Today

Author:Kerry
Disclaimer: Not mine, don't sue.

Rating: PG

Category: Michael?s POV

Feedback: Yeah! I would love it! Please don't flame though, I'm fragile.

Comment: Okay, due to some requests, this is a sequel to my fic entitled ?Its Going To Be??. It will run along the same lines as the first. Its recommended to read the first, otherwise you will probably be hopelessly lost.

Today is going to be the day I do it?.something I have been waiting to do for what seemed to be forever. It was going to be something I never thought that I would do, yet had better?.before I lose her because I was too late.

I woke up absolutely determined. I was going to open my heart to her.

I get out of bed and stumble to the mirror. Mornings have never been the best time for me, but then DAYS have never been the best time for me either. Leering at my reflection, I run my hands through my hair, causing the already disarrayed spikes to be even more chaotic. Posing manfully, I look sure, I look confident, I look?.is that a zit?

Shoving my face so close to the mirror that I almost squash my nose, I look at the mountain and groan.

Today is going to be the day?

Strolling in the main entrance of school, I ignore the surprised looks on Max and Isabel?s faces as they rush past me to their first class. What? Was it so hard for them to imagine me at school this early?

I stop short in my tracks and frown. What was my first class? Had it really been that long, that I had actually forgotten?? Think, Guerin, think!! Think, think, think?history! History?and Maria. This is definitely my lucky day.

At my class, I slide into my seat and turn breathlessly to the door. Maria was a little late and class had already?.oh, there she was. I watched as she blew a lock of her hair out of her face and walked to her desk, resolutely ignoring the glares of the teacher. I smile at the picture she presented, a blond pixie that could slip under any man?s skin. She glanced at me once before turning back to the front of the class, leaving me glazing at her.

I rest my chin on my hand and watched as she whipped her head around so fast, I am surprised she didn?t strain any muscles. She was clearly startled at the sight of my teeth so I dropped the smile and watched the teacher, feeling self conscious.

Wasn?t I supposed to smile?

Today was going to be the day?.

Morning classes have passed and already I am starting to have some doubts. How can I tell her how I feel? Maybe she won?t believe me?..Maybe she doesn?t feel the same way! Maybe I?m starting to hyperventilate?..Deep breaths, Michael, get a grip!!!

Deep down, I knew she did. But it was like there was a demon on my shoulder, whispering in my ear why would anyone want to love me?..I am a nobody.

Depressed and with audible breathing still continuing at a steady pace, I sit alone under a tree, with no one but my lunch as company.

Today was going to be?.

I sit in my next class, doubts growing stronger, more powerful with every moment. Fear is getting to me, making me weaker. I can?t let that happen!

An unmistakable energy enters the room and I turn to meet her eyes. She was wearing different clothes from this morning, but she still looked beautiful to me?.stop it! Weak, remember? You are strong, you are powerful, you are drooling?..agghh!!

She smiled at me, brightly, happily. So what do I do? It was the only power I possessed, and I had to use it: I scowl at her, and watch as the smile faded away to be replaced by a frown.

Today?.

School finally ends and suddenly I am cast out into the dazzling sunshine, free for another day. Walking away, I couldn?t help but watch as Maria marched over to the Jetta and throw her books in with enough force that I instinctively knew she wanted the empty space to have been my head.

I stop in front of the car as she got in, and we stare at each other through the wind shield.

And as easily as snapping my fingers, I turn and I walk away, tamping down the internal protest. I had to be strong, after all. I wouldn?t, couldn?t be weakened.

Maybe tomorrow will be the day?.

I get to my lonely apartment and throw my things down, flopping on the couch and stare at the wall.

There is only one thought in my head: I am an idiot.

On that cheerful thought, I drift off to sleep. After all, I had nothing better to do?.

My head titled at an awkward angle, I awake from a doze to pitch darkness and a realisation.

What did I think I was doing? Love didn?t weaken me?it made me stronger. Maria made me stronger.

And I just tried to ruin it!

I had to go to her. Now.

I make the trip in record time and, easing the window open, I fervently hope I hadn?t made too much of a royal mess of things.

Moving silently across the room, I stand and watch her sleeping, so peacefully that I didn?t want to disturb her.

Carefully, I lay next to her on the bed, and gently gather her into my arms.

There may be hell to pay tomorrow, but at least I can enjoy now.

?I?m sorry,? I whisper, knowing she probably couldn?t hear me. It felt better to say it, in any case.

I close my eyes and think no more, blissfully peaceful.

Hell never came?.I awoke to Maria smiling gently at me and another realisation.

I am incredibly lucky to have her?and?.

Today is going to be the day.

The End