Here is the latest convo I've had with Dan,
Just for all you people who are interested in my life. How boring. LOl.
Session Start (Yahoo! - cloned4479: twisted_leonine_cat_guy): Tue Aug 17 00:16:51 2004
twisted_leonine_cat_guy:
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: hey..
cloned4479: hi
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: listen
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: i just wanted to know..
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: if u meant what u said to me on the phone..
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: i need to know
cloned4479: *tear* yes
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: I need to know what its worth..
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: :: looks away lost in thought :: god i'm sick of losing important people, i'm sick of losing important things in my life
cloned4479: i'm sorry dan
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: I just talked to the first girl i'v ever loved with all my heart
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: and when she says she loves me, but doesn't want me to love her and doesn't want me in her life cause things are going good
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: then i dunno wat to do and i feel like There is some thing wrong with me, not the women
cloned4479: danny... there is something wrong with me. i can tell you that much.
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: i love u emily..
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: And that isn't enough so i can't win.. i dunno what to do
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: I'm sick of hearing that its not my fault its their fault, i'm sick of losing the battle because the other person couldn't fight
cloned4479: *cries*
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: Tell me do u love me, yes or no..
cloned4479: ...yes...
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: tell me the honest trueth
cloned4479: YES, but not enough
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: ...
cloned4479: not enough to let this tourture me. i am not ready
cloned4479: but i can tell you one truth
cloned4479: it's lonely without you.
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: Is he better?
cloned4479: no. he's moody and boring.
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: and he wins cause he lives closer...
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: ain't that a bitch
cloned4479: no actually, boy
cloned4479: he doesn't live any closer than you.
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: then why does he win
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: Then why do i get to be hurt...
cloned4479: he doesn't win
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: then why have i lost?
cloned4479: because you were too much for me, i was overwelmed........
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: wat do u mean to much?
cloned4479: i have never had a decent boyfriend in my life. never.
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: so to keep u i have to treat u like shit?
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: I can't win!
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: I swear..!
cloned4479: no that's not what i meant
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: well then why can't u just except that i'm in love with u
cloned4479: okay
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: that..
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: That ur the closest thing in this world thats perfect
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: that I know u want me, u want a hopeless romantic that treats u like solid gold
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: so tell me what standing in our way of being happy
cloned4479: fear, miles....
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: not me i will make it seem like perfect if i only get a chance
cloned4479: ...danny...
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: i never get the chance
cloned4479: i want to give you a chance
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: then do it
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: If YOU want to u are the one that gets to make the choice
cloned4479: okay... but... promise me something?
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: wat..
cloned4479: no sex.
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: i understand babe
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: i just wanna know what ur afraid of from me..
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: Thats all
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: hurray back.. I need to go.. so hurray up
*** Auto-response sent to twisted_leonine_cat_guy: brb
cloned4479: okay
cloned4479: i am afraid of going crazy!
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: if u'd ever give me the chance u'd know there is nothing to fear and nothing to worrie about, u'd see what kinda man i am and see that i'm the right kind, that i'll make u feel calm and every thing
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: I promise that i'd never hurt u and i'f make u feel like queen of the world..
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: I love u and i need to go to bed..
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: Night...
cloned4479: goodnight dan
cloned4479: ...i love you too
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: :: holds her close ::
cloned4479: *leans on him and holds back tears*
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: Remember that when u throw ur self into some thing, u can be sure that if its with me u'll feel loved and warm and u'll wanna be intamait.. once u realize I'm loyal and my love for u and respect will never fade...
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: k hunny?
cloned4479: alright sweetheart
twisted_leonine_cat_guy: sweet dreams
cloned4479: you also
*** "twisted_leonine_cat_guy" signed off at Tue Aug 17 00:45:48 2004.
Session Close (twisted_leonine_cat_guy): Tue Aug 17 00:49:12 2004
So what do you think? I want to get back with him, obviously, but I don't want to have sex or any form of that, sorry dude! But he makes me feel really... special... so... I don't know! HELP MEEEEEEEEEEE!
~Emily