Guilt

I knew who you were
I know who you are
I feel it in the pounding in my blood
But when I see the spark in your eyes
When I push you
When I see you near to snap
My skin burns with need
I can feel it
Fingers digging into my arms
My feet swinging for the ground
Sometimes the sting on my face
I burn
I soothe
You give me peace
I am satiated
Yet you turn your back on me
Are you afraid of me?
Are you afraid of you?
I know I cannot ask
You tell me no
I have no right to argue
And now I smolder
No avenue to vent my needs
No words to ask for placation
No pain to quiet me

Years ago you were there
When the world was crashing down
You were God
And I was not
And you shone like the light of a thousand suns
You send tingles down my spine
To places unseen
I see ghosts when you aren’t here
Your face in front of my eyes
Your smile that warms me
I can taste you
Though I have never sampled
I can feel you
Though I have never touched
In my dreams you are everything
You are what I have never had
Will never have
You stand for good
And yet
You see all of me
The darkness that swirls inside
All my faults
So why?
Why do you see something beautiful in me?
Why am I worth the wrath of gods?
What light do you see in me?
And how do you make me feel
Like I am everything right?
There is no guilt when you look to me
And I believe in you.