drove off the bridge?" I know the basics: crashing through the guardrail, falling, possibly the car
blowing up, tumbling over, metal crumpling. It's funny, people remove themselves from things,
feel immortal. So I take the step further, what would happen to me? It's disturbing considering
your head banging into the window, shattering glass ripping your flesh, stomach jumping into
your throat as you fall, car hitting, legs banging into the dash, femurs cracking, blinding pain,
then blackness.
When you have to sit too long and your foot falls asleep but you can't get up and it gets worse
but you're forced to ignore it. I've been sitting for years now, I'm speaking metaphorically of
course, but something more important than my foot has been tingling for these past few years.
God knows when it started.
can leave or get out of. You can't. Once you're there some part of you will stay there
indefinetly.
catches up and grasps what you've told them or done? In small children it's easier to
observe. No one should ever see that or take joy in it, but people do. Why? In adults its
the same, maturity is a nice word for enhanced acting skills and hardening. For some god
forsaken reason people praise these traits. Fancy lying, lying to yourself, to others.
where peoples lives have ended, where they've drawn their last breath, thought their last
thought. All those little white crosses on the highway, chalk outlines, empty hospital beds,
they're all endings, all once birthday parties, scraped knees, fears, wishes, hate, love, and
then it was just over. What amount of grieving can ever even scratch the surface of that.