains It's pours down the back of the bitter son Desperate for love and loves everyone In my mother's arms, no simple harm Conspires to hold on To this heart A little bit closer Try to hold on To this love aloud Try to hold on And we know If we go under We just can't let go No, no Pop tart, will it matter? If I lose and just shatter Will you cry, and keep crying Will I die, and keep dying In Tokyo, the sad tragic blues Like you said, it's how you use 'Cause someday we'll know if this even matters Our rings and maze and simplicity When can we laugh and take all the credit And know we'll go free With our hearts a little bit stronger Try to hold on For this love aloud Try to hold For this heart's a little bit frightened Just try to hold on Just try to hold on Just try |
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31. Soma This is simply my favorite song of all times. Someday I want to nam e a daughter Soma, I love it so much. I really just need to say this song is how I felt so much during my life. Please read the lyrics and I believe you will understand. Lyrics:
And all I've left to do Is run away From you And she led me on, down With secrets I can't keep Close your eyes and sleep Don't wait up for me Hush now don't you speak To me Wrapped my hurt in you And took my shelter in that pain The opiate of blame Is your broken heart, your heart So now I'm all by myself As I've always felt I'll betray my tears To anyone caught in our ruse of fools One last kiss for me...yeah One last kiss good night Didn't want to lose you once again Didn't want to be your friend Fulfilled a promise made of tin And crawled back to you I'm all by myself As I've always felt I'll betray myself To anyone, lost, anyone but you So let the sadness come again On that you can depend on me, yeah Until the bitter, bitter end of the world, yeah When god sleeps in bliss And I'm all by myself As I've always felt And I'll betray myself To anyone |
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32. Galapagos This song is more of an understanding of the uncertainties. No one knows who you will love and who you won't. It also states one the greatest truths, no matter how well someone knows they really don't know you at all, because you are the only that knows you. Lyrics:
Wonderful, you're wonderful, as wonderful as they come And I can't help but feel attached To the feelings I can't even match With my face pressed up to the glass, wanting you Beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sky Wonderful, it's wonderful, to know that you're just like I And I'm sure you know me well, as I'm sure you don't But you just can't tell Who'll you love and who you won't And I love you, as you love me So let the clouds roll by your face We'll let the world spin on to another place We'll climb the tallest tree above it all To look down on you and me and them And I'm sure you know me well, as I'm sure you don't But you just can't tell, who you'll love and who you won't Don't let your life wrap up around you Don't forget to call, whenever I'll be here just waiting for you I'll be under your stars forever Neither here nor there just right beside you I'll be under the stairs forever Neither here nor there just right beside you |
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33. Suffer All that you let make you suffer is all that you let yourself be. We all must move on past the hurts of the desires we hold and we must do it before it is too late to recover ourselves. Lyrics:
All that you smother is all that you are And you're saying you're seeing, you're saying who you are What takes meaning is cleaning the meaning of who you are All may say I will dream All may say All of your struggles beneath your disguise Drink from the reasons that hold you alive 'Til we're safe from the wounds of desire and pain You must rise from the mounds of desire and change Too late to discover peace of mind Too late to recover me All you see and all you breathe and all you cease to be Taken down your only son and what he means to me Your dream will be To dream with me Will you wait? Yes I will, I will wait for you To cleanse your life takes more than time Take what you want Take all of it Too late to discover peace of mind (have no peace of mind) To late to recover |
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34. To Forgive I must tell you the truth about this song. I always felt that I related to this song in some strange way but yet I can never tell you how I do. It is strange it is just a song I hear and want to cry because I feel it so much but I don't understand why. Lyrics:
I forget about where it all began Bastard son of a bastard son of A wild eyed child of the sun And right as rain, I'm not the same but I feel the same, I feel nothing Holding back the fool again Holding back the fool pretends I forget to forget nothing is important Holding back the fool again I sensed my loss Before I even learned to talk And I remember my birthdays Empty party afternoons won't come back Holding back the fool again Holding back the fool pretends I forget to forget nothing is important Holding back the fool again I forget to forget me I forget to forget you see Nothing is important to me I knew my loss Before I even learned to speak And all along, I knew it was wrong But I played along, with my birthday song Holding back the fool again Holding back the fool pretends I forget to forget nothing is important Holding back the fool again |
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35. Spaceboy This just echoes a feeling I have always had about myself. No matter what I do, or what I say, I will never completely belong. Lyrics:
