I'm stuck at home for the next few days... Raina just messaged me and
told me that someone is suspected of having SARS and is sitll back at
work... and that person happens to work around Isetan and Scots. Well that
sucks! Coz I work there as well! So guess what? I can't work there anymore!
which means No money! which means broke Nellie! hm... very sad.. coz the
pple that I work with are actually very nice pple... plus i get to see a
cute guy! hahaha... yup yup! will miss him... = p Daddy has forbidden me
from working too... sigh... STUPID SARS!
Nel - 1.25pm
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"UK has turned
their clock one hour ahead coz its summer soon! which means there's only 7
hours of time diff between UK and here! - Good news! I can sleep earlier!"
haha! I'm back again!
did some things to my webpage to make it look nicer - so that it wun look so
dull ya... anyway! I'm still stuck at home! Brother has gone out to school and
I'm rotting in front of the computer... have to admit this is kinda fun! I
just have to type whatever I want and upload it onto the webpage and there it
is! Quite excited bout it though!
ah! another day of
boredom... still quite in a dilemma, don't know if I should go to work
tomorrow.. coz if I don't then if that women turns up on Thursday then won't I
be making a loss? But if I do go to work tomorrow and get SARS and plus that
women doesn't turn up on Thursday, then won't I be making a bigger loss? eh?
ok come to think of it, I shouldn't be going to work then... but then I'd be
jobless! oh right... besides the telemarketing job every Saturday and the
'once a month' job at The Bay - Kitchen and Bar...
I'm never going to
save up enough to buy gifts! ah! money money money... ok I was just talking to
my brother yesterday bout what's worse - having no money to spend or having
money but no life to spend... logically it'll be having no life to spend the
money coz at least when you're alive and healthy you can earn the money.. but
then.. now With all those crap going around... no money no life... sigh...
Am supposed to call
Paul but then, don't really feel like coz I'm quite bored now... but I just
might in a while.. its going to rain soon and I feel like going to sleep.
Lately been having
bad PMS... keep getting pissed at things that I'm not supposed to get angry at
and also keep getting the feeling of insecurity.. they say long-distance
relationships are hard to maintain...Now then i understand what they mean by
hard... You don't get to see the person, you don't get to hug the person, you
don't get to feel that person around you... most of all you don't feel
attached when you actually are. Unfair... and the thing suckiest thing that
you hear from that person is "life is unfair" what the crap man... Now then i
understand what Joyce (Sim) has been going through.. for the past two to three
years... admittedly I do get lots of space but I just need to feel like I
still belong somewhere, not left hanging... ah~~~~~ but its just a passing
phase.. its better without him around... I get to hang out with lots of other
pple, get to look at cute guys... get to do things single gals get to do...
yet am still attached.. so I have the best of both Worlds! Though... hm... I
do find this kind of relationship menaingless... but AH well... can't control
my feelings for him.. heehe... so just stay put and things will be fine! wait
till I get to UNI and meet lots of other guys and dump him! hahaha... neh.. i
wouldn't.. have to stop quarrelling with him.. very waste of phone bill! He's
also under a lot of stress.. damn.. can I be more understanding? eh... but I
think I am.. just need to feel loved... need to feel the emotional security...
Lihling told me that pple in relationships are Blind! I so totally agree.. so
if I know that does that mean I'm not blind? I am being practical... but yet
emotional.. ah! moderation!!! yes yes moderation is the best! I'm quarrelling
with him like old times... the usual hanging up the phone and scolding plus
sarcasm... then finally ending up in tears.. hahaha
gals are crazy... I am crazy...if
only he can stop being such a JERK at times.. if only he can stop complaining
the same stuff OVER and OVER again... if only he can be more APOLOGETIC when
he has to be.. if only he can stop being so DEFENSIVE.. if only he can stop
being so EGO and think that he's right ALL THE TIME! AH! I am feeling so much
better already... think I must show him this website.. Paul! You better be
memorising all these stuff down! Continue being the Mr Nice guy k! hehehe...
=) I am one good gal~~~let nature take its course.. this
has been working well for me for most part of my life... so i hope its going
to work well for the rest of mine!
Hope my friend's bf
will treat her nice nice and stop being such a bloody jerk to her... hope that
she will be happy... hope that I won't ever have to sue that guy.. hope I
don't ever have to punch him... hope I won't ever ever have to 'burn his house
down'...hope she won't be blinded by love.. hope she can be more practical..
hope she knows moderation and don't do things she will regret... wish her
happiness...
AND no... You're not
taking me for granted... =)
Diaries actually
work! I am feeling much much much better now! going to K the VCDS... wahahaha..
pig out!
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Nel - 3.05pm
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