My Human Condition
����������� My desire for happiness is a big aspect of my life because, just like everyone else, I don�t want to be sad and have nothing entertaining to do. My reason for joining the circus club is because I thought it would be fun to do the stunts and skits they do, and I�m glad I did. It is a lot of fun. I also picked my electives based off of what I thought would make me more happy. I decided for my workload to be reasonable, I could only do AP history or AP physics. Although I thought it might be harder, I believed it would make me happier to take AP physics. I never liked history that much.
����������� I see my ignorance towards subjects all the time. I always feel as if I don�t know every side of a view in politics, and I sometimes hear of something bad happening that sounds like it would happen rarely but others have heard spoken of often. I feel as if I�ve lived a sheltered life when I hear these kinds of things. I have also been limited in the type of movies I can watch. I�ve only been allowed to see a limited amount of rated �R� movies. I haven�t been able to join in with other�s joy at what many people say are classic movies such as �Pulp Fiction�. I haven�t been exposed things as much as others have been.
����������� I feel anxiety all the time. Whether it is about an upcoming test, a test grade I�ll be getting back soon, or a big event coming up I always am nervous about something. When one thing passes I start worrying about another thing or two. It is a very stressful circle that I cannot get out of because I cannot make myself relax about it.
����������� Neediness is a big weakness of mine. I need to be taken care of because I am not yet fully independent. I of course need help from my parents to survive. I also need friends and support to feel that I am needed as well. Everyone feels the need to be needed. I always want to be needed by someone because it makes me feel more important, like I have more of a purpose in life.
����������� Pain scares me from things I would like to do. I always wanted to play football and was happy to join the team when I got to SLUH. It was fun the first days when we had no pads on, but the first day of full pads I hated. When I got hit it hurt a lot more than I thought it would. This led to my quitting of the team the next day. I don�t like emotional pain very much either. Every day I think a lot about what people said to me and sometimes what I�ve heard hurts. I think I can trust someone, but then they say something stupid. It takes me a while to get over it sometimes. These are just things that I�ve grown up with, but haven�t gotten used to.
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����������� I have the freedom to make billions of choices through out my life time. Since I do not know everything and never will, these choices will never be fully enlightened as to their effects. I will have to make my judgments based on my limited knowledge and hope that they are the right choices, and learn what choices are bad so I can be wiser for my next decision. Everyone is like this, no one knows enough to know the good and bad consequences of every decision they�ll ever make. It is like my freedom to go down to dinner a little late so I can finish the page I am working on. When I arrive a few minutes late my mom might be angry that I wasn�t down right away to say prayer with the rest of the family, or she may be fine with my late arrival. Which one is best I will not know with my limited knowledge. This human condition points out why I'm not always right.