| the first glimpse of a true reflection now it's time to tell the truth about everything i am, everything i'm not, and all the shit in between. first of all i'm a masochist. see, that's my main objective, to fell sorry for myself or gather pity from an audience. if you'd listen to my songs you'd see they've always been about me, what i need and what i want. each song is filled with the selfish droning melodies. yeah, i do this to myself. i overfill my schedule. there just isn't enough time within these 24 hours. i don't get enough sleep, my skin is losing color, my hair is falling out, i could go on for hours. now lets move on to my next fault. did i mention that i'm a lier? i exaggerate my pain just for the attention of others. i try to perfect my sad sadness. sometimes it gets to the point of vanity. sometimes i practive my destress calls while looking in the mirror. yeah, i do this to myself.i overwork my body. i drink when i'm alone cos there's no one around to stop me. i don't ever eat enough. i think i'm getting sick now. i keep throwing up my lunch. don't worry, it's on purpose. everyone says i should go get help but see i don't want to get locked up or put on pills that fuck my brain. i don't want to go down that road again. so maybe some song writing will help: self therapy titled "self". |
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