| More of My Pointless ramblings.. other than on myself |
| Aug.25 This week hasnt been the best.. seems that anything i do wrong is more noticable to everyone than if another person did the same thing.. to start off, my wonderful parentz have me reduced to the age of a 12 year old with all the curfews and crap with the phone, internet, and me going out(eventhough ill be 18 in 3 weeks).. then on one fo my teams i made 2 mistakes (that never hurt the team) in one game and didnt hit as well as i usually do (but no worse than any of the other players) and then (for my own good) im JERKED from my starting position to FOCUS more on my hitting.. then my illustrious father chirps in that i HAVE to go talk to the coach and tell her i should be playing first agian.. more or less BEG for my position back, which i refuse to do.. so hes mad at me cause he thinks nothing will change if i dont say something, but if i say something itll have the oppoiste effect.. ok im done with that.. now all i have to say is that im sick and tired of having all this college *you gotta play good when college coaches are prestent" routine.. my father thinks if i dont do well once in front of a coach then there is no way im going to college, but doesnt care about all the times ive done really well infront of the schools im interested in.. all the schools i wanna go to know who i am and my abilities.. and i know definetly a Ju-Co that wants me and if thats the worst i do then that aint too bad.. sigh.. now that ive cried lifes lemons outta my system ill just deal with it.. poor poor me (yeah right) ill just keep trying to disprove what the adults i care about most think i am.. irresponsible, naive, unfocused, no direction, and untrustful.. but i say its alot better than being pregnant, getting high or drunk, and being in jail.. Made on July 24th Okay, there is one thing in life that i dont like about being a girl.. it so irritating it makes me sick.. but the sad thing is i do it also without realizing it.. I HATE GOSSIP!! cause by the time u get wind of a story by the 3-4th person the story is so blown outta proportion its sickening.. at school i hear alot of gossip and stuff, but i dont tell anyone.. but then i hear it again later from someone else and its way different.. then i dont know if the person i heard it from heard it the right way or not.. anyways, there was a situation, girl A, not well liked on my team, was going to be replaced for a game by girl B.. when GB asked why, girl C, who didnt like GA, said it was because we need someone a bit faster this game (not mean really cause it was the truth the coach even said it) then GB ran over to GA and said that GC said she was fat and slow thats why she wasnt playing.. so GA started cussing and crying and getitng all mad right before our game which was pretty important.. i watched the whole thing then shook my head in disgust.. and to make it worse the mothers on the sidelines started talking about it later and their story was way different then what happened so i had to correct them and i guess it wasnt as interesting as it had been blown up to be.. well anyways all i know is that girls can be brutal, mean, backstabbing, and vicious.. im a girl yes proud to be most of the time but i cant stand gossip eventhough im known for telling a tall tale or two myslef bu i admit to it :) lol Made on June 4th OK.. i know its been a loooooong time.. cause ive been really busy and havent been pissed enough.. TILL NOW haha.. but on todays main list is ppl telling you how to live ur life!!.. i mean i have lived my life, my way for oh about 17 years.. and i havent screwed up my life royally yet and im happy about that.. but then some person who isnt making the best decisions in their life comes up and says u make ur choices the wrong way!!.. umm ok.. RIGHT.. well they said i was "too laid back" and i wont go into details cause they may read this lol.. but i feel that my "laid back" approach, or whatever it is.. seems to work cause i dttn stress and worry myself sick about it.. havent ppl ever heard the saying/bible verse that u cant remove the splinter from a friends eye till you remove the log from ur own?? thats how i feel.. the person is trying to correct how i live my life just so i can please them.. but sorry i dont try to comform to one persons wishes.. all i can say about me is take it or leave it lol.. now i know u have no idea what im talking about but i feel i need to say something cause im about ripped at the seams haha.. but enough for tonight, ive been lucky to make it this long without saying anything here :) Made on March 15 Why do other guys feel they should give opinions to subjects that have nothing to do with them?? i mean lets say im having a bad day and happen to mention whats wrong because they wont QUIT asking... and then feel they should give their view on it WITHOUT me asking for it.. then when i say i dont care to hear it they get all defensive saying i shouldt have said anything.. then cuss me out or something.. and there is no benefit to cussing a girl out.. ppl can do it to me and ill get mad yes.. but i get over it.. they are just words.. unless someone i really care for does it.. but if i get close enough to someone.. i wont do anything to make them that mad.. or i at least try :) anyways when someone comes to me with a problem i wait for them to ask.. cause i feel that i dont know whats in their life and have no reason to come into it :).. and if i were to do something worse then id feel worse.. plus i dont have the perfect life and cant say im expierienced lol.. Another thing that kinda bothers me.. im known for being cheerful and stuff.. but when a friend hurts me in some way and they know it.. it seems they always expect me