| A reply to s 2001/09/16 22:19:40 |
| Hi i do not know if you still keep your e-mail address.. that is why i asked. i did not really want to write to you directly and i just want to know if you are ok... one of my friend had work in WTC while that tragedy happened. i had realized how short life is.. there were things that was not complete.. or things should have been said. i don't know.. i just wish your life is as good as you want it to be. i dreamed of you a few times lately. i do not know why... i guess being jobless for such a long time has changed me a lot. i was cleaning up my room last night.. i took out the old stuff i packed while i left my last job. and i saw that picture of yours.. it used to be hanged next to my computer.. i didn't know what to do with it.. thought i should have buried it deep somewhere else already.. but i start to sob.. tears dropped from my eyes.. a lot of nice memories.. good memories.. sad memories... and i remembered i still have the first e-mail you sent to me in my yahoo's account.. haha.. what is the point of talking of all these things? it was me who did not take care of what we had.... once again.. didn't mean to bother you... i guess i am a bit lost. sometimes i get these kind of uncontrollable sadness that just bury me and drawn me... it would take me a while to climb back to reality.. and a lot of times i look at myself as a sissy.. that i should not have all these weird feeling and i should go on with my life... and most of the time i am just a cold blooded person that walk in the world like a zombie.. still remember how you played in julliard... totally attracted to you but yet i was not the one in your heart anymore.. don't have much to say... yet look at what i wrote.. laugh at myself.. life is short.. but at least i had you.. |
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