My Dearest Ciera

I love you so very much my little fussy pants. From the day that I found out that I was pregnant with you I was overjoyed. I knew I was having a girl. It was a gut feeling I guess. And it turned out to be right. You were 6 pounds and 8 ounces and a beautiful baby girl. Daddy and I named you Ciera. A perfect name for a perfect baby girl. Not a day went by where we were not proud of you. We watched you learn to crawl, watched you sit and watched you stand and walk along things. You were taken away from us before you had a chance to take your first steps in front of us. I will miss that and so many other things about you Ciera. I don’t understand why you had to go, I will never understand, but life must go on. It will never be the same without you around the house, your laughter, your crying, the way you got into things, the way you always cuddled into me to let me know you were tired, and the way you giggled up at me when I put you to bed at night, and the kisses we would give each other everyday and the hugs and that big sunny smile you always had for us. Every morning, during the day and at night. You are a very special baby and I will always treasure you and what you brought to our family and me. Will misses you everyday and asks where you are. We tell him that you’re in Heaven with our other family members that are waiting for you. They will protect you. You are now an Angel above us, sweet baby of mine. I wish you were here but you can’t be anymore. I hope you know that I tried to be the best mother I could be and even though some times were tough, you always had a sunny smile on that sweet beautiful face of yours. Mommy’s sorry for everything I couldn’t do to help you. You will always be in my heart as well as in daddy’s heart and Will’s also. The 11 months we had together were the best. I will never forget them nor would I trade them for anything in the world. It will be hard for so long to get use to the fact that you are not here but as long as I know you are happy, I will be able to keep going. My love for you will never stop it will only continue to grow my sweet Ciera.

If it is all right could you please check in on us once and a while. Ciera, you will always be in our hearts and prayers, we’ll never forget you. And what you brought to us was so much joy and happiness, and for those things I will find the strength to go on somehow. Please don’t forget us, we will never forget you and what you brought to our lives while we had you for that short period of time. It was a lifetime ofhappiness, joy, radiance, and beauty that I will treasure forever in my heart.

I love you Ciera and I miss you like crazy. Be well sweet princess. And may our families love for you guide you were you need to go. I know the love you had for us, will help us to continue on living and being stronger for each other. Thank you for the precious time we had while you were in our lives and our arms. We’ll treasure them forever and for always.