This is the what's new page. This page is designed to keep you up to date on things that are going on in my life. This page will be updated occasionally.
After It All
The months after the abortion were very dramatic for me. I found out I had been suffering Depression for the past couple of months and had been diagnoised with Clincal Depression. I was in and out of the hospital at least 3 to 4 times. I'm currently taking medication for my depression. I would like to note that the depression didn't start after the abortion,it was present even before the experience.I felt like I grew up after that experience and vowed not to let it happen again. I am under the care of a psychatrist and a therapist,who specializes in Post-Abortion conseling. She's great.I graduated with my Associates of Applied Business in Information Technology from Bryant & Stratton College in May,2001. Yeah!!! I was having trouble finding a job but now I work for a very good company(it's a fortune 200 company). I'm starting on my Bachelors in Information Technology in a week or so.
My homeless situation is better. I leave in a special housing arrangement for people with mental illnesses. I don't like that word but that's what it's for. The children can't stay with me but they are living with my mom for now.
SEPTEMBER 1, 2001
Today was the most shocking found out after 8 hours of waiting in the Emergency room that I'm pregnant again. It was a total shock but, I do know my body and I had the feeling I was. I am choosing to abort again because of the circumstances of my life. Things still aren't "right" for a child. I constantly feel this maternal pull but I know I'm making a good choice. I'm happy that I'm in country where we have access to safe,and legal abortions. I probably will have to wait awhile because of my new insurance coverage but that's okay. I will continue to post more information soon including my second experience.
SEPTEMBER 15,2001
It's been two weeks and I still haven't gotten the procedure done. On September 14, I scheduled the procedure but due to a few things that have gotten in my way I had to reschedule it to the 21st. I was sorta upset and I wish that it will be over soon. Luckily I haven't experienced morning sickness (Thank God ;-) But it has taken a great toal on my body. I'm going to one of the best clinics in Ohio and I'm very proud to be pro-choice and a woman in American. Alot of people don't realize that some Christian people are Pro-choice and pro-religion. I am one of these people and I'm proud. Alot of pro-life(anti-Abortion) people don't realize that most pro-choice people are very much pro-family. I would like to thank everyone that has posted and I would encourage everyone to post whether good or bad and tell me what you think about the site or just what you think about my experience.
SEPTEMBER 21,2001
Today I went and had the procedure done. I went to one of the best clinics in Northeastern Ohio. I started out early and woke up and was picked up by a counselor. My appointment was at 9:00a.m. I came to the clinic scared, not neccesarily by the procecdure but because I thought I would find. That clinic was notorious for picketers and I was scared. However, the site is very secure with guards and metal detectors. I had to go by myself because I no one could/would go with me. My boyfriend had started a new job and he was in training. I checked in answered a questionaire and sat down to watch a movie about the particular procedure. They knew most of my info because my insurance paid for it. (Yeah for Kaiser) I waited for awhile longer and I paid my co-pay. It was alot of woman. Some looked sad but I think alot of women were just scared to talk. I had a counseling session with a nice woman who knew this was the best choice for me. She didn't provoke me to the decision and she didn't try to sway me a certain way. Then I had an ultrasound. It showed I was only 6 weeks and 6 days along. It was so tiny it looked like a pinpoint. I decided to get an ultrasound picture. Why,I don't know. Not for a momento or anything just as a reminder. Afterwards, I was offered a tylenol before the procedure since I was just having a local antistetic. I would reccommend this to women who undergo the procedure in the first trimester for financial reasons unless you really have to be put to sleep which i feel is unnessary because the procedure is only about 5 minutes start to finish and it's more expensive to be put to sleep.
Then I was called back to be seen. There was a nurse, an ultrasound technition and the doctor(who came in a little later)
The nurse told me to undress and since this wasn't my first she didn't have to explain to me anything else. The doctor came in introducecd himself and started the procedure.The ultrasound tech once again had to do the ultrasound while he did the peocedure. I didn't experience too much pain this time. It was over in a flash. So fast I didn't have a chance to think. Afterwards, I was sat up and prepared. I was wheeled to a recovery room and sat there and drank juice and ate crackers while listening to information on birth control.I called my ride after 45 mintues and went home. After leaving the clinic I wondered how all those women felt? What was their lives like and how had this effected their lives if any.
Present Day
Months after the Abortion I am proud that I have that choice. It saddens me sometimes to think about it but it has made me wiser in my dealings. I'm currently a senior in college and hopefully I graduate and become successful. I know that potenial child is in heaven and it forgives and understands why I did what I did. I'm proud to see that this website has had so many views but it saddens me to see that no one has signed my guestbook. Aww, come on people please sign. I would be honored. Thanks
March 2004
Hello all, It's been almost two years since any updates have been added to this page. Well, since the last time I wrote, I've had a couple of important changes in my life. I'm a senior now at another University. I'm obtaining my Bachelor's degree. I'm working at a great job, and I'm in a stable relationship. I've also found a stable new apartment which I've been at for almost a year. Also, I've been contributing and learning more about what i can do to help out more in our fight for reproductive freedom and woman's rights all over the world.
