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07/05/03

After 5 months of slacking.. I'm once again back on feeding off my dad's finances.. though at one point of time I was quite proud of the fact that I worked... but the truth is.. I slacked.. feeling a bit guilty over that fact now.. but I've not been spending much these days.. have not been asking dad for money.. for quite some time.. and I'm happy to say.. I'm more sensible in purchasing stuff now.. yeah.. at least while I'm typing this I can't seem to recall any junk that I bought...=) Daddy been saying that I've grown.. mentally.. but still a lot more room for improvement.. still.. I'm contented.. he seldom does that.. most of the time I'm a small little gal.. who's extremely gullible..

Today.. I felt this strong emotion towards my Daddy..

I love him..

kept thinking bout that...kept thinking how old he has become.. how his physical strength has weakened over the years... and suddenly, I felt like crying and laughing at the same time..  I didn't know why.. maybe coz in the past I didn't appreciate him as much as I do now... and also coz I realised that the kid that disliked her daddy has become a joke!

  I love you daddy.. =

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ok! been on the comp like the whole day.. (nothing new) and I tried creating a new template for my entries.. and... I DID IT! yes I am so proud of myself! will not be using that just yet coz I'm trying to use up all the space thats left in the other account... ok it looks very simple and stuff.. and I did spend quite sometime to perfect it... =)

once again.. woke up early in the morning to accompany daddy to the dentist.. hm.. didn't go SA in the end coz of some miscommunication.. and my dad dissuaded me from going anywhere coz of SARS.. so Nellie the good gal stayed at home!

Going out later though to return some library books and meet Jan to pass her some information... =)

So bored~ might just go rent some VCDs!

Boring.....

Brother's having his exams now.. GOOD LUCK! =)

I'm a lonely lonely gal.. hehe... Satisfy myself by not doing anything.. freedom!!!! no work.. no money~ realised that only bored pple like me update everyday?? hehe...

ah~.. thats life..

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Nel - being a bore...

wow~ finally managed to get out and walk around alone.. hm.. like that feeling.. was late in meeting Jan coz the taxi driver took me on a ride around the Island.. hm.. ok shall not complain much coz he didn't irritate me... except that I was quite pissed over the fact that I was late.. then I took the escalator to the wrong platform~ silly me.. oh yeah~ finally bought the stuff I wanted to buy... comics.. novels.. satisfy my love fantasy with those novels and comics.. hehe.. walked around Orchard looking for Popular but erm.. found that the Somerset one was closed~ oh and guess who I met?? Joyce with Anqi.. so qiao.. I had a feeling I'd meet her though.. funny huh?

I'm so upset!!!!!

you guys know why??? coz no more strawberry short cake!!! when I finally managed to get down to Taka... they didn't have anymore!!! so I had to content myself with a fruit cake... sigh..

Felt very ok today.. besides the fact that everywhere I go.. everywhere I turn to... I'm walking behind a couple... who's snuggling... kissing.. awwww... miss Paul so much.. also realised that I haven't been out alone for a long time... so today was good.. didn't have to drag my friends around with me.. I could hang out at any shop I wanted to for as long as I wanted... didn't have to walk if I didn't want to.. I could just do anything I felt like doing! =) used to find it very hard to go out alone coz I've been hanging out with Paul for like the past 2 years.. but then I got used to it.. not that I don't miss him.. but I'm back to how it was 2 years ago.. I'd still want to hang out with him when he gets back..

hm.. having mentioned that.. had a big fight with him over this issue.. felt like I was waiting in vain for him to come back.. felt hopeless.. helpless.. insecure.. so I picked up a fight.. wanted to vent my frustrations on him.. my �X��� ... and I seriously felt better after that.. though in the process he ignored me for a while.. (went offline) so I resorted to sending him horrible emails..  scolding him and venting all my anger... its not his fault..  was just being a bitch.. but we both know that we can be jerks and bitches at times.. wahahah~ but at the end of it.. he apologized.. which is really quite touching~ and I was once again calm Nellie.. =)

was just watching The Bachelor (the women tell all) .. yeah Bitch fight~ I like~ really feel quite sorry for Susanne.. she's just very straightforward.. and very '�t�x'.. I like gals who are '�t�x' .. =) and oh my god.. I think Gwen is like sooooo sweet!!!! she's so princess!!! plus she is gorgeous.. very lovable.. I think Aaron must be kicking himself over the fact that he din pick Gwen.. that regret on his face!!! hm.. Helene is ok.. strong woman... not too bad~ why is it that all of them can smile so nicely when they're so obviously embarrassed? good man~ I want perfect teeth too~

bugging Paul to tell me the surprise that he's planning to post to me.. but he said if he told me it won't be a surprise anymore.. but then again.. by telling me bout it.. ain't it a surprise??? still.. if he wanted me to be surprised I can still act surprise when I receive that thing ya? hahaha...

my face is peeling.. damn... itch itch...

was being paranoid on the way home.. tried holding my breath for a while on the bus.. but then I soon ran outta oxygen.. hm.. am happy to be home~

also.. am cutting down on food intake.. after all.. my body system has done its job.. so for now.. I'm back to normal eating habits! oh yeah double happiness~

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