I wonder. What is this all for? I mean, you get up, you work, you go home, and you sleep. I once had the notion, that where I walked, I walked alone, and where I fought, I fought alone.
Now i see things differently. It has been said that no man is an island. I used to think that those who said that were fools, and did not know the path of the loner, or at least that's what I thought I was. Pain, agony, the "glorious" battle, can it all be fought alone? When you are against many challengers, can one man fight them all off? No! Destruction longs for victims and it loves to hear fools singing its praises. I no longer sing of its wonders, however, I respect it. Now, I do not care if I am destroyed, no, I do not even care if I die. For I am already dead. I live in the spirit because, my life has been given away. How is it that I live, and breath then, you ask? It is really quite simple. You see, I do not live for the flesh because I have beaten my flesh, fleshly desires to submission. The flesh wants to sleep, when the spirit wants to pray. The flesh is tired and does not want to go on and fight when the spirit wants to go at one more time. The flesh fears because it only sees with eyes of this world, but the spirit sees beyond this world. How foolish is one who only sees today and not the grand scheme of reality! After all, what is this world? You can build tanks, planes, nukes, but it is still meaningless. Soon they will be destroyed by time or your own idiocy. You can work to be the best that there is at your "craft," but foolish creature, one will be better. Ah yes I see it all around me! Those that think they are unique and "different" because they act strange. Stupid Children! Do they not know that there are many that are just like them who try to be "different?" They have all failed! For so long they have tried to be unlike those who are normal in the "game." They don't want to be the usual fighter. Such weak thinking. Do they not see what they have become? They have made their own "cliche" without even knowing it! A "cliche of rebellion" they have created and joined. This "net" is full of them. So what is it all for? You can try to be different, but you know you will only end up falling into one of the categories. Finally, a revelation has come to my mind and has cuased me to no longer try to be different. I was once a follower of the fools. "The world is a fool," I would say, but little did I know, that yes, I to, was a part of this world and that I was also a fool. No longer. Yes that's right, no longer will I waste my time trying to be different. No longer will I fight alone, but in a pack. Where I walk, I walk with many. Where I fight, I fight with many. See, the answer to this problem is to not try to be different in how you think and live, but to just live and be at peace. When you just live , you finally awaken your true potential because the owner of your life can now lead you. Now, your time and power is not wasted trying to go against what is good and the norm. When I finally stopped fighting, that is when I won and found my revelation! I am made new again with a second wind. Now with new found energy, I can re-enter the battle with a greater cause in mind! If this world is like a piece of paper, then I will be the pen that marks it so severe, that it will leave a scar that can not be taken away! I will be a victorious Proeliator! I will be the Narcissus that I know I can be, without the flower. I am constantly in deep traumerei. My mind never stops thinking and nor will it ever. My only fear, is that I might one day stop thinking, and succumb to a world that so longs for me to be brought into its chaos. Rest assured, I will not let that happen! My name is Samuel, and this is my mind you are reading. A mind that is no longer in turmoil, but is now a Malaguena of happiness. Mind and body, have now been beaten under the spirit and the spirit follows the "one and the "one" gives it peace. This is the world that I choose to be a part of, yet i will not be a part of the fool's who share it with me. Their thinking is dead now, in my mind. In my journey in life, by being at peace with myself, I can finally achieve that uniqueness that everyone so longs to have. Go ahead, destroy my fleet, I will replace it. Break my command, I will rebuild it stronger! Destroy my workers, those that I hold dear and watch how I bring them back mightier! Yes, glory will come to this battle to live unique, and it will come to me in the battlefield. And when it does, I will direct it to the one who deserves the glory. Without him, without the "one," without God, you will be lost in your thinking and war. The answers will always allude you without him. This is Samuel, not in the flesh, but in the spirit. And his spirit, will glorify his owner, who is not Samuel, but God...................... |