to be my old and happy self later.. and it takes me awhile to get over stuff.. but they insist i should be happy and they want me to be.. (like its in my best intrest??) whatever lol made on feb 9 Okay can anyone tell me why in the heck girls my age and younger go gaga over the stupid boy bands??.. im not one to say how ppl should act but who actually thinks that one of the backstreet boys or nsync guys or even *hates to say it* Hanson will ever come to the smallest towns in the middle of nowhere and ask them out or like them.. and i cant stand it when girls millions of miles away ask me if i know Hanson, since we live in the same town and all.. well sorry to say Tulsa isnt as small as everyone thinks.. we have tons of ppl and no i dont know them.. seen them walk the streets, saw them before they were famous.. anything like that.. and they all need to get a life cause i have one and its fine without me going ape over those stupid boy bands.. grrr.. my ex friend had a thing for Nick on the BSB.. ugh.. she kept saying stuff like "i love him.. hes so cute".. well duh.. like they will make a guy look ugly on tv let alone allow him on stage.. sorry if i offend anyone but i just cant understand the concept of loving celebrites.. maybe its the life i live in a kind of (but not totally) small city... well thats all for the boy bands but just know i cant stand ppl who go crazy.. now its cool if u like them or their music cause i do SOMETIMES but dont think ur going to marry them someday.. get over it.. ur not popular rich or pretty enough for them.. they are probably laughing at crazy girls like u behind the scenes lol made on jan 17 okay another thing i dont like at all.. when some person is on welfare and HAS to have the select deli meats and brand name foods.. why cant they skim like the rest of us and get the bagged cereal instead of captn crunch and whats wrong with plain od oscar myer.. remember "my bologna has a first name is O-S-C-A-R.." etc... also, why in the heck when they finally get all the brand names do they cheat and go to the 12 item line with more then 12 items!!! i cant stand that.. i follow the rules and when im in a hurry i always get some old hag that usues food stamps with select deli meats, brand name cereals.. whats wrong with the bagged cereals?? nothing i eat them.. all im missing is the cheapo deapo prizes at the bottom that never work.. so if u ever have to use the fast lane.. make darn sure that u have less then 12 items cause ppl behind u in a hurry will be upset like i am.. plus the lady i was stuck by one time wanted to take her good for nothing time to look for coupons and stuff that only saved like 12 cents or something.. who really care about a freaking 12 cents.. some might.. but it wont pay for a meal if only one coupon for detergent is missing.. if it does, get the always save brand or a cheapo brand.. no one actually has to have downy.. and the only reason its expensive is for the picture of the stupid teddy bear that lil kids love cause he's sooooo cute!! ugh.. anyways just be nice and let others have the importance once and awhile the world will not halt if u dont have expensive brand names... made on dec. 5 First on my list is dumb jocks.. i like guys in general.. but what i can not stand is huge steriod taking (not really) egotistical jocks.. the type of ones who believe football is the only thing in life and if they cant play it for a certain amount, they feel like they will die or something.. also when they are at school they feel girls should follow at their beck and call and are used for one thing.. (need i explain?) .. im talking about the groups (when its not football season) party almost every weekend.. (pardon my english) screw anything they can get their hands on.. then when they were at school they dare to see how many pieces of pizza they can eat in a minute.. talk about gross and disgusting.. no i have no problem with guys hanging out and sometimes getting drunk.. but for me id rather do something more productive on my weekend.. if im offending anyone here im sorry but ive had some odd situations with som.. anyways ill try not to be too personal.. but even if u lose touch with one.. its seems to me they feel it was you that did something wrong.. and if they actually admit to it they feel theyve dont some great favor and you should be so happy with it.. reminder:not all guys are like this and im not trying to be sereotypical.. im just talking about a total of 4 guys that act the same way and all to me.. plus if u talk to a jock.. there isnt any real converstaion u can talk about.. or at least with me.. cause i barely ever pay attention to football and he could care less about my sport.. now for some, jocks are good for them.. but me i analyze and think things through and look over it again.. and i just cant deal with someone who shows little emotion or doesnt care about my interests.. hey il gladly sit on the sideline and root for them any day of the week if i love him.. but he better be willing to cancle out with a weekend with his friends to see me in a softball tournament at least a third of the time.. but thats all i have to say.. im just ranting cause i feel like it.. sometimes things happen that make me want to and i feel alot better when i do.. so ill let u read it but please dont judge me on what i think.. thanx and peace for this one |
| Here are some of my opinions on subjects i have come across in the past few months.. it took me awhile but usually when im having a well how can i say it.. a "bad" week i get really moody and stuff just irks the crap out of me.. so i decided to type some out on here and put it up just in case ud feel like reading it lol.. well i doubt u will enjoy but here it goes anyways :) |