A Million Words Lost

I thought of this moment so many times
When we would meet again
And I could rectify all the wrongs I did
And I would look at you
And you would look at me
And all my words would be lost
All the things I wanted to say would be lost
A thousand million words carefully ordered
To make you understand
To make you see through my eyes
Through my heart, the way it bled
When I left
All carefully planned, to make you understand
But all for not
As a stream of words left my soul, and slipped away
Lost
And I could say nothing
Nothing
Nothing
Nothing
Just look at you
And cry within