Summary: Aeryn struggles to get back to her normal life on Moya, but will her heart let without Crichton.
Disclaimer: See Part One and Two
Rate: PG
Category: Romance/Drama
Dear Daisy,
Crichton used to record letters to Jack so I thought I'd write my journal entries to you. So we we've been back for 3 solar days, but it seems so much longer. I woke up last night wishing it was a bad dream and that I was in bed with John asleep next to me. I'm still trying to remember all that happen to me out here, but may memories of Earth are more real than those of out here. It kills me to know the life I had on earth and then think of the life I have out here. Everyone here is my friend but I miss you. I miss the people who I think were my parents and my brothers and sisters and I wish they knew how much I love them. I just want to wake up to you on the phone wanting to go to Jake's Caf� or you interrupting John and me. But most of all I want to see your child will it be a boy or girl, will it look like you or DK, and what will you name it. I have to go I'm due back on Command soon.
Always,
Aeryn
She then closed the journal and put her picture of DK, Daisy, Crichton and her in the journal. She remembered when the picture was taken. It was the day Crichton moved in with her, Jack brought the camera and they were all sitting next to each other. Daisy was sitting next to DK who had his arm around her, and she was sitting in between John legs and had his arms around her. Jack had asked them to stand up and they did. John had put his arms around her waist and DK put his arms around Daisy�s waist and Jack had taken the picture. Seeing the picture just made Aeryn feel worse about being here then before. She had put her knees up to her chest and didn't want to think about Moya, Earth, Daisy or her old job on earth for a while. Zhaan who had noticed Aeryn's strange behavior went to go and find her.
"Aeryn what is wrong...you haven't seemed much like yourself," Zhaan asked.
"Zhaan I remember everything about Earth, and I...I miss it," Aeryn said.
"Well maybe one day you can return to Earth," Zhaan said trying to comfort her.
"Yea, but not as Dr. Aeryn Sun head of Theoretical Science, but as Aeryn Sun the alien," Aeryn said.
"It will all turn out, but D'argo needs your help, so if you can..." Zhaan said.
"Let me get dressed," Aeryn said not feeling any better, but worse.
Zhaan left and Aeryn went through her clothing and decided on denim over-alls and a blue short sleeve shirt. She had her hair up a lose ponytail and put on her shoes. It still amazed her how she thought earth�s clothes were a little more comfortable them the ones she used to wear.
When she walked in to Command Crichton was back in his normal clothes he wore on Moya, along with his belt and weapons. Chiana seemed to do a double look when she saw what she was wearing. Aeryn could only imagine why these weren�t clothing you saw every day in the uncharted territories.
"Problem," Aeryn asked.
"No, it just you usually ware all black and you don�t have your weapon on you," Chiana said.
"Oh...I forgot it," Aeryn said softly this made D'argo a little suspicious about Aeryn behavior as well while Crichton had a small smile.
"Isn't that what you wore when we..." Crichton said than stopped him self.
"Yes," Aeryn said looking him in the eye.
Crichton just left her side and went over to talk to D'argo. This made Aeryn feel helpless she was the one who usually pulled away not him. So what if she wore the outfit she wore when they moved into together or maybe she wore it on a reason to make him remember.
"I have to go talk to Zhaan," Aeryn said before anyone could stop her from leaving.
It didn�t take Aeryn long to make it Zhaan�s she knew that it was only short distance from where they were. She stopped a little ways from there and just sunk to the ground not wanting to handle everything that was happening. When had she become so weak when had she become so much like-- a human. She finished her distance and walked into Zhaan�s area and saw her she knew she had been waiting for her
"Zhaan Can I talk to you," Aeryn said.
"Of course," Zhaan said.
"Zhaan I'm going nut. A part of me wants to show all these emotions, but then this other part is telling me not to. It like I'm in a war but with my self. And then there is John...he acts as if the thing on Earth never happened," Aeryn said as a few tears fell from her eyes.
"Its OK, all you need to do is find who you are now, Crichton came to me when he first killed and I told him everyone changes and everyone grows to be a new person with each experience and so do you," Zhaan said and Aeryn smiled.
"So I have to face that in a way I�m part human now and go from there," Aeryn said.
�Yes,� Zhaan said.
�Thanks Zhaan,� Aeryn said.
After about 2 weeks of Aeryn acting strangely Crichton went to talk to her, see if she would at least explain herself to him. He thought it may have to do with earth, but didn't see how. Earth was just illusion like false earth it was something an alien put them through and now they have to move on.
"Aeryn," Crichton said looking in her cell to see on one was there, but he walked in anyway.
On her floor were photo albums, clothing, hairpieces, and her journal he bought her. He picked up and one phrase caught his attention. So he began to read parts out loud even if he knew it was wrong. He noticed all of them were written to Daisy and that made him feel even worse. He also looked at the photograph inside and knew that earth meant more to her then he thought.
�Daisy I love him so much, but it seems he doesn't care. It drives me crazy--is this how he was when I pushed him away all those time. When I would let him see a part of me than tell him it meant nothing. I wish you were here with me�� John said then stopped reading and lied the journal down.