I urge everyone out there to vote, especially us Women!! Our vote does count ladies and if you believe in your rights as much as I do then vote in your primary election and in the upcoming Presidential election in November.
May 2004
Well, It's been awhile since I've posted and I have alot to tell you guys. I've started to volunteer for Preterm, a local abortion clinic in the Cleveland area, and it's been a great experience. I've only volunteered once so far but I've got so much out of that one expereince. I helped in the recovery room. I did apply for an administrative position but I guess this was better for me. I do love the interaction with people and had fun helping the women in their most vunerable time in their lives. I took patients charts and wrote their information for blood pressure and temperature. I also made their "aftercare" packages with a confidential questionnaire, birth control, antibiotics and information about the procedure and how they could be feeling.
July 2005
It's been almost a year since my last upate. Within the last year I've accomplished alot. I've recently graduate from college and I'm working full time. I have been doing alot of internet activism(as I call it) by signing petitions and sending letters and emails to the senate,the house of representatives and to local and national government. Also, I completed training to be a clinic escort. That will definitely start a new chapter in my life. It gives me a piece of mind to know that I can help another women out when she needs someone to be there and to provide a helping hand. I will continue volunteering and signing petiions so our right as women and mothers aren't taken away.
SEPTEMBER 21,2005
Today is the fourth anniversary of my second abortion. I've been thinking about it lately. Sometimes,I'm sad but I know it's not because of my decision but because i just never gave myself a chance to think about the abortion itself and my circumstances and feelings about it. It was a wirlwind of events and sometimes when I think back on it,it feels like a dream. My mental state of mind four years ago was horrible. Today, I am not taking any medication for my Clinical Depression but I am living with it everyday. I wonder what would have happened if I did continue with the pregnancy that my then boyfriend said he wasn't ready for? I would be alone with 3 kids to raise. The two children I have have kept my spirits up and everyday thanked God that I made the choice for them. I can offer them a quality education and soon a very nice home of their own. I'm setting the wheels in motion for many changes in my life right now. My ultimate goal is to use my Information Technology/Computer skills to work in a women's organization. So,if anyone is reading this and wants to give me a job, let me know in the guestbook. Oh yeah folks, speaking of that! Hey, why aren't you people signing it? Over 2,000 visits and only 16 people signed it? Oh, that's pathetic. Oh, Please sign my guestbook! Everytime I see an entry I realize someone was reading the site and actually liked it. In the next couple of months the site might go through a complete overhall.I'm changing layouts, font types and page colors. See, f I had more input I'd know what you guys want! I'm also looking into a BLOG for the site when I start escorting which will be in the next few weeks. I'm contiually learning about myself, being a women and women in general along with our issues and everyday struggles.
Four years ago went I walked into the clinic and had my abortion I was a totally different person than I am now. I've always considered myself mature but I've matured and grown as a person and as a women. Some people may ask why I've designed this site or why I'm not afraid to speak out about abortion and other topics. Well, I just say that people need to know froma real person who's been on both sies of it. I firmly believe that unless it's happened to you, you may not understand everthing that goes on in my life and other people lives. I know many women out there who've had abortions and refuse to discuss them. I know for a fact that society has to change it's views and open it's eyes about life and choices. Also, I urge all women to speak out about Abortion. It may be our right now but, later down the line we might not have that choice so speak out against people, organizations and the government.
March 24, 2006
It's been awhile since I've made any updates but recently so many things have occured on the abortion front. Earlier this month,all abortions (except to save a woman's life)were banned in South Dakota. This direct ban will risk thousands of women's lives a year. More states have the ban on their agenda. Please contact your states legislature to tell them not to ban abortions in your state. For more information go to some of the links page and click on the websites to find out what you can do to help.
April/May 2006
Well, I've been laid off for a little while so I've had a chance to do more things on the pro-choice front. I've recently applied to Planned Parenthood in the Greater Cleveland area for a family planning assistant position. I feel extremely confident that I'll land the position. The interview went well and I should be hearing back soon. I also paln to go to my state's capital May 10 to speak to legislature and to learn how the House is dealing with these pro-choice issues. As of today I learned that there was a ban a House Bill (228) in my Ohio's legislature that will ban all abortions, even to save a women's life. I am outrged that this ban has the potential to happen in Ohio. If this happens it will be illegal to take a women across state lines to recieve an abortion and countless women will die. I have downloaded a petition off NARAL's website to pass around. I definitely will keep you posted on updates.
September 21,2008
It's been a full 7 years and so many other things have happened since I've updated. Well, for one. I had my tubes tied so that I wouldn't have to have anymore unplanned pregnancies. I also am engaged to be married. Today I still wonder what would have happened if I continued on with the pregnancies. I know for a fact that I would still be serioiusly struggling more than what I'm doing right now. I recently saw a friend that I grew up with that has 4 kids and she's younger than me and she looks miserable in my opinion. I really think that I made the right decision over all. This year is a very crucial year to vote and our right as woman and american citizen's could be taken away if McCain and Paulin get into office so Vote! Thanks everyone!
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