Why I Don't Want To Meet Clay Aiken

    Huh? I don't want to meet Clay Aiken? Actually, I would have loved to have been at the foot of the stage at the Pepsi Center in Denver on 4/13/04 when Clay would come to it's edge up close to his adoring fans - even commandeering a cellphone after playfully scolding the owner for being on it during the show! (Clay even talked on it. It was someone in Kentucky. Somebody got their long distance charges worth!!!!) Sure, I would have loved Clay to have looked into my eyes and see my feeling for him and acept that yes he has boys who adore him too! I would have loved to have given him a rose or a teddy bear and he not feel awkward. And, heck yes, I would have absolutely just loved him to have even kissed me. Not a lip-lock, just a peck on the cheek, the lips or my forehead. I would be straight lying if I said otherwise!

     So what in the world am I doing saying I don't want to meet Clay Aiken? Shock value? No, what I mean is, I do not want to be obsessed in wanting to meet him and become one of the people who would give him a reason to feel apprehensive. Clay knows he is just a person at the end of the day. I want to feel that way about him and not elevate him to this all perfect being like they do in those "teen" mags.

     I Do not want to make a big deal out trying to met Clay, trying to rush him as he is leaving from a show, or when he just ants to do what "normal" people do; hit the music store, the local coffee shop etc. He's just a human being, just a famous one. He has a right to feel like he is not "at the job" once he is done with the show and simply wants to go home, or to get something to eat.

     So what about wishing Clay was my boyfriend? That is my infatuation talking. I'm just a boy in love with Clay. Thats is not really that unusual. That may have very well have been the case in his home town before he even did this "American Idol" thing. Maybe he knew...Maybe not. Like I said, it's just my infatuation, all the same as it is when a guy wishes he could be Angelina Jolie's or Britney Spears' boyfriend. This ain't gonna happen but as Clay himself said: "A guy can dream" and so here I go cuz it's all just a good time! It's not like I would meet Clay and go "Will you be my boyfriend?" or "Will you go out with me on a date?" GET REAL!!! I am not stupid! Heck if I was n love with Britney Spears, I'd hardly think I would pull that, although I would'nt feel so awkward in giving her a flower or teddy bear.