POEMS AND LYRICS:
Creativity, Fate, I Can't Sleep, Mentally Ill Girl, Pens
(BY THAD)
CREATIVITY
I feel like I’m losing my mind
How did I get so far behind?
I concentrate too much on friends
And other empty distractions
I need to be alone again
An outcast without any friends
If that’s what it will take for me
To regain creativity
Creativity
That is what I need
Why couldn’t I see?
I’m not being me
Now that I’ve seen the other side
How can I just go back and hide
The only way to get on track
Is to give up human contact
Although I think I am happy
With people who care about me
Being around them actually
Hinders my creativity
Creativity
That is what I need
If I am happy
I will not succeed
FATE
I’m afraid of pain and can’t slice through my vein, no
Can’t end life with a knife
That deep slice won’t feel nice
I’m not strong, it’s all wrong
I hear it takes too long
Scared to pull the trigger, though a gun is quicker
Can’t do it, I blew it
I couldn’t go through it
I knew it
Can’t decide my fate and hurting is my hate
Or maybe I should wait, but grief is life’s main trait
I CAN'T SLEEP
I can't sleep
I think about too many things
I can't sleep
What happened to all my art?
Would it help me get my start?
Hundreds of hours I spent
No idea where it went
And now that I think of it
There's just so much missing shit
Will I ever find this stuff?
I'm not looking hard enough
Why am I alive right now?
Is life so great anyhow?
No it's not, but if I die
Would it make anyone cry?
Girls will just treat me like slime
So why do I waste my time?
I go through a lot of pain
When I have nothing to gain
I can't sleep
I get depressed by many things
I can't sleep
I just want to go to bed
Without this crap in my head
I lay down and close my eyes
More thoughts come to my surprise
If I read, I'll just think more
All these things I can't ignore
And what about when I wake?
What difference does time make?
I'll always be sad unless
I'm able to find success
But what if I never do?
That will keep me awake too
I'm always misunderstood
Sometimes I think that it's good
Less expectations for me
Now look at the time, it's 3
I can't sleep
I worry about many things
I can't sleep
I just worry more and more
Soon enough, it turns to 4
Now I'm getting stomach pain
This is driving me insane
Perhaps getting exercise
Will help me to close my eyes
You know what I realize?
It's already almost 5
My sleep pattern's so screwed up
Maybe I just need a cup
Of that liquid knock out stuff
Would that really be enough?
It is getting light outside
There's something I haven't tried
I should walk around the town
After that, then I'll lie down
I can't sleep
So I am walking down the street
I can't sleep
I walk up and I walk down
I even walk all around
When I get back from my walk
It is well past 8 o'clock
But this form of exercise
Makes me feel more energized
I am just not feeling right
So I'll try again tonight
I can't sleep
I can't sleep
MENTALLY ILL GIRL
The crazy look that’s in your eye, there’s such beauty when you cry
I am attracted to the fact that you’re sick, and I like your mental illness
And now you know that I am just as messed up as you
I can relate to the hard times you’ve been through
You lose control, but that’s cool, cause I do too
I think it’s great, all the weird stuff that you do
I’ll just keep on loving you
I’m really happy that you’re mine, cause I respect you for your odd mind
Although I don’t agree with suicide, I know it hurts so much inside
In your depression, you took 60 pills, goodbye!
Here I always loved you so, how you could you want to go
Once again, I’m alone
How could you have been so sad, I gave you all the love I had
And yet you still committed suicide, I wanted to help, and I tried
To make you feel right, so that you wouldn’t die
You were not sane, I liked that about you
Unhappiness, that feeling’s not exactly new
All of the pain, do you really think it’s through
I just keep hurting more for you
PENS
Oh, the ink dried up again
While I was using my pen
Well, hey, I almost forgot
That I have a whole damn lot
I don't need to scream and shout
Every time the ink runs out
Cause I always keep 'em near
And I've got another here
I use up my pens real fast
So, I fear that they won't last
I have much more than twenty
But, for me, that's not plenty
I need to buy more today
I do not know what to say
Maybe I am too obsessed
But I think pens are the best
Pens, oh yeah, pens, hell yeah
Pens are great, pens, but wait
There's more, you see, can't ignore the
Pencils, can I? Pencils can die!
The pen rules, fuck pencils
Pens, oh yeah, pens, hell yeah
I need pens when I go far
So I put them in my car
How many pens can there be?
More than I'm able to see
I don't need to break a law
I just need to write and draw
Won't waste my time with women
I love my pen collection
Don't need to have any fun
Don't need to love anyone
Don't need any worthless friends
I just need to have my pens
Pens are always at the top
And I'll never ever stop
Even though I am not sad
I wonder if I am glad
I like pens, I have pens
Love them too, but do you?
And no, you don't, and so, you won't
Gain my friendship, you can eat shit!
Pens are great, you I hate
I like pens, I have pens
Please don't worry about me
I am perfectly happy
Though I'm just a lonely fool
I still know that my pens rule
I'm well off, I'm pretty sure
But can I be happier?
I don't really like to hide
But I'm scared to go outside
I am shy, too damn shy
Can't say hi, don't know why
But hey, I'll go, and say hello
Oh well, I tried, fuck the outside!
Back inside, I'll reside
I am shy, too damn shy
I just wasted most my day
It's so much better my way
I love my pens like I should
Pens are so extremely good
Pens, oh yeah, pens, hell yeah
Pens are great, pens, but wait
There's more, you see, can't ignore the
Pencils, can I? Pencils can die!
The pen rules, fuck pencils
Pens, oh yeah, pens, hell yeah