Sometimes I sit here at the computer, the hours ticking away, late into the evening, and I contemplate eternity. Well, maybe not eternity, but something close to it. I like this time of night, because it means I don't have to worry about anyone else's schedule except my own. In this time of reflection, I usually turn on my music and indulge myself in mindless activities, like surfing the internet, checking email, chatting with friends, etc... and I find that inevitably I get bored, so I focus on my worship music, and the Lord.
The Lord has brought me so far in such a short time, that even I find I'm having a hard time catching my breath. So much change... I can't believe I'm not the same person I was even a year ago. It's like the person I was a year ago is a shadow now. Like a skin I cast off my body in some spiritual molt.
And He's inspiring me now! I haven't been this musically active in four years! Two brand new songs praising Him have poured out of me like water in the last week... it's unreal. To not use talents that He gave you makes Him sad... but it's like He just sorta flipped the "on" switch. In the middle of the night now, I'm turning on the bedside light to frantically write stuff down because it's bouncing around in my head and won't let me sleep.
* * * Lord Jesus, I pray that You continue to be a beacon for me during stormy times, and a rock I can cling to in times of need. You are my bastion, my salvation, my keeper, and my Lord God. I pray that you guide my friends and my family throughout their lives, even if some of them don't see You in their lives. Thank You for listening to my prayers, and for cleansing my soul of sin, even if I'm not completely clean yet. I pray You, Lord Jesus, to forever shine upon me; allow me to grow under Your hand, and to become closer to You throughout my physical life on this Earth, and with You forever in the Kingdom of Heaven. I pray you Lord Jesus, in Your name. Amen. |
