My site:http://leannebuffyandangel.tripod.com/ Disclaimers: aren’t mine, josses Rated: R Summary: A scene After chosen and Before Angel season 5 Feedback: definitely, please give me lots *Angel* I could kill him for touching her, rip ever inch of his un dead body to pieces, How could she let him touch her, hold her, kiss her. A sigh escaped his lips and he plumped himself on his bed tearing off his shirt and pants he crawled underneath the blankets *Angel* she was my everything and now, she's his. *Buffy* God he's still so handsome after all this time, when we kissed I felt like I was back in heaven ,he made alive again, loved, and desired, I told him to go......... pushed him away, I knew this could be the end for all of us, and I couldn’t bare for him to stay and die for me…. for us. Spike sacrificed himself for me for the world and a part of me dosen’t care, I know that’s wrong of me, I cared for him, but, I never loved him or even trusted him for that matter , not like he wanted me too. Angel, he was angry about Spike, Do I blame him No! of course not especially when I let it happen ..let the one person he hates the most into my bed, his grand childe, god what he must think of me now. She stood in front of his door she could feel him so much more than before, maybe since she had killed the first her senses accummalited more power. She touched her scar on her chest and winced at the pain. Maybe he couldn't even look at her, maybe he didn't want her anymore. Why was is it so hard, Why was she here? * Angel* She was my Everything my sun, my stars, my water and my breathe, I have treated her so badly and I chased her into his arms, What have I done, she doesn’t deserve that low , Whatever did she do to deserve that. * Buffy* I stare at the door, It's unlocked, I turn the knob and my heart races ,What are you doing he doesn’t want you, especially now. I decide to enter it smells like him and I feel my head throb I place my bags by the door and squint through the dark, I notice his light on, should I just leave. * Angel* I can sense her the smell of her arouses me in ways I have forgotten, she sends shivers down my spine and If I could breathe I would be gasping for air ...seeing her again was my reward, she's my everything, but she's not here, she's there with him. *Buffy* I stumble towards the door bumping into a table it was close one but I caught the lamp, I peer into his room and he's there , his eyes are closed and he's lying almost naked staring at the ceiling. I hold my breathe at his beauty every inch of him I remember, from his scar to his mole on his left butt cheek. she giggled and opens the door. *Angel* I hear a noise and I open my eyes, I can't sense anything except for her .. *Buffy* I tear away my clothes only wearing my red bra with matching panties, I watch him turn to gaze through the window, It's my chance to leave ,but, I don't I walk silently to his bed, and climb in wrapping my arms around him, he gasps and his brown eyes stare down at me,. " Buffy." He said and my heart jumped a beat, " Please forgive me?" she said tears forming her eyes looking deeply at him mesmerizing every feature just in case its her last. " Buffy, what are you...." Buffy placed her finger over his mouth. " I'm sorry for everything I've done for pushing you away. " She moved up closer so her head was on the headboard she can see him better. " For what Buffy, you haven't done anything to me." He noticed her scare on her stomach and his hand reaches for it, his hand touching her stomach she sighed reaching for his hand entwining his fingers with hers. Tears fell from her eyes but she didn't care not now anyways. " I love you Angel, I... I never stopped, I never meant for it to happen any of it."" Angel pulled her close wiping the tears from her eyes. He smiled slightly as his undead heart filled with joy at her words, what had happened to them, what went wrong. " I love you Buffy, more than life itself, I'm the one to be sorry, I left you and never came back and I shouldn't of and I realize that now, I'm sorry. “ tears fell from his eyes and she brushed them with her finger, tracing his features. They stared at each other for moments maybe hours it felt like to them but they didn’t care all the cared was that they were together for right now. “ Angel.” “ Yes, beloved.” He asked brushing a hair from her face. “ Make love to me.” she breathed. Angel’s eyes grew big at her question and he swallowed hard he began to speak, she pushed her