| Until I can live again... |
| Never have I felt like this Not for anyone like you Ever before. But I feel it still Like a slow releasing Poison Of the soul, When you are not in sight. How can this be so When you don�t Won�t, can�t Ever know That I�ve never felt So� Love is a four letter word, As vile and cruel as all the rest. It can rip your flesh from Your white bleached bones, Surely as the sword, With finer precision. Stained with so many Mixed emotions, lost In a stormy sea, love Cannot tell The truth From Lies. Lying next to you In this dreamscape On some grassy bed Blanketed by the breeze In your eyes, I can see That long sought sanctuary Where I may dwell In open harmony With my desires. When I dream, I see another place Where stars collide And give rise to soul-spirits That come to Earth And dance, Dance, dance, Here and there Up and down And we never know why The Wind blows� Raven hair trickling in My face and sticking to the sweat Made in those hours Of Time we shared As you look down at me And I dive into those dark warm Pools of my need. Needless to say You were gone when I needed you most When I woke up All alone and when My empty arms ached for you. And I had to remember That although I feel You, and still smell your Skin, your breath, your�. I have to remember You are only a dream A dream to me. Remember when I saw you First, in the darkness, in Our youth, on your steed, Even then I felt you Felt how my soul soared On your mighty wings, O thing of fancy! And still in this most Lucid moment, aware Awake and in no way Incoherent, I see your face The defiant flash Of those eyes Such darkness as Reaches for my own, Your hair wind whipped, So stark and so alone, Aloof, standing on the Horizon as you had for so long, And the moment you called�. Calling for some endless Release, and a purposeful uselessness, But receiving only This broken heart And my aching arms, I must forget you Forget the strawberry sun, Ignore the need in my chest And live another day� Until I can dream again� 9-5-2001 Christin Fox-Perez |