As the sun begins to set I once again find myself losing sight, my eyes drowning in depths of growing darkness
But as I know life this sun will again rise these cuts will heal these scars will fade
touch life
feel life
breath life
bleed life
And as another body falls another weight down upon the souls of the living. Well I been like this, I don't want to be like this. I've been like this, I don't have to be like this.

explanation: it's about giving in to everything. Realizing you have so little control that to fight the flow of life will only leave you exhausted. How I often find myself trying to fight realities of life, constantly fighting a impossible battle and being left lifeless because of it. This isn't to be interpreted as don't fight for what you believe in, it's to say that I often find myself acting in ways I don't believe are good or healthy or provide ways to grow. But I stick to these behaviors because I've grown comfortable in them, so even though I know I'm doing something harmfull to myself I consent because it's easy. This is about growing past being comfortable and giving in to wherever that takes me.

2. Hospitalistic Children/Exterminating Angel

"Do you hear the din of the beating heart? Come closer beloved, I infect you." the pace kept up we race to the edge of town a world built up, now a world lead to burn we can burn down god we can burn down man an eternal fire of frantic desire and breakbeat pulses the past is dead we are here now so listen! the din the beat we race to stop and be! for this moment we ARE, completely, the infection spreads and nothing is regretted Do you hear it? This is now, we have no where else to be, this is it, let?s live NOW!

Explanation: Adults are people who live in retrospect; people with a ?past?; people who respect history; people with excuses; people living to build a future and always thinking of the past, but never living in the moment. I am always trying to postpone my ?maturity?, sometimes through artificial means. We are children on life support, desperate for answers and, more importantly, answers that aren?t the same as ones we?ve already heard. Excuses are used way too much, most of all to rationalize inaction. We all really have NO EXCUSES, so let's go make good on all the promises we made RIGHT NOW. There is no excuse. We always have choices: there is NO excuse for not choosing what we desire. By the end of high school all teenagers are supposed to only think of the future and start planning and building for a life that will always be incomplete (I have a college degree now I need a job, I have a job now I need a wife, I have a wife now I need a house, I have a house now I need some kids, etc. until death). We are constantly made to build our future, but never encouraged to experience the moment HERE and NOW. The present is endorsed as only a bridge, and not one of us ever thinks of BLOWING UP the bridge! If everything we do is for tomorrow, what good will it do if tomorrow NEVER COMES? This is my life. This is your life. It?s passing us by, moment by moment. There is no dress rehearsal, there is no second draft. We are living the life NOW, so let?s act like we should. LIVING should be our only concern. Now I am going to stop writing, you will stop reading, for life is too short...

Label: Self Released

Release Date: 6/29/02
Recording date (CCR): 4/14/02 w/ Danny F.

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