Cindy ...

"A tribute to a wonderful man
A man who would let nothing stop him or get in his way...A man of Strength and Warmth.."

Dave and I were married for 8 days shy of 27 years. I was only 16 when we were married and so I have never really been on my own.

Dave died of a Heart Attack on November 24, 1995, the day after Thanksgiving. I worked all day and returned home to find my soul mate, life partner and BEST FRIEND dead. There is no way to describe the horror of finding him that day and I will live forever with the memory of that day etched in my memory.

It has been 2 years 9 months now since that day and I have found that I can make it on my own..I didn't think it possible but I have gone on and life is getting better all the time.

I am very lucky to have a loving supportive family and circle of internet friends that I can count on to help me through the tough times that I still have even after this long...

In December of 1995 I found first a newsgroup called ALT SUPPORT GRIEF..I wrote a single sentence and posted it to this group. The sentence read.."Help my husband has died and I feel so alone and I don't know what to do" I recieved probably 200 responses from that cry for help and was so relieved to know that I was not alone in this grief journey. I was next directed to widownet...There I found the EMail list widow..and joined in January of 1996 and found the most wonderful support network in the world..Thankyou Michael Goshorn! In time I was directed to #Widow/ers chat channal, created by Anne and Magnolia, and found the answer to my prayers...People who I could chat with, cry with, and share with, and no that anytime I need one there were friends out there willing to help..

To those NEW to this grief road, know that time does heal, but the road is a very bumpy one. Kind of like riding a roller coaster and the highs are livable and the lows are almost unbearable, but we MUST travel this road to regain our self and go on as "one half of a whole" that we were for so long. I can't tell you how many times I screamed "I WANT MY OLD LIFE BACK" Unfortunately we all know we can't go back and we have no choice but to move ahead in this new life and find what happiness we can in our lives and I for one am doing just that and I must say life is once again good...