im just writing to tell you what an awesome thing you've done by releasing your feelings on the web, and letting it all out. I am also a victim of child abuse, and am presently one too ( though its not as severe or as often as before) I too am also 17 so i can relate to what you must feel like. I just wanted to let you know that your not alone, and that there are people out here who appreciate you speaking up.

take care
amber