I have lost so much.
You are so close.
I can feel your heartbeat through my skin.
I don't want to lose that.
I feel your smile on my face.
I don't want to lose that.
The velvet of your touch.
I don't want to lose that.
The ecstasy of your kiss,
Your warmth,
Your love,
Your trust.
Whatever it takes,
I want that again.
How can I go on without you?
And how can you go so easily without that?
You'll never lose me,
For I will be here,
Waiting for you
To return.
I may be charred.
I may be broken.
But I will be waiting,
With arms open.
And love in my heart.
-1-16-00
Finding you,
Was the best thing that ever
Happened to me.
Through all the shit,
Through all the pain,
I would not trade it for anything.
For one look in your eyes,
Is more joy than I have ever known.
Who knows what the future may bring,
Pain.
Ecstasy.
Confusion.
Despair.
But whatever it is.
I shall be here.
Thick and thin.
Only time will tell.
The sweet taste of your skin,
Still lingers in my heart.
How could I not wait?
1-20-00