| phone calls.. without caller ids... 2001/07/27 00:53:30 |
| so she knocked the phone 3 times. when i asked her why can't she simply talk to me. knocking the phone was the only way i thought i could be able to communicate with her since she never wanted to say anything but kept on calling me. either hanged up the phone right away when i picked up or kept on calling till i picked up the phone, then hanged up. it's been like this since the end of last year till now. more then half a year already.... everyday.. around 8 am... ring... around 12:30 am.. ring.. or anytime she feels like to... i had lost my patience. i screamed, begged, and yelled at her.. even threaten to change my cell phone if she calls like this without hang up after i say hello. my caller id always showed "private" when she called. now i have to think about it twice before i pick up any call without numbers. and tonight.. finally she did not hang up on me.. she gives me a chance to say something beside hello. i had to made it like this: by knocking: once for yes twice for no three times for i don't know she knocked once.. agreed with what i said. do i know you? knock why are you calling me? ........ (silence) ok let me change my question.. do you hate me? knock knock i had to think what to ask her.... 20 sec passed by... do you miss me? knock is that the reason that you called everyday for the past 6 months? knock i don't understand.. you could simply just call or write to me.. why can't you do that? knock knock knock did i hurt your feeling before? knock ......... did you hurt my feeling before? knock why didn't we work out? .......(silence) ok i asked wrong.. was it my fault that we did not work out? knock knock conversation went on like this for another 30 min... then she just hanged up. i still can not figure out what exactly she need from me; nor do i know who that person is ( how dumb can i be??) i felt very sad after i had that conversation.... even though i did not hear her say anything... yet i can't just change my #.. all my clients contact me through this #. or perhaps i was so lonely that i expected her to call me to see if i am still ok? questions without answers.. can you help? by telling me what exactly does the girl want from me? should i just turn my cell off? change another #? tell her to go to hell if next time she did not hang up on me? what would you do if you were me? what is she thinking when she does that to me? |
|