"Why must she still be in my head?" I said as Lauren quietly sat there. She was waiting ever so patiently to add in her two cents. "I just don't get it after all she has done to me and she is still in my dreams," I said as I looked at her with a face of confusion. "Patrick she did play a huge part in your life. It won't be that hard to forget her whether you like it or not."
"I know; I know, but I don't even like her anymore. I do have a girlfriend who I care for very much."
"Yes I know, but you must remember Amanda is not going to just automatically pop out of your head one day. You have every reason to hate her Pat. The only thing is she will be in your head. Hate her or not." I looked into Lauren's eyes. I knew she was right, but I didn't want to admit it. Even to myself. "Lauren when are things going to make sense?" I asked as I rested my head on her shoulder.
"With you Pat? Never."
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I arose from my bed only to find that I had wore my rollerblades to bed. "Why did I sleep with these things on," I thought to myself "I don't even remember putting these on." I glanced in the mirror as I do every morning to see how much damage my sleep did to my hair. My eyes began to focus and I began to see a shadow behind me. I turned my head and as I did so, the room went black.
I woke again to see Roberta. I had not seen her since the last time I was at camp. She quietly said " Are you OK?" as she helped me up. I looked at her as she began to smile. I looked around to see where I was. I was in downtown Pittsburgh. I began to ask her if she knew how I had got her when I was interrupted with her kissing me. I had never felt those lips come against mine and I wondered what I had done to deserve them. I went to give her another kiss, but this time she quickly pulled away. "I'm sorry we can't do this," she said with a sad look on her face.
"What did I say"
"Nothing. It's what you didn't say"
As the words rolled from her tongue she began to fade away. I had not begun to understand what she had meant let alone what was going on. As I stood there with the world slowly fading away I heard a faint laughing behind me. I turned only to see Amanda with a sad look on her face. As I went to speak she even faded away and I found myself lying in my bed at home again. I looked up to see the shadow figure above me. "Don't make the same mistake twice it said," as I woke up.
I looked around my bedroom as I quickly realized it was all a dream. I looked at the clock on the wall. It was 12:46 PM. I had slept in again but surely Lauren would be awake when I called. I quickly explained to Lauren the dream and told her to meet me somewhere for lunch. She accepted without asking too many questions. For all the years we had known each other this was becoming very common place.
As I reached the park where we planned to meet I saw Lauren sitting on a park bench throwing bird seed to all the birds that had gathered at her feet. "So what happened again," she said as she looked up at me. "The shadow guy dream again." "Oh that one," she replied " those ones are creepy." "I know and they always come true too," I replied as I sat down beside her "but what did it mean?"
"Patrick you think too much.," Lauren said "If they always come true why worry about them." "Cause maybe if I know what's going to happen I can change it." Patrick said. "Patrick I swear if you could just relax and live your life it would be ten times better." "I'll try Lauren. I'll try." "Patrick I swear if you would actually look at what's around you and stop thinking about the dream world you would be fine."
"I just need to see who the shadow guy is. Once I see that person it will all make sense…"
Well tomorrow is going to be the last day I'm here." Lauren said. "Please don't forget to say goodbye to me Pat."
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I awoke to see rollerblades on my feet again. I began to look into the mirror when everything began to make sense. This was a dream. I quickly took grabbed alarm clock and threw it at my mirror. It shattered and showed a whole world inside of it. I turned to see that shadow figure behind me. I ran into the mirror world. The shadow figure began to chase me. I ran for what seemed to be forever. As I ran I saw every girl that I had dated. I saw how they all began and how they ended. I quickly realized this was a time-line of my entire of dating life. The passage way began to end and I saw Amanda's sad face again. I turned and looked at the shadow guy. "Who are you!" I screamed, "What do you want from me?!" At that moment the shadow figure pulled into view. It was Lauren. "Pat don't make the same mistake twice." she said.
"What does that mean!?"
"Look at me."
"What?"
"Look at me."
"I am."
"NO. Look at me!"
I looked into her eyes. She was beautiful. She was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen in my life. How could I have not noticed her before? "I'm sorry." I said. I should have noticed before. "There's still time Patrick." she said as she touched my cheek. "That's right you're leaving tomorrow…" "There's still time Patrick. Just don't waste it." she said as she began to pull me in for a kiss.
I awoke that morning by falling out of my bed. I looked at the clock. 10:30. Still enough time. I quickly showered and threw on some clothes. Instead of calling I ran to her house. I rang the bell. Nothing. I rang again. Her mother came to the door. "Is Lauren home?" I asked. "No Pat she left an hour ago." Pat began walking home. "I thought I still had enough time." I thought to myself. I went to my house and sat on the stoop. I put my head in my hands.
"You would think your best friend died." Lauren said. "Ohhh shut up Lauren…LAUREN YOU'RE STILL HERE!" Patrick exclaimed as he took her in her arms. "Yeah I'm not going with my dad. I'm going to stay here and live with my mother." Lauren said, "What's gotten into you?" "You Lauren. You've gotten into my heart."
"What"
"I'm sorry it took me so long Lauren. I just never looked at you. I'm sorry."
"Pat"
Pat grabbed her and kissed her. "I've been waiting for that for so long."
BAD TWIST ENDING: "but I began going out with Mike today"
Writer's note: The bad ending really isn't the ending but I guess everyone expects some kinda sick twisted bad ending from me. So I don't disappoint.