a lapse of reason
"You need someone who can get thru to you, to extract the best of you, but you act like you are too perfect and you have a perfect world set in front of you, so you are afraid to change it and you are terrified you might ruin it. I wonder why you dare for the simple things but you always forget or you are happy to keep it back when it comes to you, and you think you found your perfect match and this is not your first time it have always been this way you give up yourself to make it work. I think you need some time to figure out what you really want.
I know what you want, you want a challenging match
you want someone who can challenge your mind
You should start believing in yourself like I believe in you, but I can learn anything from you unless you talk about you, this is something I can�t read in a book. You know that I�m in because I find you fascinating and I just want to help you face it .I just want to see your dreams fulfilled and I just want to erase anything that you don�t like. But you don�t want to do that because you are too afraid and terrified of what you might say, you know that I don�t believe in a lot of things but I do have faith in you and I�m convinced that you can do anything you want to do, you are bound by nothing .You are sitting on a lottery ticket and I know that people would do anything to have what you have but you will never know how much you have until you discover how much you can give. You have to find the perfect balance since or you are too selfish or you over do it.
Right now all I can see masked up with a pulcinella �s mask is a muddled composition of a fine piece of art, a painting that is being painted up by numbers, amateur strokes but you know that I�m fascinated by your colours that�s why I don�t turn my head but I look again .it is not my intention to change the work of art I only want to put it in the centre of attraction were it deserves to be put were everybody can look at it and realize and admire its beauty, because right now you look like �any port in a storm�
You are in the middle of a big storm the sky is falling on your head
The waves are crashing over your little boat the oars are about to snap so you piss in your pants but you still stay hand in hand and just cry for the harbour. It might be that you can make it now since you believe that you found the right thing but in these circumstances it is the child in you that acts so you don�t know what you are talking about. and what it�s all about.
If I ask you about pain I know that you can explain it to me because you have been trough a lot of hard times, but you think it is a puddle which will dry out when the sun sets up and you can step out of it but you can�t see that it is an ocean that will soon drown you when you are too tired of fighting it back..
If I ask you about love you probably quote me a sonnet, you will probably give me a syllabus of your favourite conquest. You may have been laid a few times but you can never tell me how it feels like, standing next to someone and feel truly happy, but you can never tell me how it feels to look at somebody and feel totally vulnerable or know someone who level you with their eyes, feeling like God put an angel on earth but doesn�t want you to have her as if to punish you for all your sins and she could never rescue you from the depths of hell. You don�t know how it feels knowing that you love her forever trough all the good and bad and even tough you accept her, as she is since in her you find the challenge you have been waiting for a lifetime, still you cannot help her loosing her energy in vain.
And if I ask you about loss do you know how it really feels? You might answer me back by quoting me Shakespear but you can never tell how it feels to love somebody more than you love yourself. But you have done that and you are still doing it so now you know how it feels when somebody takes your love and passion for granted .you know how it feels to be incomplete. In you I don�t only see a confident and intelligent person but I also see a scared child and never eager to fight for what you really need and deserve. Nobody can ever understand the depths of you but you presume that you know everything what �s good and bad for you and build pictures and stories by just looking at the surface of things".