| The Start Of My Poly Life |
| I finally decided on my path of life on the day when we all had to hand in our enrolment form. During March, i actually applired for Law & Management as my 1st choice. HOwever i went on for the Direct Admission for ECH in NP. I wasn't sure i would pass the test but to my surprise, i did. At first, i was really indecisive about my final choice. Studying Law has always been upmost dream. Yet when i'm able to realise my dream, i faltered. Don't ask me why? Maybe I Have changed alot? At last, i decided to study ECH because i'm very interested in the psychology and the course seemed fun. I told myself that if i don't like this course in the years to come or i can't be good at it...i can always study psychology and be a psychologist or study law also after a few years. Yian Pin, my good friend also took this course. She was disappointed to find our course had so few guys. For me, it doesn't make any difference. We went for the orientation and found out that we were in different classes. *Sigh* Anyway we had to sit according to our classes during the orientation. While waiting for the lecture to start, i chatted with 3 girls in my row - Beuliah, Fiona and Sarah. However we didn't really chat much since we didn't know each other well and i could sense that they didn't know what to talk about also. On the first day of school, I really didn't know what to expect. Luckily earlier on, Sarah asked me to meet her at the bus stop so i wasn't so much alone. LOL. Well, actually i didn't recall much of my first day. I do know that initally i hung out with Sarah only, had lunch with her together. Then after a few days, Serene somehow joined our group during lunch. When i just met her, she seemed to me like quite serious and quiet. We talked very little the first few times we met. Gradually her church friend, Samantha(Sam) who is also in ECH but another class, also joined us. Sam's class was often with my class for lecture and tutorials, so we saw one another quite often except that we couldn't always have lunch together. Sam and Serene seemed to me to be quite close friends. Hahax. They both have similar interests and love for children. Sam is very outgoing, outspoken, has her sense of humour and she's a good friend when i got to know her better. For our first project - C.S 1.1, Bai He and Saira joined us - Sarah, me and Serene. We had a period to do our project and during this time, we gotten quite good friends. We have had laughters, gossips and fun. The project was to make a skitlike story. So each of us did our part and pitched in. Other than project time, i went shopping with Bai He and Saira once when we were dismissed early. Cause Bai He is working at a shop at Far East so she knew there was a sale there and Saira wanted to buy new clothes. They invited me to go shop along and since it was still early, i went with them. Hahax. It was quite fun. ON the bus, we talked about their holidays after Os, we laughed...and discussed ice creams. LOL. Suddenly we all were craving for ice creams. Well, Saira took a look at the clothes and those Bai He recommended for her. I browsed awhile. After shopping, we really went to buy ice cream. Haha. INitially i could click with them alot, laughing with them and all. Then i also joined Taekwondo as my cca after the CCA fiesta. Yian pin, Mark and Vicky joined also. Hahax. There was this period when i had a boyfriend. Then one day we got another minor project but that break we needed to discuss details. Just nice i was also going out with my bf so i told my frenx about it. They were quite surprised cause i told them before i didn't have any bf. lolx. Anyway i still did discuss the project with them but i left after that. I was actually worried he might mind. >.< Somehow i don't know. It felt to me that after that day, our friendships to me changed alittle. They like not close to me anymore. Its this feeling i had. I don't know. They seemed like talked more to one another than to me. And i somehow kinda like felt lost in that group. I didn't say anything, i became very quiet. I just couldn't make any sense out of it. Bai He kept asking about my bf lolx and tkd. But after awhile, she stopped. I also stopped mentioning about my bf. In fact after a short while, my bf and i were over. so nothing to mention anymore. Bai He, Saira and Sarah all live in the west while Sam, serene and I live in the east. Often we went to Sarah's house to do projects cause her house very near school. Slowly as the time passed, i starting to feel abit more belonged to the group but still i felt left out. I don't know. Its like i don't know how to click with them anymore. And suddenly i realised that i wasn't like the same me when i was in sec sch. Its alot of realization i had. Well towards the end of the semester, our friendships changed again.... |
| To Be continued........ ---------> |