He had thought none of that meant anything to her. Yes she wore most of the clothing she had brought with to the trip, but he had no idea she felt like this. He felt almost bad because he loved her but was scared she didn�t love him. He turned around to leave when the worse thing possible happened.
"What are you doing in here," Aeryn asked.
"Looking for you," Crichton said
"You didn't touch anything did you," Aeryn asked.
"I just laid your journal on the bed, and this fell out," John said handing her the picture.
"You read it," Aeryn said more of and statement then a question.
"No I didn�t," John said.
"John Robert Crichton Junior. don�t lie to me," Aeryn said.
"I didn't," John said smiling.
"You're lying, because you have that look, Aeryn said.
"What Look," John asked innocently.
�The look you got when we caught you and DK reading Daisy's journal," Aeryn said.
"I may of read one or two words...or sentences...Aeryn none of that was real," John said changing the subject.
"To me it was...I remember everything that happen and even though I can't go back I have to remember because it changed my life," Aeryn said.
"Really you wish to return to that life," John said.
"Part of me does and always will," Aeryn said as he began to leave.
"Is what happened between us...was that real to you, Aeryn asked?
"I don't know," John said.
She grabbed his arm, and pulled him towards hers. She looked him straight in the eyes. She than closed her eyes and kissed him. Not a soft gentle kiss, but a hard passionate kiss. She put her arms around his neck as he returned the kiss. He was almost taken back at first but once again he couldn�t push her away.
"Did you feel anything," Aeryn asked.
"Not a thing...like kissing my sister," John said as he kissed her again.
Aeryn never had a chance to laugh at his stupid remark because he kissed before she could. Clothing once again became a memory as they once again showed each other how much they loved each other. Lips to lips, skin to skin and man to woman was that matter to them.
"Morning Sunshine," John said as she smiled at him.
"Morning," Aeryn said.
"We should get dressed," John said as they got up and as they dressed he couldn�t stop smiling at her.
He had thought that Earth meant nothing her, but know he find out it meant everything. He looked in her eyes and saw only love and passion. But know he remembered why he really loved her and why their relationship on earth went so fast. He knew the thing he had to give her and he would in an hour from that moment.
"Aeryn asked Pilot where I am in an arn," John said.
"Why," Aeryn asked.
"Just do it," John said giving her a kiss as she grabbed his arm and pulled him down to the bed.
�What are you up to now,� Aeryn asked kissing him again.
"I have to go," John said
"Why," Aeryn asked
"You'll see...in an arn,� John said giving her one last kiss.
He left and left a very confused Aeryn but she was very happy about all this. She lifted up her journal and started to tell Daisy about everything that happened. The hour seemed to go on and on before Pilot asked for her and she knew it was important.
"Aeryn glad you could make it," John said.
"Why are we here," Aeryn said.
"Because this is where we first met," John said and she smiled and gave him a hug and a quick kiss.
�And where I kick your butt,� Aeryn said with a smile.
"Aeryn you remember that a week before we return here...DK and I had to go and Pick up a few things,� John said.
"Yes why," she asked.
"Aeryn Emily Sun will you marry me," John said getting down on one knee and opening a black velvet box.
Her eyes showed the shock that she felt at the moment. She never excepted him to propose to her now and here since they just go together. But the look in his eyes showed that he had really thought about it and that he wanted only her.
"I...I didn�t except this," Aeryn said.
"You don't have to answer now if you don't want to, but the things we got were this engagement ring and our wedding rings�the ones you said you wanted," John said showing her two gold bands.
"Yes," Aeryn said.
"Yes what," John said.
"Yes, I'll marry you�if we can have an Earth like wedding," Aeryn said and he slid the ring on her finger and pick her up and swung her around a few times.
"I'll have to find a chain for that ring so you don't lose it," John said.
"I have one�what about our wedding bands," Aeryn asked.
"We'll keep those on�they don�t have a diamond on them," John said kissing her once again.
"Pilot call everyone to meet us in your chambers," Aeryn said taking his hand as they walked there.
The practically ran to Pilot chambers to get there before everyone else. Before they knew it John was chasing after Aeryn who seemed to be a little ahead of him. He finally grabbed her from behind and she settled into his arms. They drew apart when they heard D�argo and Chiana coming from down the hall. Pilot showed looked up and already had an idea of what was happening and was about to say something but Zhaan and Rygel came in.
"We are glad you could make it," Aeryn said.
"What's the problem now," Rygel asked.
"As far as I know there is no problem," Pilot said.
�There no problem�John and I have something we need to tell you,� Aeryn said a little surprise at the use of his first name.
"Aeryn and I have decided to get married," John said as Zhaan smiled, Chiana gave them a hug, D'argo shook their hands, and Rygel said something unselfish.
"When is this joyous celebration," Zhaan asked.
"As soon as possible," Aeryn said.
"We are coming to a commence planet in a few arns. You can get what you need for the ceremony there," Pilot said.
They all agreed and Crichton gave Aeryn a quick kiss once again. Everything would be perfect for them if no peacekeepers showed up or any other alien that wants them dead. Everyone seemed very happy for them but they both wished their family were there.
"Chiana give Aeryn this chain she'll know what it is for," John said.
