Chapter 2: A Little Talk of tears [continued]
Diclaimer in Chapter 1: Memories
{Buffy}
He looked at me with great worry in his eyesand I became so concerned that I put my hand on his and he took my hand into his. I sat on the bed crissed-crossed style, holding the love of my life's hand and waiting for him to tell me whats wrong. In some people's minds this would mean a second chance, but that wasn't the case. Something was wrong just like it always was when we met. It was never going to be happily ever after, and we both knew it, but it like something else was wrong this time. I could feel it. It seemed like he was so distant and far away.
He started; "Buffy I am really ashamed of what I have been feeling for the last year, I've fallen in love with Cordelia."
"Don't you DARE touch me! You have no right to touch me!" I moved away from him and sat at the chair next to the vanity.
"Buffy..I know you're upset.."
I cut him off, "I'm not upset, I am shattered, ANGEL! I think about you day and night even when I was with Riley or Spike I..."
He interruped me, "That's the point you were with two other people and now that I am with one other person you can't be happy for me, that I fell in love? That's all I ever wanted for you, so why can't you be happy for me?"
"WHY? I can't believe your asking me this! AS I was saying before- even when I was with them I wished it was you, BUT you didn't want me and I thought maybe when you became human there was chance for you and I. But you falling in love has proven to me that I am going to be miserable for the rest of my life! Becuase I have only loved one man in my whole life and that's you, neither Riley nor Spike! It was always you, I never loved them! Then you tell me that you and Cordelia are in love! Just get out!" I flailed.
"No, this is not my fault, Buffy. You can't blame all the problems on our break-up on me!" he screamed.
"What are you talking about? YOU are the on who left me! YOU are the one that told me you didn't want to be with me! But I wanted to be with you! Becuase I loved you..love you! You didn't care and I've been broken one too many times. This tops it off now! If you are just going to hurt methen get out!"
He grabbed my arm, "How can you say I never loved you! I gave up my life for you, I was human and just so you would live I gave it up!"
"What the hell are you talking about, Angel!?! You were never human!"
"I..I umm.." He stuttered.
"What, Angel? What are you saying? Are you saying that you where human and I didn't know about it and you gave up your 'life' for me?" I asked sacastically and stared at him. He stared back at me. What the hell was he talking about? Did he know that I was kidding? "So what's the answer, Angel?"
"Yes, Buffy, is that what you wanted to hear? Did you want to hear that it is all about you? I mean I try moving on and I can't, that's why I came to make amends. BUT apparently you can't deal with that, so when you are mature enough to talk to me like an adult I will be in L.A." He sputtered with anger.
"Well, maybe you can just get Cordelia to talk to you and maybe you'll like that," I mocked.
"Sounds like a good idea..." He walked slowly away from me and got out of the window.
"You know I was hoping you still loved me, Angel, because I do, but know I don't know if I can forgive you. I just have one thing to say I never loved anyone, but you. And I am honored to say that you were once mine. And you gave your life for me" I sobbed out.
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Angel:
I heard her sobs and her words, I wanted to take her in my arms and stop her crying. But then I would be giving in to her. My pride won over and I did not turn around afraid I would make it worse. "I love you," I whispered under my breathe, unknowing if she heard it or not.
"I love you, I always will." I heard her say in a muffled tone as I walked away with a tear grazing my cold face.
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