lips on his kissing him passionately. “ Please, don’t say anything, I know you can’t but please , just kiss me.” she said sadly. They kissed and caressed each other exploring unknown places that they had both forgotten, they did this for hours, not making love just touching and kissing. The sun began to rise and Buffy sighed at his butterfly kisses on her abdomen , he pulled himself up looking deeply into her green eyes. She was so beautiful all of her and it killed him that he couldn’t love her they way she wanted to. “ Buffy.. I” she kissed him again stopping him from ruining the moment, she smiled slightly and sat up kissing his shoulder and then his neck. “ I know. You don’t have to explain yourself, I know I just…” He smiled and placed his finger on her lips rubbing them gently. God, I wish too, “ he looked at her then to the clock. “ When do you have to leave.” he asked and she looked at him weirdly he knew she needed to go, and she smiled at that. “ Soon, can we talk have some coffee, my plane leaves at eleven.” He nodded and picked her up placing on the ground they went to the shower. “ Can we, uh, shower.” he asked in a child’s voice. She giggled and nodded . It had been an hour when they finally broke away from each others touches, they dried and dressed going into the kitchen. They sat silently sipping their coffee and staring at each other. “ The medallian worked, it saved us, Anya died and so did a lot of the potentials.” She said brushing her wet hair from her face. “ I’m sorry about Anya, she seemed very nice. Everyone else is okay though, right?” He asked reaching across the table and holding her hand. “ Yes were fine, except.” she stopped averting her gaze to the floor. “ Spike he wore it and well he died he sacrificed himself for us, took sunny dale with him.” She said still not looking at him. “ Oh, I um I’m sorry, I didn’t know.” She smiled a little looking back to his deep brown eyes. “ I know, It’s okay, he wanted it that way.” Angel stared at her moving his chair closer to hers. “ Did you?” He asked in a husky voice. She smiled sadly and sipped her coffee.” I didn’t love him Angel , we did sleep together for a while when I came back from being dead and then I ended it, he was a good friend he cared for me and took care of me when I needed it, He loved me got his soul for me, but… she paused and stood up and sat on his lap brushing her hand through his hair. “ bless his soul for doing that I will never forget what he has done. I’m glad it wasn’t you.” She said laying her forehead against his, they stared at each other again for minutes enjoying the closeness. He kissed her forehead and smiled letting her up he grabbed her hand and leading her to the door, he went to the dresser pulling out a velvet cloth he opened it and gave it too her. She stared at the ring swallowing hard and looked to him. “ Please take it. It means you belong to someone.” he said and She raised and eyebrow and took it from him. “ Are you sure.” she asked a little scared of what he could say. He grabbed her kissing her roughly. making them both come up for air. “ More than anything, if… if you want.” She giggled and jumped into his arms kissing his face frantically. “ yes, more than anything.” she said sighing into him. He smiled and grabbed her bags, she looked at him blankly. “ I might be a while, you know finding myself. I just need to go and… ” I know, I understand, go, take your time, I will be here when you get back.” he saidabnd opened the door. She smiled and kissed his hand entwining their fingers together they left the apartment and headed to the lobby. Wes, Gunn and fred chirpped hello to him realizing he wasn’t alone Wes smiled to himself and hushed the group into the office, giving the lovers time to talk. They got to the door and a man in a tux came in. Angel passed her a credit card and smiled widely at her. “ What’s this.” she asked. “ A girl who has just been free of her duties deserves some pampering, please take it.” he said and She smiled and looked to the man in the tux. “ Miss summers your limo awaits ", she giggled again and looked at Angel. “ I could get use to this.” she chirpped and He laughed crushing her into him. “ Good, cause we have a lot of time, forever! right.” he whispered. She nodded and hugged him.” Thank you for everything, I love you, and I’ll miss you.” and she was gone. He watched her walk away and he smiled brightly turning towards the gang. * Forever together * The End Leanne TBC Feedback please