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10/05/03
Took a trip down memory lane
yesterday night.. called up some old friends~
Am glad to say that there's an
improvement in my friendship with this friend of mine~ hm.. at least he's
not that hostile anymore.. ok we only spoke for like 20 seconds coz he was
busy.. and the good thing.. he said 'call me back another day ya?' hm..
improvement?? yes!!!!!! hehehe.. so I am one very happy gal~ =)
oh yeah then I called Xinru.. once
again reailsed that my voice is very easy to recognise?!?! hm.. actually
come to think bout it.. it very natural.. like we can recognise pple's voice
even after a long long time~ which is really quite heart warming~ though
felt a bit guilty.. coz there was once she called me and I actually for one
moment forgot who she was~ *kick myself* yes but the thing is I recognise
the voice.. hehe.. weird huh? I just instantly knew that the person on the
other line is someone very close but I was vexed by the fact that I cun
remember.. hehe.. anyway think we were quite impressive.. spoke for like 276
minutes! (on her phone) thats 4 hours and 36 minutes! geee.. what did we
talk bout??? fucked-up relationships.. nice relationships.. fantasies..
wahaah~ (I'm good at that~) and also... how we're going to go bout hooking
up guys~ potential lawyers and doctors of course~ wahahah~ and I miss
primary school days~ the very innocent times~ small crushes.. her
never-ending scandals.. hehehe.. hm.. yeah~ I miss my primary school days~
but wait.. my primary school is no longer there~ geeee... =( only left with
memories...
anyway its been great talking to you~
considering the fact that you're so reluctant to travel anywhere near town..
(lazy gal~) we'd have to meet up when either of us is willing to travel ALL
the way to meet ~ hehehe.. but we will eh? wahahaah~
ok next .. I have to call up more
friends~ hm... a great way to remain occupied~ yeah~
=)
Love Revolution is like the best show
in the world~~~~~ oh~~~~ *dreamland* been K-ing the show the whole day.. 4
more discs to go~~~ ah~~~ that guy is like soo cute~ can't believe he had
such a dumb role in GTO.. wahahah.. the very perverted police man.. anyone
wanna catch the show?? its on channel 8.. eh.. or U?? ok anyway.. its
showing on TV nowadays.. just gotta catch it~ Am going Jap crazy again~
which is quite a good time since I'd be going there in like a weeks time~~~
yeah! oh and I suddenly have this urge to become a air stewardess~ (must be
coz of the show) wahaah~ coz then I get to travel round the world~ hm..
yeah! maybe huh? I should try and apply for it when I'm done with studies!
=) oh then how sweet? Paul would be air steward.. and me air stewardess!
wahaha.. hm.. oh better~ him pilot.. hm.. wahahah~ ok being a bit crazy
here.. but then like that no chance to meet other cute guys?? wah~~~ I dun
want!!!! hahaha.. oh yeah Ling.. you remember Love Revolution right? if you
become a great doctor and then me an air stewardess then.. wahaah~ it'd be
just like the two gals in the show~ wahahah~ but wait.. she specialize in
heart problems.. hm.. ah well~ doctors! close enough~ hehehe.. oh then
you'll meet this very handsome guy.. at 32???? and then you guys will get
married in Rome~ wahaha.. but I don't want to be that gal in the show~ hm..
let me see.. how come I find the 32 year old woman so much like you? I mean
character wise la.. haha.. strong gal..
ah~ bottom line.. lets make our
own stories gal~ hahaha.. =)
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Enjoyed my dinner today.. Daddy
cooked~ again! oh geee.. I love him cooking! crab rice.. bee hoon.. oh~ he
did mention that if he stayed at home and cooked for me for a month I would
definitely grow very fat~ like I'm not already.. hehe.. anyway.. just sat
down with him.. ate a very quiet dinner while he kept scoping beehoon for
me.. how many more years can I enjoy this peace and quiet with my daddy? how
many years have I lost not sitting with him enjoying dinner? Its very
quiet.. just the two of us.. when I was a kid.. Daddy was just a figure..
someone I just don't see often.. just coz he has to fly around to support
the family.. now its different.. Daddy has become more
than just a figure.. a man I respect.. admire.. want him to walk me down the
red carpet.. hand me over to my future husband.. a very simple wish huh?
