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| This was the end of August, 2005. I remember waiting for that letter. I remember that no matter what happened, I had that glimmer of hope to cling to. No matter how bad a fight was, I could get past it, knowing that Larry was going to write me back. And he did. I opened that letter, my hand was shaking! First thing I see are pictures of a little boy. I'm thinking 'great hes married with kids, I waited too long'. But come to find out, it was pictures of just him and his son. He was happy to hear from me! I read and re-read that letter. We wrote back and forth, finally he called me in September of 2005. We talked and talked. At that point, asshole didn't have a car, so I had to drop him and pick him up at the store. So Larry and I would talk til it was time to go pick him up. Sometimes we'd talk in the parking lot while I was waiting for him to come out. One might think to themselves "thats wrong". I say until you've walked a mile in my shoes, shut the hell up. No one has any idea what I went through for TOO many years, and they have no right to judge. So one day in September, I think it was Friday, September 9th or 10th, he surprised me. He called me and says "wheres veronica street? I'm about crapping my pants. He's almost there! He pulls up in front of my house, and I'll never forget it. It was like a dream. I ran out to meet him, and I just hugged him for so long. It was like the other half of me was there finally. Literally! We sat on the sofa, and held hands and talked some. Then he had to go home. We had our first kiss in my living room! OMG it was incredible. I saw shimmers of light behind my eyes, I really did. Thats the only way I can describe it! We talked a couple more weeks and decide to go on our official first date. We decide to see Saw II. Opening day was Saturday October 29th 2005. So he came up here with his buddy Bill and his wife and we went to see it. I remember holding Larry's hand and getting chills when he would caress the back of my hand and my arm. No one has had that effect on me ever. In 7th grade I remember that same feeling when we were standing by a pond. He came around the other side of me and his arm brushed my back and chills ran up my spine. Same feeling that day, I swear! After the movie, we went to Ponderosa for dinner. Then to a haunted house, then bowling. They got rooms at the Ramada Inn on Eureka, so they went there and I had to go pick You know who up at the store. So I drop him off finally, and I go back to the hotel. Larry and I spent the night together, we had an amazing time. I wasn't self conscious. I felt beautiful. He made me feel beautiful. I am not proud because that is technically cheating, but trust me it is ONLY a technicality. Anyway, this went on for a few months, I have NO idea how I got away with it. He actually saw a room key for Ramada on my car seat. I made up some lame excuse, and got away with it. Every weekend Larry would come down and spend it with me. We knew we needed to be together. I needed to bide my time. It was Christmas time. We were having dinner at my house, and we were trying to have a good time. However, the mood spoiler himself was in all his glory. My sister in law at the time Tracey and I had enrolled in college, much to his chagrin. How dare I try to better myself? After all, his stepmom had just finished nursing school. He was always saying how stupid it was that she went to school and didn't do anything with her degree. He thought it was just for bragging rights. He didn't like her anyway. He always said she went and got fake boobs just because his dad always stared at my REAL ones whenever I was around and she couldn't take it, ha. Anyway Someone at the dinner table said something about going to school to learn and not to see and be seen. I said to Tracey, we're going to go to learn, well and maybe a little to see and be seen, hahaha..He took that so seriously. We left. The plan was to go to Tim and Traceys to play games. On the way he makes me stop the car and asked what that comment was about. We get into a huge fight. I had programed the word HELP into my text messages and told Larry if I ever used it to call my mom and the police. So while he was ranting and raving , I texted Larry. Larry called my mom which in turn called the cops and then my brothers. My brothers finally caught up with us in front of his house after it had settled some. My bro had a gun in the back of his truck and I really think he wouldve used it if need be. Total Jerry Springer moment. So Larry had told my brothers that day something I told him. That a few weeks earlier, we had gotten into a fight and he pulled the wheel of my car so we were going into oncoming traffic. I got really scared, and I told Larry how scared I was. He got angry. He told my brothers. So they were already angry. Anyway, we broke up that night, and a couple days later, he guilted me into taking him back. I knew I had to end it completely because I wanted to be with Larry on New Years. So I ended it. I told him that I had been talking to someone. I didn't tell him anymore than that. Just talking. so it was easier to end it after I told him that. So I was free. Finally free. I didn't know what to do with myself. I felt like a caged bird who had just been given freedom. Larry started looking for a job down here and apt, he found both, and moved in March of 06 to be with me. He got a great job with Structural Preservation systems, making over $20 and hour, with great benefits! We started planning our wedding and here we are 32 days from it! He ran into ass at McDonalds the other day, turns out thats where his new punching bag I mean girlfriend works. Wow, talk about a downtrade by the way! I'm more confident now, but I'm really not conceited, but come on!! About 5'7, skinny as a rail, no boobs, no hips, no booty, brick red afro curly hair, pale as a ghost, long pointy nose, horn rimmed glasses, dresses like a freak. Need I say more? Haha..My friend Peg saw her one night and said OMG, is it Halloween? Hahah..And she works at McD's. I remember him making fun of people who work there! Oh, but it must be ok because he was bragging to my brother that she's only 19 or something. Woo hoo! In true family fashion, he is again robbing the cradle because thats the only kind of girl he can get to like him. Someone without a mind of her own, whom he can mold. Til she grows up and realizes she can do better. But with her looks, then again maybe not! But, that's what his dad did, now hes 60 some years old, married to a 35 year old, and miserable because she;s unhappy. She realized shes married to an old man. So hes following in daddys footsteps,dating a child, thinking that makes him a man. It makes him a sick bastard. This is how sick and demented his mind is. Hes on the verge of pedophile. We would pass a dance studio, which was little girls, preteen girls. He would call them "pert". whatever that meant.I didnt ask, Something sick I'm sure. Anyway, he was talking to Larry, and said his girlfriend cooks and cleans for him, blah blah blah... I know he was trying to insult ME. Because I never did that for him. I do it for Larry, but never for him. But all he did was inadvertently insult his new girlfriend. I feel sorry for her! Shes cleaning up after those godawful nasty smelly cats? Do they piss in her shoes too, like they do in his? Eccchhhhh.... Is she cleaning up his pee cups? Has she been with him when he has to take a dump and he won't use a public restroom? Has she found herself grossed out because he's actually... is he really... yes he is.... crapping in a BAG???!!! Maybe not. Maybe he's on his best behavior. Maybe he hasn't even threatened or hurt her yet. Old habits die hard. And either she's a freaking idiot who does every little thing he says, like I USED TO be, and is pleasing the "master', or hes on his best behavior. Hard telling. I wonder if he's bugging her to be with another girl, or flirting with her friends yet? It's coming. A whole world of hurt is coming if she doesnt wake up. Anway, I'm a whole new woman. And I wanted to get it all out. I needed to. I'm getting married on July 7th to the love of my life the half that makes me whole. And I can put that nightmare behind me, and move on. I'm a better person now. I like me. I look in the mirror and I see a beautiful, sexy confident WOMAN, not a girl. I'm grown now. And no one will treat me like that again. But I don't need to worry. Larry treats me like a princess. And I treat him like a king. That's the way it oughtta be. And that's the way it finally is. | ||