November 19, 2002 - (Tuesday)
All is fine here in NJ. It's been dreary and rainy and getting cold but I'm OK with it (like I have any choice!!). Sheesh, all it took was a great meeting in VA to turn my mood right-side-UP! I'm excited about the future, work-wise and that thrills me to no end. I've worked with only men for years now and I'm finally going to be working with women and I'm really really excited about that. My eating has definitely improved. I've quit snacking non-stop with the pretzels so that's a good thing! We went to the shore this weekend and saw the house under major construction. It's a mess -- see below. It looks terrible. Our adorable little home-away-from-home -- it's getting pulled apart - lol.
Oh well, all is well here, weight is moving a little, eating a little better (still could be better). Going to GNC today to see about a protein shake and hope that helps the weight move a little faster. I know my body thinks I'm starving myself so I'm not losing quicker. Ugh, before I ate too much, now I eat too little. It's all a vicious cycle. I'm happy though, gotta admit that. I don't think I've ever been happier. Oh well, hope all is well by all of you. Please drop me a line, or sign my guestbook (that makes me ****soooo***** happy). Till next time... :)
November 21, 2003 - (Thursday)
Nothing doing, just a quick update. Have I told you lately how amazing this surgery has made me feel? I feel like a brand new person -- pretty much always in a good mood, in spite of the past month or so and I feel like life is so worth living. A year ago, I only hoped things could have gone so well. This time, last year, I was preparing for my last Thanksgiving, hoping the surgery went uneventfully and anticipating the start of my new life. This year has not disappointed me -- one bit!!!! I have lost 120 pounds, have a new outlook on my life and am happy. I can't honestly say I was happy the past few years at all. My weight had become such an issue, it consumed my every wim and desire. I didn't want anyone in the "outside" world to see me, so I stayed as reclusive as possible, and believe me, I was pretty successful at that. I'm really not sure that those really close to me even knew how miserable I was, guess I was good at hiding the truth from everyone, perhaps even myself!!
God, I'm so grateful... Being comfortable in my skin is so refreshing. I hate to be judgemental, but no one over 100 lbs overweight can be happy with themselves. I was going to comment on a TV personality who I think could really really use this surgery, but I'll stop short of that. What's it my business what they do? I guess I'm like the ex-smoker, or the person that's "found religion"....I want everyone who's obese to get the help that I did and find out that there is a life outside of the prison we call our bodies. I'll preface these comments with "I know surgery isn't for everyone".... but, I'm so happy I did what I did to make myself healthier and thus happier. Ugh, it's a marvelous thing this RNY surgery. It's helped me find a new me (well maybe it's not a "new" me, just the old me that was buried under 100 pounds of fat) and I'm so glad I did.
Overall, I'm a really nice person and I really deserved to be healthy, happy and content in my own body and I thank God that I was able to find a wonderful surgeon and had the health insurance to cover the surgey. All this has enabled me to find happiness. 12 months ago I only prayed I could be this happy and that's one prayer that's been answered. Oh well enough with all this slobbering, till next time...hope you are happy with yourself!!!! |
