POEMS:
Double Standard, First, If I Were You,
I Want You To Love Me Too, Nothing For You, You Aren't There For Me
(BY THAD)
DOUBLE STANDARD
You say that I dwell on the past
Far too often for us to last
The past sometimes crosses my mind
But I have left it all behind
My only love aside from you
Makes you upset, although I’m true
She’s someone I don’t still speak to
And after all, I now have you
She’s also found somebody new
It’s obvious that we are through
But sometimes her name does slip out
For you, that’s just enough to shout
You’ve mentioned your last love, though, too
But notice I don’t act like you
And mine is over, yours is not
You say you still love him a lot
You’re even spending time with him
‘Cause you don’t want to lose a friend
I can’t talk about “what’s her name?”
But our restrictions aren’t the same
I’m acting calm about these things
Even though you insulted me
You said you’d rather be with him
What the hell does that make me then?
Is the history of women
To be so unforgiving when
They're committing the bigger sin
Yet still get sympathy from men?
Well maybe not the history
But this describes us to a T
You say that you really love me
But I just wish that you could see
I make sacrifices for you
Yet you seem to think all I do
Is inconvenience you somehow
How am I supposed to feel now?
I swear I do the best I can
And I need you to understand
We all have faults, obviously
That doesn’t mean our love can’t be
The drama came up recently
It doesn’t happen usually
Most of the time, we are care-free
We make each other so happy
Now there’s just one thing left to do
What goes for me must go for you
If you really care about me
Treat me the way you’d want to be
Would you approve if you were me?
You know what the answer should be
But you just take the easy route
And you decide to bail out
You got what you wanted from it
But my feelings amount to shit
When you needed me there for you
I constantly tried to pull through
You can’t return that favor, though
The times you could were all a show
A means for your own benefit
But now that you’re happy, that’s it
You have no common decency
Saying life's better without me
I guess you can’t have compassion
Unless there’s still some attraction
Just cut off any love you had
By drawing back your open hand
Since you’re doing so well with him
Don’t bother helping this old friend.
FIRST
I love you so much
I’ll love you always
I love you more than anything
I believed it, too
Damn it, I loved you
Why did you have to lie to me?
I waited so long
I waited, alone
I waited for somebody great
I was selective
Or just couldn’t give
Because I was someone to hate
Girls don’t like me
If they do
They will change their minds
I need to be
All alone
That would be just fine
Then I met you
Fell in love
I was so surprised
Never thought you’d
Go away
Now my heart just dies
I miss you so much
I miss you so bad
I’m reminded by everything
I want to go back
Before I met you
But I still have the memories
I used to be kind
I used to be fine
I used to be so comfortable
No one on my mind
With lots of free time
To spend alone, without some girl
No one liked me
If so, few
But I didn’t care
More time to be
Real insane
With no one to scare
Then I met you
Fell in love
Never thought I would
It was so new
Yet so right
So extremely good
I want to be me
I want to be free
To act the way I did before
I want back my sweet
Creativity
But when I get it, I’ll want more
Although if and when
Love happens again
It will probably turn out bad
I’ll think of you more
Too hard to ignore
And end up making myself sad
I’m so lonely
And confused
I’ll just watch TV
I actually
Want someone
But no one wants me
Can’t forget you
It’s so tough
To face such a change
I know that you
Made it so
I won’t be the same
IF I WERE YOU
“My girlfriend and I
Broke up today,” you say.
How can I
Sympathize
With what you say?
Listen to what I’ve been through
And consider this
I’ve never even had a girl I could kiss
You had a girl who liked you, and you’re popular too
People know who you are, and they’re friendly to you
I only have one real friend, most don’t know who I am
And it seems like girls ignore whatever I do
And if I were you, well, I wouldn’t complain
But being where I am now drives me insane
And you don’t know what it’s really like to go through this kind of pain
And if I were you, well, I wouldn’t complain
It feels so strange
When things change
Anticipate
Something great
Familiar things
Altering
Past memories
Confusing
The other side
Realized
The life you had
Just as bad
Wish I could be
The old me
Now that I've seen
Not so green
“I feel so alone
No girl to call
On the phone,” you cry.
