Nothing really life changing or important has happened in my life lately,
though I do wish it had in some ways, just so I have something important
to talk about. I saw my old crush a couple of days ago, and he's still cute.
I probably would have gotten a "heart fart" (when your heart flutters and you
loose your breath), but I wasn't feeling good. It was a kind of energy boosting
moment though because he still looked at me like he did before he left
for college. I even had a dream, a long one, that we decided to go out, even
though I wasn't going to date in high school. It was like I put all my standards
aside just so I could do what my flesh wanted me to do. I worry that maybe
that might happen to me and I won't care at the moment, but I know that
God will give me the strength to resist the temptation.
My younger cousin, Sarah, stayed with me last week, and boy does
she remind me of myself at that age. It's kinda scary because I know exactly
what she's going through, but I'm not sure how to be a help to her. I ate with
her and her "friends" today. They were so mean to her and it wasn't really
mean, it was only little things, but she's very sensitive, like me, so it hurt her
feelings. I'm pretty sure she was about to cry, I feel so bad. I tried doing the
same thing she was getting picked on about, but it didn't help. It made me feel
bad, but I think I am going to call her tonight so that I can help her out with
somethings that she might need.
I am so glad that school is winding down to the end of the year and
I am so happy!! I leave for the most life changing summer in 20 days. I am
fulfilling my dream to go to Africa!! I am going for four weeks with Teenmania
and I can hardly wait. Well I still have homework to do, so I better be going.
Later,
Kaitlin
I have to stop writing for a while, but I will write as soon as I get back from Africa. I leave in 6 days, but I just won't have the time to write. I can't believe that I'm going to Africa. It won't become real to me until I've been there for about three weeks, and then I head home. I can't wait until I have stories to tell. Well, I gotta run because I'm leaving for The Great State of Texas in morning. I'll write as soon as possible.
Kaitlin