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Values Reflection
MY VALUES
Values. What are values? A human must have its own values. For me, I have my own values, because of my values; I can be quite stubborn sometimes. I have always looked upon myself, always update and reflect the things I have done. There were happy and sad memories, there were regrets and cherish moments. I come from an average earning family, and only male among my siblings, so at young I think a lotˇKwhy so many things I cannot do, when I grew up now, then I realized. My parents respect and gave trust in me and gave me freedom. I am not afraid to boost that I am a very filial son. I respect my parents very well, and have built good bonds with them. Example, every Sunday I will go out with my family for a meal or shopping, during nighttime, sometimes, we go for a supper. When I come home late from school, I will call home to ask if my mum or sisters,if they are hungry. All this examples built bonds within the family. For me, I think interaction with family is very important, can discuss everyoneˇ¦s problem in the family is very important.
MY RELIGIOUS
I am a Buddhist; I respect Buddha as a teacher but not a god. There are many people mistaken Buddha as a god. I respect him as a teacher and follow his teachings. I pray to him when I feel I did something wrong or sad and need a listening ear, I tell him my problems, but do not hope that he would help me. I just want him to enlighten me, and let me know what did I done wrong. When I am free, I do read books about Buddha and his teachings. I don/t believe there is any god in this world, how this world appear to me is still a mystery to me. If you ask me who is the god? I will tell you, it is my parents. Because they are the ones who brought me to this world, they created me. I respect other religious and hate those religious that don/t respect and insult others religious.
MY VIEW OF LIFE
It is when i was 17, start thinking about what is life? To me life is a period of time living in a place, and the place is call earth. Every living things have a life, that includes human, animals and plants. Each kind of living things have its own life span, Where human beings can consider having the highest life span. A person can live up to 70 years old, which is also 25550 days, also 613200 hours. Life can consider long or short, that is a matter of how you make use of it. Some people spend half of his life times, and still dun understand about himself and don't know what kind of life he want. Human changes as times goes by, each second the clock move indicate that a second ago was a history. It takes time to understand about yourself, Because there are many things that you haven discover about yourself, as times goes by, you will learn more and understand actually what you really want in life. Every seconds every moment is a treasure time.
Not all people know what is call self thinking, self thinking is a way to study about yourself, to update and indicate to yourself, what have you done for the past 1,5 or 10 years? You will learn as you think. Never live behind the memories, because it is just a past, the world clock will not turn back for you, what past is past, you will never get back to the original you. The best way is live for the future, but not the past. Memories is for refreshing and thinking, not for you to live with it. Live for the future means do the things that you have already plan ahead of you, work hard and get it done, you will be rewarded. There are many things we have to do in life, we must live for our own, but not live for others. Because our life is control by ourselves.
Life is a game, and you are the controller of your game, if make 1 mistake in the game and it will be game over. Sometimes I think life is just like acting. You play this role that you are living when u come to this world, you are given a name, a character when you are born. As for the scripts, you write your own, these scripts is a very long one, which will describe your life, long one means the script that you are acting until you die. In this role that you are playing, there are surely some sad, bad, happy, moody, sjb, gao siao moments, if don/t have all this, the role will be lousy and no meaning in life, you can/t just smile the whole of your life, it will be damn boring. Some sad moments will make a person learn, to realize the mistakes that have done. You got to remember the camera on you is keeping rolling, there is never an NG for your life, there is never a second retake or chance. As for me, I am still writing my own script in life, I plan things 5 years ahead of me, that means I write my script 5 year per interval, I believe a person with a strong will, a hard work, and a bit of luck he or she will succeed in life. A person that is easily influence by others is always a follower, normally follower die first, haha. cos they are ben dan. A person that cannot make decision will have difficulties in life, because in life, everything need judgment.
MY INTEREST
I like history, because it brings memories. No matter happy or sad memories, history makes people learnt, and realized the mistakes that they had created. I like to read books about World War 2 and history of Singapore and Thailand. Especially Thailand, I read about the history of the people, the royal family, how the Thai protect themselves from invasion. I donˇ¦t know why, I particular like Thailand this country very much, one of my dreams is to be a monk in Thailand for a short period of time. My politics idol is none other than our first prime minister in Singapore, SIR Mr. Lee Kuan Yew. He won my admiration of him, he is the only people that have been fighting and worry for Singapore in his politics life. He is one of the main characters in Singapore history. I like to read about his life story.
AS A SON OF ANOTHER MAN
As a son of the Yeoˇ¦s family, I am only a boy. My responsible is to work hard in society next time, protect and take care my family. I have a happy family. My father is a taxi driver, he is nice guy which take care of his family well, although he is not rich, he will make sure everyone in the house eat well, he doesn't/t spend much $$ on himself, but to his family, he spend on us. My mum is a good mother, she can tahan work very much for long hours, recently no work liao, the only bad point of her is like to gamble very much. Sometimes as the eldest in the family and only son in the siblings of 3, i feel very stressful.....everything sure need me....so i prepare to get some stressful moments .....
AS A FRIEND OF OTHERS
As a friend of others, I am a loyal friend. I dare to say I never betray my friends. I will help my friends in order that I can. I keep secrets. I am very happy with my relationships with friends. I have all soft of friends, Chinese, Malays, Indians, Myanmarese , Filipino and Thai. I make friends everywhere; maybe I am well like by everyone, I have a face that represents South East Asia, because I am tanned. I look like Malay, Thai, Myanmarese, even Filipino. I can observe people very well, after be friend with a person for less than a month, I will know all his/her characters. I can say I am quite a dangerous man; I do observe people very well. I like horoscope and astrology; I have started to study more about it, more about myself as a Taurean, and other zodiac signs. In the start, i maybe not very friendly, cause i dunno you well, when you become my friend, i treat you well..
