i feel so alone, but i'm in a crowd

i cry, but nobody hears
my pain, i am keeping within myself
Along with my sorrow and tears

i look for a friend, but there isn't one
Not when i need one the most
i am begging for help, but no one can see
i exist, but i don't; i'm a ghost.

i'm drifting through life in a world of my own
i feel, i observe from afar
i feel i am only a passenger
and the air that i breathe is my car

i'm traveling along with such great haste
Cocooned in anger and pain
Terrified to face the realities of life
So i hide in the mist from the rain

So deeply hurt by the pain in my heart
i cannot believe you are gone
i'm living in a world of make believe
but my agonies go on and on

There is nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
how i long for a listening ear
Someone to take all my pain away
And shield me from all that i fear

How i long to awake to a bright sunny day
with a bright new future ahead
To find that it's all been a very bad dream
And that i am not really dead

It would be so nice to be in a crowd
and to feel like i'm actually there
and not feel detached, alone and afraid
and surrounded by endless despair.

i look for my friends,
but no one is there,
not when i need them the most
i am begging for help
but no one can see
i exist, but i don't,
i'm a ghost.

Copyright January 1998 APW Inc.