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there were 2 little cats on the street of santa monica. and there were a group of people surrounding them. the owner of the cats was a gypsy dressed looking man with dark long coat. the 2 cats were sitting on a box and they were actually dressed with capes. and they were both tied to the box.

a girl was sitting on the chair right next to the sign. the sign said " fortune telling cats" owner of the cats took out a box full of little rolled up papers. and the girl who was ready to have her fortune told, picked the cat she wanted to help her. the cat actually picked the role of paper with both of it's front claw.. and then the man fed the cat..

if our fortune were all that easy to be told.. won't that be simple?

she had a little problem with her fianc�. or perhaps a big problem? i thought i could be there for her as a friend. get rid of some of her loneliness. she called.. he did not pick up the phone... for a few days...

she worried about him.. bad job market and all the difficulties in her relationship had almost destroyed her fianc�s confident. but it did not stop her from loving him and supporting him because she loves him dearly.. but she did not know how to help... their financial situation ruined half of their relationship.

they have not talk for a week. i saw their problems but i could not dare to tell her. i understand that those in love would never accept the truth seen from others..

me and her sat in the bar.. took out my smoke.. but she stopped me.. no smoking in even at bar in california. it's kind of hard for me to start any serious conversation without some camouflage of smoke. but looking into her innocent eyes.. i just can not say anything but tell her not to worry.. just give him some time.
i am not a positive person. i do bring a lot of negative comments and sometimes it hurts people's feeling. but as far as i know.. i always think it is ok to plan for the worse then hope for the best. i really do not know how to cheer her up but order her another drink..

there is a lot to write about her.. she is such a unique and lovely artist. she has her own way of living yet she does not care of how other looked at her. her cali lifestyle is just a bit slow then my new york style pace. sometimes i really think she should change a location and try her talent in new york. i am sure she would find a happier life here.

sometimes in order to gain.. you gotta give up things in your life.. don't you think, my "child"?

i know you can make it..