| Part 12 (robyn) I went on tour with Bryan and the others, I got on really well with all of them, but couldn't help but feel that they saw me as a replacement for Ally, but I knew that Bryan didn't thnk that. Anyway, most nights Bryan would come in to say goodnight to Dylan and Jess, but one night I must've fallen asleep before he came in, because last thing I remembered I was reading my book, next thing I was on the bed, Bryan standing beside me, and Jess screaming. We ran in and soon she was sleeping again, but only after Bryan had agreed to stay in the room, somehow we agreed to stay in the same bed, him on his side, me on my side. I was half asleep through the whole conversation. I woke up through the night, to find arms wrapped around me, Bryans'. Normally I would've removed them, but it felt, I don't know, right. I know all I can ever be is a childminder to him, he's still hung up on his dead wife, well, maybe one day. I must have fallen asleep again because when I woke up in the morning Bryan was gone, back to his own room I assume. I saw him the next day at breakfast and it was as if he couldn't look at me. What did I do wrong? It was him who hugged me, maybe I should've stopped him, maybe he didn't realise I had noticed. "Hey." I said, as I sat down beside him at the table. "What's wrong?" "Oh, nothing." He sighed, "where are the kids?" "Over with Shane." He looked behind him, "he's good with them." "Yeah.better than me." He laughed a little, a fake laugh. "What's brought all this on?" I asked, it seemed as if he had lost confidence where the kids were involved. "Just last night, I never realised Jess was so bad, I thought she was getting better. You probably know more about my own kids than me." He sighed again. "That's my job, silly." I laughed. "Do you still see me as just your employer?" He asked, making me wonder where he was heading with this. "Well, ummm, yes and no." He looked puzzled. "Well, I know you are my employer and all that, but at the same time, i'd, well,...." I stumbled on my words, what do I say, 'umm, I really like you, not just as an employer?' "I'd like to think we were friends too." "Yeah, me too." He said, and smiled. I had the feeling he wanted to say more, but, something, I don't know, guilt over his wife stopped him. "Ummm, what's on the schedule today?" I asked him, changing the subject. We both knew something was to remain unsaid. "Umm, interview at 10, then back here for lunch, then a tv thing at 2." "Busy day then." I said, "want me to take the kids out for the day?" "Unless you want to come along?" He asked, "see what goes on and stuff." "You wouldn't mind?" "No, it'll mean I get to see Dyl and Jess more today, so, you're more than welcome if you want." "Is it just you guys, or other people too?" "Ummm, it's a boyband thing. God, I hate that word, so, umm, a1 are going to be there too." "A1? Cool!" I said, a little too excitedly. "Meaning that Ben will be there?" "You like Ben?" He teased. "Well, he's nice." I could tell I was blushing a little. "Well, maybe I'll introduce you guys." He said. "We'll have to leave in an hour or so." "Ok, I'll grab the kids, and get some stuff together for them. I'll meet you downstairs at 9?" "Yeah." He said and nodded. I stood up and went to take the kids from Shane to get them ready, I had to take stuff for them to play with as they got bored easy. An hour later and we met Bryan and the others downstairs. "Oh, are you coming today too, Robyn?" Shane asked. "Ummm yeah. Bryan said I could, is that ok?" "Of course." He said. I noticed Mark and Bryan exchange looks. "Let's go!" Bryan said, and we set off to the studio. 20 minutes later, we all wandered into the studio. Jess and Dyl ran over to the A1 guys as soon as they got in. "Hey trouble." Ben said, picking Jess up. "You're getting big." "I'm 4 now!" She said, happily. "4?!" He laughed. I walked over to take her back. "Who's that?" He asked Jess as I walked over towards them. "Is that Daddy's girlfriend?" "Don't be silly!" Jess laughed as she climbed down, "that's Robyn, she looks after me and Dylan!" "Oh." He said, and smiled. "Hi," I reached them, "I'm Robyn." I introduced myself. "Ben." We shook hands. We stood talking, for a while, I didn't admit that I had a major crush on him, but went into shock when he asked me out for a drink that night. "Ummm, tonight?" I asked, unsure if I could make it because of the kids. "I'll have to see what Bryan is doing first." "Bryan? You two are together then?" He said, disappointment clear. "No, it's just that I'm his childminder, and if he's doing band stuff, then I can't make it tonight." I explained. "Well, if he has band stuff, me, you and Dyl and Jess could go to the movies." "Umm, well...." "Please...." He begged, jokingly. "Ok." Just then we heard crying as Jess tripped over and fell. I ran over, but Bryan was already with her. Ben followed me over. "Bloody hell Robyn, you're supposed to be looking after them!" Bryan yelled. "Sorry." I stuttered, "is she ok?" "I think so. Nothanks to you. You should've been watching her, not chatting up him!" "For christ's sake Bry, it was an accident, you know what kids are like!" I took Jess from him and walked away. "Ben, I'll call you tonight." I said, making sure Bryan heard every word. |