At ten there was a knock at the door, Whit who hadn't slept the whole night answered it, "Damn Whit, you look like shit..." AJ commented as he looked at her, her eyes still swollen from crying, her hair in all directions, her clothes wrinkled.

"AJ..." Nick warned as he got up and went to the door, standing in front of Whitney. Whit just ran her fingers through her hair and went into the bathroom, slamming the door behind her as she threw up.

"Whats wrong with ya'll?" AJ asked.

"Nothing is wrong AJ, everything is just fucking peachy, why does something always have to be wrong?" Nick snapped.

"Jesus Nick, god didn't mean to set you off, chill please, I was just asking, ya'll just act like something is wrong. But I came down to see if ya'll were going sightseeing with us" AJ replied.

"Whos us?" Nick asked.

"Umm, Lauren, me, Brian, Amber, Brooke and Ash. Kevin, Sarah and Howie were going shopping instead of sightseeing, but I think everyone is meeting up at five on that cafe on main street" AJ answered.

"Oh, well no we're not going, but I'll see you at five at that cafe, or whatever in the hell it is...thanks anyway" Nick said.

"Oh, see you then, bye" AJ said back as he turned to walk away, soon following was the sound of Nick slamming the door. "Damn they are strange..." he mumbled.

"Who?" Brian asked as he walked out into the hall, going to fill up the ice bucket he held in his hand.

"Whit and Nick.....something is going on...Nick's all like jumpy acting, I mean I asked him what was wrong and he just went off on me and Whit...I dunno what is wrong with her, she looks like hell though" AJ answered.

"Something is always wrong with them..." Brian began as they reached AJ's door which was two doors from the ice maker. "Well I'll see you downstairs in a few" he said as he kept on walking.

An hour later everyone had left the hotel except for Whit and Nick, "Please tell me you have a car over here and were not going to have to get someone to drive us around..." Whit said as she pulled her sweatshirt over her body and took one last look in the mirror before facing Nick.

"No worries Whit, I have the Durango with me.." Nick drifted off as he faced her. "Ready?" he asked.

"I guess I'm as ready as I'll ever be" Whitney mumbled as Nick held her hand and they made their way to the elevator. Nick explained to the body guard that they were going 'out' and that they'd be back when everyone else was. Soon the two found themsleves on the road, following directions to the hospital, all medical facilites were around the same place. "Nick, am I doing the right thing?" she whispered.

"Is this what you want, thats all that matters right now is what you want" Nick stated.

"It matters what you want too, I mean this is a decision between us, isn't it?" Whitney asked.

"Yes it is, but I mean your the one who has to walk around for nine months carrying a child, personally no I don't want a child" Nick answered.

"Ok, thats all you had to say" Whitney said as she looked out the window. "I feel like I'm killing someone, its like on movies where these people have a angel on one shoulder, a devil on the other.." she rambled.

"Your not killing anyone, thats why they have laws about how far along you are and everything and its not like your the only person who does this, alot of people do it, you just never hear about it..." Nick assured.

"Can what we're about to do, never be heard about and I mean never, unless we give each other permission to tell someone else about it and god help us if the press gets a hold of this.." Whitney asked.

"The press won't, I'm disguised well enough and everything that goes on inside these places is confidental" Nick answered as he pulled into the parking lot of a small building.

"I guess its now or never" Whitney sighed as she got out and made her way to the door, Nick following beside her. An hour later after forms had been filled out and they'd talked to a nurse the two sat in the waiting room once more.

"Lowery, Whitney" a nurse called, opening the door and smiling politely.

Whitney swallowed deeply, standing up with Nick still beside her, "Thats me, can he come, please?" she pleaded, looking in the nurses direction.

"Sure" the nurse replied.

"It'll be Ok Whit, I promise" Nick whispered in her ear as they walked down a white hall.

"I hope your right Nick, I really hope your right" Whitney whispered back as they turned into a room on the left of the hall.

"Now here we have big ben, the clock" Brian exclaimed in a british accent, causing everyone else to laugh. Things were much merrier on the opposite side of town where the group roamed around.

"One of the major attractions here in London, this well designed feature stands, some amount of feet tall, I'm not quite sure at the moment, but it is rather tall.." AJ picked up in the accent, not really knowing what he was talking about.

"Ya'll are retarted" the girls laughed as the contined through the city.

"C'mon ya'll, lets go in here" Amber begged as they saw the sign for the famous butterfly museum.

"Alright, it shouldn't take that long to look at, its only butterflies" Brian explained as they made their way up to the entrance.

"Man I don't like this, things flying around at you in all directions" AJ complained as they walked through a glassed in tunnel, butterflies on both sides of it.

"Well they are in glass, they can't bite you" Brian said.

"Butterflies don't bite in the first place, dumbass" Ashley said back.

"I don't care what they do or what they don't do, I still don't like them" AJ stated.

"Damn you complain alot" Brooke chimed in.

"No I don't" AJ whined.

"Yes you do" Lauren said as she looked at him and rolled her eyes.

At four thirty they were making their way back to Main street, preparing to meet everyone else in half an hour, AJ spotted a tattoo shop. "Ya'll if we had to look at damn butterflies for fourty five minutes, we can stop here to look" he said, leaving the group and making his way into the shop. Everyone went seperate places once they entered, Ashley and Amber scurrying over to the body peircing section.

"Brian, can I have fifty dollars?" Amber asked, approaching him as he stood with AJ.

"For what?" Brian asked, raising his eyebrows as he looked at her as if she was foolish.

"To get something peirced" Amber started.

"What peirced?" AJ interrupted.

"My um, tounge" Amber answered.

"Na uh, I don't think so, thats nasty" Brian refused.

"No they aren't Bri, they are neat looking.." Amber complained as the two started to debate about the matter of her getting a tounge ring or not.

"C'mon ya'll lets go" Ashley said, gathering up everyone as she glanced at her watch, it was five until five. Brian who had finally talked Amber out of the tounge ring was the last to leave out of the shop. Ten minutes later they arrived at the cafe, everyone else waited inside. They sat around the table, AJ deciding whether or not to get another tattoo and what to get it of. Everyone else just eating or listening or talking amongst pairs. The night was spent out at a club, seeing that Whit was flying out the next morning, she put on her best party attiutde, not wanting to make anyone else suspious.

The next morning Whit stood at the teminal, preparing to board the plane to Sweden. Nick was the only person there with her. The first boarding call was announced and she was pulled into a hug, "You gonna be Ok?" Nick asked, looking into her eyes.

"Yea, I'll be fine" Whitney answered, hoping her eyes didn't show how much she really needed Nick and how much she wanted to stay with him.

"Call me when you get there and I'll see you this weekend when we have a show up there, I love you Whit" Nick sighed, kissing her before letting go of her waist.

"I love you too Nick" Whit replied as she kissed his lips once more, pushed back the tears that glazed her eyes and turned to walk down her terminal.

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