I reply
With a harsh tone
If you knew
What it felt like to
Be dumped again
You’d be glad you’ve never had a girlfriend
I am more lonely than you, ‘cause I had someone who
I loved so much, until they found somebody new
You have a friend that is true, while all I have are users
Who just hang around when there’s nothing to do
And if I were you, well, I wouldn’t complain
But being where I am now drives me insane
And you don’t know what it’s really like to go through this kind of pain
And if I were you, well, I wouldn’t complain
But I was once you, and yet I still complained
And being where you are now drove me insane
And now I have seen what it's really like, to go through both kinds of pain
And if you were me, well, you would still complain
I WANT YOU TO LOVE ME TOO
Thinking of you all the time
You’re constantly on my mind
I want to be thought of too
I want to be thought of too
When I dream, I see your face
Nobody could take your place
I want to be there for you
Be the only one for you
It keeps me up at night
Wondering when I might
See the beautiful sight
By which, of course, I mean you
I’m anticipating
When the next time will be
But most importantly
I want you to love me too
Late at night, I always walk
Just back and forth, on your block
I’m so lonely without you
I hope that you’re lonely too
And sometimes, when you’re asleep
Through your window, I will peep
I want you to stalk me too
I want you to stalk me too
One year ago, today
I saw you and said “hey”
You didn’t turn away
You actually said “hey” too
That’s still the only word
From you, I’ve ever heard
But from that day forward
My life’s revolved around you
Do you remember that day?
And do you feel the same way?
I want you to love me too
I want you to love me too
A second word is way past due
But I’m afraid to talk to you
You probably don’t have a clue
About who I am, or as to
How much pain I’ve been going through
I want to be remembered too
I want to be remembered too
I want to be remembered too
NOTHING FOR YOU
You're walking down the street, sores all over your feet
Mouth getting really dry, as fast cars pass you by
You do not have a car, so you walk very far
Hundred degrees outside, and you don't have a ride
You finally arrive at your house
When you get inside you see a mouse
But that's not all, you also see rats
And at least a couple hundred gnats
No nice big house for you, no fancy car for you
No fucking ride for you, not one damned thing for you
You see these other jerks, with all their smart ass smirks
They have everything, too, but there's nothing for you
A nice big house for them, a fancy car for them
They have a swell life, too, but there's nothing for you
You're much nicer than them, a lot smarter than them
More pain that you've been through, but still, nothing for you
They cannot comprehend, how much you need a friend
But nobody is there, and no one seems to care
Inside, you're such a mess, and you are so depressed
You want to use a knife, to end your stupid life
You are fed up and really stressed out
So you gotta yell and scream and shout
But nobody is there to hear you
What the hell are you supposed to do?
Nobody's there for you, nobody cares for you
There's nothing you can do, not one damned thing for you
You see these other jerks, with all their smart ass smirks
They have everything, too, but there's nothing for you
There's people there for them, and people care for them
They have a swell life, too, but there's nothing for you
You're much nicer than them, a lot smarter than them
More pain that you've been through, but still, nothing for you
YOU AREN'T THERE FOR ME
You aren't there for me
You said you would be
As long as we were still friends
I thought I'd stop by
See you and say "hi"
But found it's come to an end
Was personal gain
Going through your brain
The only times that you were?
You say you still care
But you just aren't there
Now that we're not together
You used to be there for me
When I was in pain
When I felt insane
That's how I want it to be
But you don't help now
When I'm feeling down
I didn't forget
About our friendship
And I never thought you would
I know you are kind
But when will you find
You don't act like a friend should
I needed much more
And noticed before
Your emotional absence
I tried to be there
But you didn't care
I wish that you made more sense
You're no longer there for me
When I am in pain
When I feel insane
This is not how it should be
Ignoring me when
You call me your friend