MY UPSET MOMENTS
My first major blow in my life was the death of my grand father when I was primary 4 in 1991, he was a close figure to me, and he took care of me when I am small. I am his most favorite grandson. He always brings me around to basketball courts watch people playing balls. When he was not around, I felt something lose. The joy and happiness I has shared with him is gone, those days are only memories.
My second upset moment happened 12 years later after 1991, the break up with my first gf, this relationship lasted for 9 mths (281 days), we were very close during this 9 mths, but it ended on 8 oct 2003.....somehow in just 1 months time, happen alot of things which i cannot accept, i found out alot of things that i should not have know, but i knew........i was very sad, make myself like a fool infront of many people...cry my nights to sleep....i did not eat and sleep well, this is the power of love......people say first love very hard to forget one, till now, the scar is still there.....it was 2003 liao, 9 mths of happiness and sweet memories, 3 months of sadness and loneliness which occupy my 2003...
MY SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE
When I am in secondary schools, I found true friendships; I have a bunch of about 20 good friends that played soccer with me since secondary school days. The joy and laughter we had after lesson each day in the soccer field was unforgettable. Till now we still play soccer together every Saturdays at a basketball court in Tampines. Those friends are the ones whom grow up with me. Those innocent and boyish look when secondary 1 we started our first day in secondary school, till secondary 5, the graduation day. Our looks have changed into young mature adults. Once my most respected teacher, Mr. Ong told us, we have to be careful in our life next time, only 2 things in this world can make a man collapse and very hard to get up again. They are woman and money, I know what he means, woman means we have to be faithful to our wife next time, never play around behind your wife. For money, money is a vital element in this world, if never takes care of it properly, money can break friendship, family and many things and they can even make a man become mad. Money also shows greed.
After my secondary days, I work in airport to clean interior parts of airplanes for 6 months. This was the first job I have done so long. At there I learnt a lot human relationship, what is good and bad in life shows upon the people in there. I am a well liked and respect by people in there, especially those Malays aunties, they are like motherly figure to me, they took care of me. I miss them very much; I still keep contact with some of them, often go out organize BBQ with them. They teaches me a lot, I respect them.
MY POLY LIFE
Then it comes to my poly life, I have found two best friends in this 3 years. They are thura maung and William soh. We three are very close to each other; we share problems, our own personal problems. We help each other in chasing girls, those memories are also unforgettable and funny, and although did not chase the girl we want. After rejection by the girl I like, I began to know more about what is love and myself. I learnt from experience. I also tell myself I will not anyhow go and like any girl. Till now, I am still a single and never have a girl friend before. I always tell myself, I want my first girl friend to be my future wife; u guys must be laughing at me now, haha! Is true lah, cos see my friends everytimes break, haizz very sian 1. I don/t mind my future partner is a virgin or not, as long as she is true to me. I like honest and faithful ppl, hate ppl who flirt and fling around. Somehow give u a feeling that is buay zai ( hokkien ) means not steady.
23-09-2002
MY BOND MY CAREER
Lastly, talk about the bond I had with RSAF. I had wanted to be a soldier when I was young. It was a childhood dream to me. I always like to watch national day parade when young, the parade commander carries the sword saluting to the president .Why I wanted to sign on? Firstly, I wanted to continue study, because I know my family cannot afford to let me study in poly, secondly, it was my ambition. Thirdly, I wanted to put what I have learnt in poly into my future. I got my first military award, the best trainee on June 2000 vacation training. I am very happy. During the trainings, I learnt a lot from those sergeant and officers, learnt how is call leadership and endurance. I am looking forward to my military life after my poly.
After signed on, financial to me, I am o.k. I have enough money to spend and keep. I am very pressure about studies and physically. I have to pass every of my subjects in poly and pass my fitness test in order not to be chop off by RSAF. I found I have become lazy in poly, my result is not very good, is not my best performance, my average is just a B grade. I have lost the fighting spirit in studying that I had in secondary school, which I done quite well in my N and O level. For now, i finished my BMT in 40sar, finished my course in Air Force School, now currently as a DCC in F16.... i have many years to go, hope got chance go for oversea detachments...and this 10 years be a smooth and happy working enviroment (less stress, work happy, play soccer)...i will work hard with my hands not my mouth....actions speak louder than words..
MY FUTURE
Now a new year to go, 2004......a new start for me......another new chapter is coming up this cm story....i can say i am still very lost right now.....i am not 100 percent recover from my second upset moment......i am still trying to find back myself......is not that i want people to pity me or what, is really the real thing happen on me, not you all......i am the actor of this story, i need times to recover....thanks for all those friends who had comfort me....because this actor in this story, put too much love in it liao......my future lays on my both hands.....i will and must work hard in my career.....if not people will look down on me....no love never mind....no career no money to eat to spend to look after my family.....Just hope can find someone i love and someone who love me in 2004, 3 to 4 years down the road, get marry , start a family, buy a car, have a house..........all i want is a simple family and simple life....then see saturday or sunday heng or not tio some 4D.....then got extra batt for my family.....Wish me good luck ba!!!!
hope to meet cai shen ye, yue lao, only you two can give me advice...
For what I had wrote, I think I know about myself.
By Yeo Chuan Ming aka MuYi aka Thai boy
23-9-2001 first edit
07-1-2004 second edit
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