"OK, I'll see you both soon, Chiana said.
Chiana gave D'argo a kiss and Crichton gave him a smile and finish getting ready. D�argo gave him the back off look and John did as his best friend asked. Aeryn had found the perfect white shirt that would go with her light blue shirt. She was glad she had her black pumps to ware. She put her engagement ring on the chain and Zhaan put it around her neck.
�I told John I had one I could use,� Aeryn said.
�Men never listen,� Zhaan said.
Aeryn hair was up in a French bun, with a few stains of hair shaped around her face. Crichton wore black slacks along with an off white button up dress shirt and a dark blue vest. Aeryn was still very nervous and was still in shock she was getting married and how normal things were going.
"Aeryn do you think I could keep this outfit," Chiana asked.
"Sure," Aeryn said smiling at the simple purple dress, it had no sleeves and came a little over the knees.
"Aeryn I know you wish Daisy was here, but I'm glad I get to see this," Chiana said.
"No, I wish that Daisy and DK were here with all of us...because you're family as must as they are," Aeryn said.
Zhaan took her place, Pilot showed up on the holo-image, D'argo and Crichton came in and stood next to Zhaan. Pilot began to play a song and Chiana started to walk towards them. Then Rygel and Aeryn followed. For John and Aeryn no one else was in the room, it felt like when they had their first date. Zhaan was reciting in her head exactly what she was supposed to say.
"Who gives Aeryn away," she said John couldn't help but smile.
"I do," Rygel said giving Aeryn's hand to John.
"Do you Aeryn Emily Sun take John to you husband until your death...no matter what happens...to never betray him...to only belong to him...to love and honor him, Zhaan said.
"I do," Aeryn said.
"Do you John Robert Crichton Junior take Aeryn to you wife until you death...no matter what happens...to never betray her...to only belong to her...to love and honor her," she said.
"I do," John said.
"The rings," Zhaan said and D'argo gave Crichton his ring first.
"With this ring I thee wed," John said putting the ring on her finger then Chiana gave Aeryn her next.
"With this ring I thee wed," Aeryn said putting the ring on his finger.
�I pronounce you husband and wife for this life and the next...you may kiss the bride,� Zhaan said.
They looked at each other and it may not have been worded like a wedding on earth but the meaning still remained. He leaned forwards and kissed her with all the passion he could find. When they parted they smiled at each other, and they noticed that Rygel had put up a picture of DK and Daisy.
"Thank you," Aeryn said and he only smiled at her.
"My I introduce Mr. And Mrs. John Crichton," Zhaan said since Aeryn had chosen to take his last name since it was a human custom.
Then the god like alien appeared with Daisy and DK, and Aeryn and Daisy hugged.
�We thought the Farscape module blew up,� Daisy said.
While John and Aeryn's memories were altered as well but they didn't know that. Daisy and DK thought Aeryn and John were lost when they took off in Farscape module all that time ago.
"Listen we will come back, but you can't tell anyone about this or..." John said.
"They'll think I lost it, we know," DK said.
"I miss you Aeryn," Daisy said.
"I miss you too," Aeryn said.
"You two are married now," she said.
"Yea, time up here made us fall in love," Aeryn said as Daisy laughed,
"No you two were never out of love," Daisy said.
�What your baby�s name,� Aeryn asked.
�Jonathon, we named him after John,� Daisy said.
"These are our friends, D'argo, Chiana, Rygel, Pilot and Moya," John said.
"Moya...I only four people, Daisy said.
"The ship," Aeryn said softly.
�The ship�is alive, DK said.
"Yes," Pilot said.
"What�s he say," DK asked and DRD almost went over, but Alien stopped them and waved his hand.
"It would be hard to explain�but I have made it to where they can understand them," he said with a snap of his fingers.
At the part DK and Daisy got know everyone a realized just how nice they were due to their appearance. They dance, ate strange food, and just had a good time. The wedding was John and Aeryn's dream until it came time for them to leave. Then they all said their goodbyes to each other even Moya crew was sad that DK and Daisy were leaving.
"We'll be back," Aeryn said.
�I know�you have to meet your nephew John,� Daisy said.
Daisy and Aeryn hugged one more time before she had to go over to DK. One more picture was taken of all them, both families as one. Daisy smiled at them and DK waved goodbye and the alien took them back and smiled as he saw his plan worked.
"A perfect wedding," Aeryn said putting her hands around his waist and her chin on his shoulder.
"To start a perfect life," he said turning around.
They kissed and he leaned he back on the wall and gave her the first of a hundred kisses. They parted and tears were still in her eyes and he knew why. The alien said they wouldn�t remember this until they reach earth again so DK and Daisy would never know this happen.
�Aeryn at least you can come back to earth�he changed you genetics,� John said.
�I know�now I too am an alien in the uncharted territories,� Aeryn said.
�Let go to bed�it�s out honeymoon,� John said.
�I agree with you there,� Aeryn said kissing him once again.
Passion, desire and a need was at John made he think about for a while. But those thought the thoughts of Earth, DK, Daisy, Jack and little John would go through their minds. Only time would tell if they would ever see them again and only fate would make that choice.
The End