Title: Jesse's Song
Author: Chesarae
Email: [email protected]
Rating: PG-13
Category: The Team, Song fic
Summary: The team thinks about their loss...
Notes: I had the urge to write this only after listening to Kelly Rowland's stole..
Disclaimer: I do not claim rights to any of the characters or settings of TFATF, nor do I claim rights to the song Stole. Those belong to D.Deviller, S. Hosein, & S. Kipner.
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It seems like just the other day we were all here... At the house, eatin' fried chicken and grillin' steaks-- even workin' in the garage. Only yesterday....
But now, things lie in shreds. Nothing is as it was. It seems he was stole...
Dom's Lyrics:
There he was amoungst us-- a bright star alighting a black sky. So bright, so promising, but ever faded. If only the world had not been so very jaded. He came into my life-- my family so easily and it seems has drifted out just so. It's not right. It's not fair. Life just fuckin' sucks! Life rips out our hearts --beating-- and just throws them down. Life gives us gifts and takes them without thought...
--I'm sorry Jess, here I am talkin' 'bout ya like ya can't even hear me from where ever it is you are. I'm just torn kid. Torn into too many pieces to even know which way to go these days. I've got the team to look out for ya now... and I'm realizin' that I can't be like before.
I messed up big Jess-- BIG! I lost you even. I know it's not all on my shoulders, but I also know that somehow what I did, well-- it did affect you. Tran wouldn't have been so eager if he hadn't taken the rap for what we had done...
I'm sorry Jess. I'm just so very God Damn sorry!! I told God that too, maybe that'll get a good word in for ya.. I just hope I can get some good words in for me before its to late, cause kid-- I'm gonna be seein' ya again... If it's the thoughest game of my life--
I've always known though-- it's just harder to take this time around. Ya know? You were a good kid, a smart kid. You had a life ahead of you and now...
--we'll never know...
V's Lyrics:
It's just not fathomable.. Jesse man! ... Jesse? What the FUCK did he do to diserve this fuckin' gift of life? I mean hell-- we all know life is shitty, but why the kid? Why someone who hadn't even begun to live? Man-- a Corona sounds 'bout good right now. Yeah, Jess man-- how 'bouts a good ole Corona in your honor?
I know maybe I never said so much when you were here, but ya gots ta know that well-- I'm just not the sappy type...lol But kid-- I miss ya. I miss your damn smartass grin and your computer talkin' ramble... I miss it all kid...
I fuckin' miss it all--
Letty's Lyrics:
Hey Jess-- sup up there? I bet your totally in heaven. Probably up there buildin' a sweet ass ride, or maybe even sittin' in front of a damn screen and designin' somethin far out. Yeah Jess-- I see you. No fear left in your beautiful soul.
If any of us are good enough to get inside those gates-- it's gotta be you. Sometimes, I used to think that just knowing you, just bein' 'round ya-- made our lives somehow worthwhile...
--Oh, and don't tell Dom, ...but, I really think he misses ya more than he lets on. I actually overheard him a couple days back. I think he was havin' a conversation with God! You hear that Jess-- Dom TALKING to God!! Hey man, I misses ya, but hey-- I loves ya and I'm glad your somewhere nice. You deserve it... Anywho-- I gots ta jet now. I got me a sweet ass ride ta be seein' too as well...
See ya--
Mia's Lyrics:
Well Jess, what do I say to you. Sorry is a definate must. God Jess, I'm so sorry... If only I hadn't gotten involved with Brian... maybe then-- this wouldn't have happened. --Maybe we wouldn't have lost you, maybe you'd still be here smilin' that grin at us and just being-- Jesse...
But when I get to thinking like this, I make myself re-think. Maybe even if Brian hadn't come into our lives-- maybe it still would have happened... I hate to even think it, but truth is I have always believed in fate, destiny-- that sort of thing, and if that were so-- it was just simply.. your time...
I don't really know Jesse. I don't know why God chose you, but he did. And that, --that just proves how great you are. You're one in a million Jess. I love you and I'll be praying for you still.
Brian's Lyrics:
I am lost here man. I really didn't know you much, but still-- I feel at a loss. Do you remember that day at the shop? --When you were at the comp and were showin' me the layout for that car, and tellin' me 'bout your ADD? I realized something that day. I saw somethin' in you that made me believe a little. It made me realize that hope is not dead after all...
If nothing Jesse, you are my hope. My hope for the world, my hope for the future, my hope for Dom, and for the fact that I believe that everything will just work out for me and Mi...
Thanks man, thanks Jesse, for even in death-- teaching me a most valuable lesson...
Leon's Lyrics:
I'm too heavy... I'm just tired anymore. I miss you so much Jess. God, you were my little bro.. ya know? Ever since we first met, it's kinda like I took ya under my wing. There was just somethin' about ya that made me strive to be better. I didn't have family-- you needed family... And that's all there was too it.
Life was set for me that day.
Life is set for me now. Yeah I know-- here I am in bed late in the afternoon, damn beer on my breath, tears in my eyes-- and I'm just wallowin' in my own self pity. That's what you'd say anyways...
God Jess, you make me smile. Even when I'm at my worst, you're always here for me. I guess this makes you my Guardian Angel now, eh? That's a funny picture man! You with wings? God could only spare us--
I guess Jess, it's time for me to get up? Okay, okay....
I'm up--
Somewhere up there:
A young man laughs... "I see you guys. Man, I see it all now. I see that you love me and I see that you miss me. And yeah, it's all gonna be fine... I'm okay now. --And someday, though I do hope a long time from now, you'll get to see just what it is I'm a workin' on. Man Dom, she's a beaut! Never though I'd own a gal such as her, but-- I do.. I do..
...Yeah, we were here, all together yesterday-- and so we remain today --and every day..
--And somehow, I feel I owe it all to you guys-- my team, my family... my home...."
Jesse
STOLE
D.Deviller, S. Hosein, S. Kipner
He was always such a nice boy The quiet one with good intentions He was down with his brother, respectful to his mother A good boy But good don't get attention
One kid with the promise The brightest kid in school, he's not a fool Reading books bout science and smart stuff It's not enough, no 'Cause smart don't make you cool
Well he's not invisible anymore With his father's nine and a broken fuse Since he walked through that classroom door He's all over prime time news
Chorus
Mary's got the same size hands as Marilyn Monroe She put her fingers in the imprints At Mann's Chinese Theatre Show She could've been a movie star Never got the chance to go that far Her life was stole Oh Oh, now we'll never know
They're crying to the camera Said he never fitted in, he wasn't welcome He'd show up to the parties we was hanging in Some guys were putting him down, bullin' him 'round
Now I wish I would have talked to him Gave him the time of day, not turn away If I would've then it wouldn't maybe go this far He'd might'a stayed at home playing angry chords on his guitar
He's not invisible anymore With his baggy pants and his legs in chains Since he walked through that classroom door Everybody knows his name
Chorus
Greg was always getting net from 20 feet away He had a tryout with the Sixahs couldn't wait for Saturday Now we're never gonna see him slam Flyin' as high as Kobe can His life was stole Oh! Oh! Now we'll never know
Ya their lives were stole Now we'll never know We were here, all together yesterday????