Break your bones Mr. Jones Taste me As I bleed Taste my need And spaceboy I've missed you Spinning round my head And any way you choose me You'll break instead Watch me Death defy Defile my life I don't need I don't care Please I want to go home I want to go home I want to go home I want to go home 'cause when a lover aches That's when a lover breaks I want to go home I want to go home And spaceboy they'll kill me Before I'm dead and gone And any way you choose me It won't be wrong And any way you choose me We won't belong We won't be long We won't belong We won't belong We won't belong We won't belong |
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36. Quiet The feeling that you're prayers aren't being listened to and that hope is dwindling. This song is a great listen when these feeling overtake you. Lyrics:
I am sleeping In here We need a little hope For years I've been sleeping Helpless Couldn't tell a soul Be ashamed Of the mess you've made My eyes never forget, you see Behind me Silent Metal mercies Castrate Boys to the bone Jesus Are you listening? Up there To anyone at all We are the fossils The relics of our time We mutilate the meanings So they're easy to deny Be ashamed Of the mess you've made My eyes never forget, you see Behind me Quiet I am sleeping Quiet I am sleeping Quiet I don't trust you I can't hear you Be ashamed Of the mess you've made My eyes never forget, you see Behind me Behind me The grace of falling snow Cover up everything you know Come save me from the awful sound Of nothing |
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37. 1979 This song is all about youth and not havign a care in this world. Everytime I hear it I think of my friends and all the good time we had in our young and dumb days. It also makes me realize that I am always just a phone call or short drive away from feeling completely at peace by talking with my friends. Lyrics:
On a live wire right up off the street You and I should meet Junebug skipping like a stone With the headlights pointed at the dawn We were sure we'd never see an end to it all And I don't even care to shake these zipper blues And we don't know Just where our bones will rest To dust I guess Forgotten and absorbed into the earth below Double cross the vacant and the bored They're not sure just what we have in store Morphine city slippin dues down to see That we don't even care as restless as we are We feel the pull in the land of a thousand guilts And poured cement, lamented and assured To the lights and towns below Faster than the speed of sound Faster than we thought we'd go, beneath the sound of hope Justine never knew the rules, Hung down with the freaks and the ghouls No apologies ever need be made, I know you better than you fake it To see that we don't even care to shake these zipper blues And we don't know just where our bones will rest To dust I guess Forgotten and absorbed into the earth below The street heats the urgency of sound As you can see there's no one around |
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38. The Aeroplane Flies High (turns left, looks right) The chorus to this song is what really sticks in my mind. "Disconnected by your smile." There are special people out there that can completely disconnect you from all of your problems with one smile gracing their lips. I know a person like this right now and it is like a cure for any ailment when she smiles. Lyrics:
(I never really like sunny days) (the black wings just reach out to me over a distance) (and I could feel the wind from the wings) (see the clouds and I feel the ocean with my feet) (It requires an ability to judge distance) (The Aeroplane Flies High, turns left, looks right) Love is a sentimental heart Life is a sentimental way Spy the fragile heart so cursed As he walks across this earth I'm disconnected by your smile Disconnect a million miles And what you promised me I hope will set you free I'm disconnected by your smile (If I knew where I was going I would already be there) (judicious, beautiful, augmentive, whatever) (I've always been afraid to die) (but I think I'm more afraid to live) And all I gave to you is lost And all you took from me is lost Black wings carry me so high Up to meet you in the sky I'm disconnected by your smile Disconnect a million miles And what you promised me I hope will set you free I'm disconnected by your smile Wishing you were real to me Wishing i could make believe I'll take my secrets to the grave Safely held beneath the waves Always knew I couldn't save Always knew I couldn't save you |
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39. Waiting Simply put, when I find that perfect someone I will wait forever. Lyrics:
I've never been this way before Violence reels in the underground Yes, I am waiting In silence throne To fill the meetings To strike me down No more reason Than God above Let your curses run Yes, I am waiting For your love For your love Radio waves of a dying sun Radio speaks my soul alone Forget my names, erase the page And dinners draw the passengers Yes, I am waiting In silence throne My blood of treason My tears of home No more a feeling Than being cold Of playing on Yes, I am waiting As I walk your street Yes, I am waiting As I ride your dreams Yes, I am waiting Inside your doubts Inside your doubts Just let me out Just let me out |
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40. Blissed and Gone To me this song is about watching your whole world falling apart and then moving on to rebuild. It is something i have done and it is the best way to do things, open your eyes and keep going on. Lyrics:
The rays are gone And all the kids have left their tears and gone home Sweet 17, sour 29 And I can't explain myself What I'd hoped to find You were all so kind When I was near And if you're still feeling down Then maybe you need me around To love and hold you Don't say I hadn't told you so Maybe you need me around I had no luck I had no shame I had no cause, just 17 days of rain And you in my eyes Just one more song to slay this earth And I can't explain myself Just what it's worth It was all I had, but not all I need And I can't escape the fact that I still bleed And if you're still feeling down And if this seems way too loud Then maybe you need me around I had no voice I had no drive I had no choice I've done my time I had myself Had my band I had my love Had no hand in watching it all fall apart And if you're still feeling down Then maybe you need me around To lift and scold you To send you crashing alright now Maybe you need me around |