Daddy's old now.. it happens.. as you grow older you start to see your
parents age.. and then you realise that.. they'll only be there for you
until a certain time.. and the rest .. you're on your own.. today.. I ate
much slower.. didn't leave the table immediately after I ate.. just sat
there.. spoke a few words.. and enjoyed.. =) he's 78 now.. old enough to be
my grand-dad.. hm.. but I had this very strange thought.. he's my dad!!!
this great man sitting in front of me.. is my dad! he's fat.. and old.. but
pple look up to him.. he's smart.. strong.. very strong mentally.. and he's
my dad! oh geee.. Love him! I know most parents are only in their 50s.. but
they grow old fast... so..
Treasure your parents ok?
hm... tomorrow is mother's day..
feels a bit weird.. I don't miss her.. hm.. strange huh? here I am talking
bout treasuring your parents.. but me? I don't know.. maybe coz she's no
longer a part of my life... yet.. I'll always be a part of her.. I don't
feel sad.. I simply don't feel anything at all.. perhaps thats something to
be sad bout huh? that I actually feel little.. Happy Mother's day anyway...
tomorrow? I'm celebrating mother's day with Daddy!!! =)
I was thinking bout this wonderful
thing known as.. sperm.. and egg.... combination of them both... TADA~~~
baby!!! hoe incredible is that??
was just watching Father of the bride
II.. its hilarious! and I was so touched at the end when those babies were
born.. suddenly.. I want a baby! =)
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Relationships.. well.. its just a
strange thing I suppose.. Love.. is strange.. everything is strange..
nothing lasts forever.. and I've come to realise .. that only family's
love.. would last forever.. and that thing my friends... is one thing to be
happy about!
ok.. how bout friendship? BGR? hm..
nothing lasts forever.. not even the relationships that you try your
almighty best to maintain~ but treasure them while you can huh? thats what I
think at least.. you gotta have faith.. and you gotta have the fate~ if its
yours.. its yours.. if its not.. no matter how hard you try.. it will never
be yours.. just give it a shot anyway! haa.. contradicting huh? no regrets
pple~ no regrets.. I'll live the rest of my life wondering.. if we weren't
so young.. if I had tried harder.. if things were different... would we have
turned out the way we do? would we still be together? like Xinru said.. the
best is always what you can't get.. no wonder they say the person that you'd
eventually marry will never the person you love most.. is it coz its true?
or is it coz you can't get the person you want.. and therefore you think..
that person is the one whom you love the most? I don't want to live my life
in regrets.. yet there's this pinch of.. sadness.. hm.. ah well~ just being
a bit emotional here.. I know.. I want to be happy.. and I am.. =)
Fate...
Faith...
If things are meant to be.. they just
will be~ =)
we'll just have to see how it goes~
=)
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Have a nice day everyone~ =)
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Nel - smiling as usual~
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PS : Friend called.. thank goodness
I'm in a good mood! =)
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"don't be discourage by others when
they feel that you can't do what you want to do.. "
- to myself.. Ling and friends who
are struggling..
lately been thinking bout what I want
to do.. what my future lies in what I want to do.. I've had
encouragements... and of course discouragements.. I'm not even sure if thats
what I want to do.. I wanted to be so many things when I was younger..
model (too fat)
hairstylist (look at my ever messy
hair~)
photographer
doctor (I'm scared of disgusting
stuff)
lawyer
actress, singer (but I have stage
fright~) so on second thoughts.. I'd just love to admire others..
artist (but hell I can't draw for
nuts!)
and newest~ air stewardess
the list could go on and on for
days... (will update when I get the chance to)
then.. I've made up my mind.. I'm
going to go for what I like.. even if it means pple don't believe there's a
future in it.. even if it means I won't be as successful as many would want
me to.. its a goal.. and I'm going for it.. =)
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