starrynite

I stand on the balcony of my brother's apartment with my cigarette on my hand. It's such a wonderful night. I can never be able to see so many stars with my naked eyes before in Gotham city. It's actually pretty cold in Fremont. I wonder if she is looking at the same sky as I am now. I can not help myself but think of her. Does Venus represent her? Could have I been Mars? I don't know since they look so close even though they are actually thousands miles away from each other.

I looked at her California License plate on her Lexus SC400. It actually has my initial on it. What a coincident. I tried to look into her eyes from the reflection of the mirror. But her dark sunglasses just block me from the last glimpse into her beautiful eyes.
Her eyes were like the lense of a zoom camera.. so dark and shinny that capture my soul and hopefully... printed it on to the deep chamber of it's body.

Yes I had never met her before. And yes I had only spend 3 days with her.. but those 3 days were the best day I could remember about California. We bath in the sun with wind lifting her hair while we both sipping tapioca tea from Fantasia. I listened to all her little wisper she had in her mind... from her little childhood story to the 2 months old life inside her. I looked at her light eye shadows as her eyes glanced away from me into green mountain on my back. Her hair was like fall that reflect the sunlight when the water wave splashed onto the rock. It was so elegant, so beautiful and so.... California.

I did not know if i should tell her my feeling toward her. Every one of us should have the heart pounding feeling when we saw the dream girl/guy. I did.. far far away from my home town. I would never thought of seeing her if I was not here. And of course, I wish I could have meet her 2 years earlier. when she was still single. Do you know the feeling of seeing your dream girl and realized that she is married and still want to madly fall in love with her? I am either too stupid or just way too naive. But I can see her worries deep in her eyes. I can sense the insecurities in her heart. She has the perfect smile yet her smile spells sadness to me. Who am I to think that I could save her from her not so happy marriage life? How much can I understand her just by being with her for 3 days?

I can't never tell. I was such a coward. All I did was told her that I can not help myself but madly fall in love with her before I left her office. I didn't even have the gut to look at her after I told her but drove away.
It's a starry night. It's a great night for married couple to talk about or plan their life under the Milky Way. I wonder if you are doing the same.