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41. Home Because sometimes Love is all you want and need. Lyrics:
'Cause wasteland of shattered souls Warm by the firelight I peer into the darkness alone As the Indian summer that I remember Settles on my bones Cracked and weary I asked for direction home Home Let the words spill from my mouth Love Love is everything I want I'm one of many more to come Love Love is everything I want Crossroads outside of town The heartbroken faces charred The city lights, so far and dull Turning left, I know it's time With an urgent wind upon my rolling heels To carry me along My face aghast That I turn to ruins past and home Home Let the words spill from my mouth Love Love is everything I want I'm one of many more to come Love Love is everything I want Wander off in the dead of night Past terrors and broken homes Wipe the sleep from your eyes Of riverbanks and catacombs Sleep into the guillotine Always lived this live alone Lay down beneath the law Cry out I know it's time Love is everything I want Love is everything I want Love is everything I want Love is everything I want |
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42. Sad Peter Pan There is a right way and a wrong way to do everything in the world. This includes ending relationships, the right way leaves each with the answers and the ability to go on the second answers nothing and just leaves questions behind. I have done both but am not proud of the wrong ways. So before you rip someones heart out ask yourself, do you really want to leave a Sad Peter Pan? Lyrics:
To discover that magnificent ghost When did I get perverted And my innocent eyes diverted From the view so grand Imbued with destruction Sad Peter Pan And you're lying Sad Peter Pan And you're lying I'm greedy like senior babbit I'm just chasing that electric rabbit I'm a reluctant rebel I just want to be Aaron Neville With a crown on my head And my denim shirt all dark with sweat Sad Peter Pan And you're lying Sad Peter Pan And you're lying I'm just pushing the paint around Over advice from your lying mouth You touched me then you ran And left some sad Peter Pan All alone out here But a transformation it will occur And you're lying Sad Peter Pan And you're lying Sad Peter Pan And you're lying ... |
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43. Galapagos Sometimes these worries creep into my head. I feel like when someone realizes that I am not everything they once thought I was then they will leave me to be alone again. Lyrics:
softly stolen under our blanket skies and rescue me from me, and all that i believe i won't deny the pain i won't deny the change and should i fall from grace here with you will you leave me too? carve out your heart for keeps in an old oak tree and hold me for goodbyes-and whispered lullabyes and tell me i am still the man i'm supposed to be i won't deny the pain i won't deny the change and should i fall from grace here with you will you leave me too? too late to turn back now, i'm running out of sound and i am changing, changing and if we died right now, this fool you love somehow is here with you i won't deny the pain i won't deny the change and should i fall from grace here with you would you leave me too? |
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44. Mouths of Babes The line about "ou can't break what's already broken" I apply to myself. I feel that I am emotionally broken in many ways and I am Lyrics:
True superstars We're so real from afar and now Now you're with us now And the mouths of babes sing revolution And the mouths of babes scream disillusion You can't break what's already broken Cause from the mouths of babes comes nothing The "dream" was a sham For saving what you can't And now they're me but i'm not them I am you and you are me It's in the ways I walk thru fire It's in the ways of my desire And when I said that you're no good What I meant was I wish you could Be there forever Be young forever I wish you were there So now I bid farewell Beyond the bounds of hell And now you'll swear you knew us well Well you can never tell And the mouths of babes sing revolution And the mouths of babes scream disillusion You can't break what's already broken Cause from the mouths of babes comes nothing |
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45. Here Is No Why "The useless drag of another day, the endless drags of a death rock boy" How many other people can relate to this line in their own way. I do every day as I stumble through another day of hell at work and even sometimes away from work. Sometimes it just seems that everything we do each day means nothing and has no reason. This song is one of my reliefs during these days. Lyrics:
the endless drags of a death rock boy mascara sure and lipstick lost glitter burned by restless thoughts of being forgotten and in your sad machines you'll forever stay desperate and displeased-with whoever you are and you're a star somewhere-he pulls his hair down-over a frowning smile a hidden diamond you cannot find a secret star that cannot shine over to you may the king of gloom, be forever doomed and in your sad machines you'll forever stay burning up in speed lost inside the dreams, of teen machines the useless drags, the empty days the lonely towers of long mistakes to forgotten faces and faded loves sitting still was never enough and if you're giving in, then you're giving up cause in your sad machines you'll forever stay burning up in speed lost inside the dreams, of teen machines |