DailyThoughts

Tuesday 10/23/01 : Today has been long as ever. We had the LONGEST cheer practice for the homecoming game. I need help on band dances. *Eeesh, not a pretty site* My friends are stressing me out with little things that don't normally bug me. I have a cool ass physics test tomorrow and I busted my ass off studying today. And then a Spanish test as well. I hate that class with such a burning passion. The weather has been so disgusting. YUCK! Cold and foggy in the morning and then as soon as we start cheer practice, Mr. Sun just happens to come out. What a bullcaca. Hahaha. I picked up that word from the System message board. Which by the way is horrible at this point. Ummmm........I'm tired and I effing burnt my lip today. My mood is like a cloud. One step from turning my skies grey. Or moving along and make everything all happy. This is going to be one long week and I'm so not ready for it. Even music isn't making me too happy. *SighS* No wait, the new Incubus music video put a smile on my face. You know, Brandon Boyd's body is turning out very nice. I kinda miss his dreads and lame adidas shoes. Haha, I own those shoes. I shouldn't say that. But old Incubus was much better. By far.Fungus Among us. Hehehe, I like that. Ok ok, back to thoughts. It's really bothering me how someone who's supposed to be my friend is starting shit all over again and if it gets worse, my skies, as well as hers, will turn grey. :)

Saturday 10/27/01 : I slept in today till 11. I was awake for 21 hours. It was the Homecoming game yesterday and being the cheerleader I am, I had to wake up at 3:30 to help decorate the skool until about 7 am. And the game went great We won 21-6, I think? But I hurt my leg doing the splits. I didn't stretch out rite. And so now I can't walk on my leg so I'm just sitting her online working on my webpage. Hmm. Tonight is the Homecoming dance. It started about an hour ago. I was going to go but no, I can't walk. So I'm just gonna sit here and watch TV or something. It's kinda lme. But oh well. Will do. My mood rite now is mellow. I've been doing some thinking about bad stuff I've done to people. And bad stuff people have done to me. And my own flaws and how I should try to change some of them. Or fix them. Try to become a better person. But then I think "Oh fuck it." *SighS* Sometimes life is so hard to understand and this is just one of the times that I'm just not understanding. I haven't cried about losing friends in like 2 years. Have I become heartless? Or have I become stronger? Or am I just sick and tired of it and I just don't care anymore? Just so many outcomes with what the reason may be. And I was bummed yesterday that I didn't get to see my friend Erik at the game. He played on the other team and I guess I like him. I miss him and all the funny conversations I had with him. I really do miss it. So Erik if you somehow read this, I miss you!!
But I like Jeff, too and I don't know which is rite. Oh well. That's life for you.

Thursday 11/8/01 Lalalal, life is sooooo stressful!! Omg......Sometimes people are dumb. Dumb people make the world a horrible place to live in and just makes you all depressed.

Tuesday 12/25/01: Well it's 2:38 a.m. and our Christmas guests finally left. It's been a pretty good Christmas. I got $410 in total this year. I think that's probably the most I've gotten. Ok, well here's an update on boys....I'm over Erik. I can't handle someone with his sex drive. Nope, no I can't. I like Jeff. He's kinda mean and sometimes acts like a jerk, but he's totally sweet at the same time. And not to mention hott. But anyways, I'm a teenager. This is the time I should use to go out with hott jerks and learn in the future. I always thought I wanted a long-term relationship, but after reconciling with my cousin Lara, who's 24 and has much more experience in dating than I do, I have decided to just forget about a long-erm relationship and just like go for something more like a month or two and see where it takes me and to just date whoever I want to and to KEEP MY OPTIONS OPEN!!! Hah! There is one boy I truly love and he knows who he is. And one day, we will be an item and I'l treat with the utmost respect. And yeah. Well that's about it. God speed.